Why you all dun believe me?
Why????
Feeling bad...
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
TIRE
Oh man...
i skip the duan3 xun4 for few days in order to prepare for the lion dance competition..
Feel depress ah.. i hope i can concentrate for the duan3 xun4 de..
Just attend the opening ceremony ytd, so much i hope i can join it right now..
I have went to CT academic ytd too.. I have get some more info bout psychology..
but when i discuss bout tis wid my mum again.. SHE @##$%^... but non of it is right info de.. =.=
SIen i sleep so early ytd, reli reli tire ah!
other than God,
no1 can give me eternal strength anymore..
while the moment i feel weak is the moment i m away from God..
i m sorry..
i wish to back to the duan3 xun4 and concentrate and concentrate..to kno more bout u..
Amen..
i skip the duan3 xun4 for few days in order to prepare for the lion dance competition..
Feel depress ah.. i hope i can concentrate for the duan3 xun4 de..
Just attend the opening ceremony ytd, so much i hope i can join it right now..
I have went to CT academic ytd too.. I have get some more info bout psychology..
but when i discuss bout tis wid my mum again.. SHE @##$%^... but non of it is right info de.. =.=
SIen i sleep so early ytd, reli reli tire ah!
other than God,
no1 can give me eternal strength anymore..
while the moment i feel weak is the moment i m away from God..
i m sorry..
i wish to back to the duan3 xun4 and concentrate and concentrate..to kno more bout u..
Amen..
Monday, December 28, 2009
Friday, December 25, 2009
>.<
Mum, plz let me go duan3 xun4 la!!
i wish to be better in my religious life~
it wun harm me..
i dun wiah to skip this chance to earn those salary 1st..
To the one appear in my mind recently,
merry christmas ya,
i jz viewed your pics,
hope God do lead you all the time,
i kno u hav an interesting life wid colourful experience before,
but the life with the believe in God do give us peace...
i will pray for you de..
until i forget who u r????
hhahahaha
giv u the best present..
my Lord, Jesus
i wish to be better in my religious life~
it wun harm me..
i dun wiah to skip this chance to earn those salary 1st..
To the one appear in my mind recently,
merry christmas ya,
i jz viewed your pics,
hope God do lead you all the time,
i kno u hav an interesting life wid colourful experience before,
but the life with the believe in God do give us peace...
i will pray for you de..
until i forget who u r????
hhahahaha
giv u the best present..
my Lord, Jesus
Merry Christmas
Thx God for choose me to become Your son..
Thx for save me from dead soul..
though i have took wrong steps,
you never leave me,
and you are always with me,
waiting for me to aware of Your LOVE..
Today, is the birthday of Yours,
may the citizens in this world accept You as their savior...
I believe
You hav listened to ALL my wishes,
and i wil Pray for them
pray for You as well..
Amen..
Thx for save me from dead soul..
though i have took wrong steps,
you never leave me,
and you are always with me,
waiting for me to aware of Your LOVE..
Today, is the birthday of Yours,
may the citizens in this world accept You as their savior...
I believe
You hav listened to ALL my wishes,
and i wil Pray for them
pray for You as well..
Amen..
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
16th church camp
WOW~ i m glad that i joined it..
it is a non-replaceable experience..
manage to kno more bout wat a christian should do..
can kno more bout satan..
lot of real case..
i oso admit my fault n my shame wid all the people in the sharing session..
i want to admit it in front of God..
cause i kno..
between God n satan..
i choose God..
may You lighten up my way..
My dad...
it is a non-replaceable experience..
manage to kno more bout wat a christian should do..
can kno more bout satan..
lot of real case..
i oso admit my fault n my shame wid all the people in the sharing session..
i want to admit it in front of God..
cause i kno..
between God n satan..
i choose God..
may You lighten up my way..
My dad...
Sunday, December 20, 2009
"?"
一个人，或许会软弱，
一个人，却也可以很勇敢，
只要肯卸下枷锁。。。
而我却是个自我捆绑的小丑，
努力的当而，
竟放不下面具后面不为人知的软弱。。。
所幸，
近日以来都得以发泄，
才不致于迷失自己。。。
CSI， hmm。。。
看着办吧！
anyway，
will get a good result for myself de。。。
一个人，却也可以很勇敢，
只要肯卸下枷锁。。。
而我却是个自我捆绑的小丑，
努力的当而，
竟放不下面具后面不为人知的软弱。。。
所幸，
近日以来都得以发泄，
才不致于迷失自己。。。
CSI， hmm。。。
看着办吧！
anyway，
will get a good result for myself de。。。
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Lu zhou graduation camp
T.T..
dun feel to share it on blog cz it takes time..
but i m willing to share it to any1 of u if u hav interest to listen more bout it..
im glad to met benedict and Si1 Chuan2 there as well..
we talk together on the last night wid some other CH student!
haha so nice..
it is reli a meaningful camp to help us to understand more thing la..
it is a camp wid obvious objective..
fortunately i joined it!
^^
dun feel to share it on blog cz it takes time..
but i m willing to share it to any1 of u if u hav interest to listen more bout it..
im glad to met benedict and Si1 Chuan2 there as well..
we talk together on the last night wid some other CH student!
haha so nice..
it is reli a meaningful camp to help us to understand more thing la..
it is a camp wid obvious objective..
fortunately i joined it!
^^
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Emo-ing
OH man..
cant sleeeeeep ar..!
listen to te song te whole night on te bed
make me emo qu..
reli feel tire le..
duno wat to do ah!
wan work 1st then go open u at my own?
wan go for form 6 but go get license motorcycle to drive myself to school?
wan go maktab straightly?
OR go sekolah teknikal?!!!!!
oh my..
so challenging!
sien pity man so emo..
luckily is night time..
easily jiu can wait dao te second day..
cant sleeeeeep ar..!
listen to te song te whole night on te bed
make me emo qu..
reli feel tire le..
duno wat to do ah!
wan work 1st then go open u at my own?
wan go for form 6 but go get license motorcycle to drive myself to school?
wan go maktab straightly?
OR go sekolah teknikal?!!!!!
oh my..
so challenging!
sien pity man so emo..
luckily is night time..
easily jiu can wait dao te second day..
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
The presence of God
Hopefully,
i m not forget of His love..
and wish that i can overcome the challenges i m facing now..
i m not forget of His love..
and wish that i can overcome the challenges i m facing now..
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Sunday, December 13, 2009
What can i do now?
I have went to tanjung to have my dinner wid family last night..
i told them i m not going to chu dui next year le, cz it is against on my religion..
then they jiu @#$%^..
i kno $ is important..
but what i have now is enough oled..
plus, i reli dun wan to do against my religion..
i hav no appetite te whole night
listening you all to complain and having conflict
how long should i wait?
i need more power..
feel lik i m alone in this environment..
i jz wan to contribute more..
but why there is no1 wanna do it wid me?
hmm..
sad ah!
i told them i m not going to chu dui next year le, cz it is against on my religion..
then they jiu @#$%^..
i kno $ is important..
but what i have now is enough oled..
plus, i reli dun wan to do against my religion..
i hav no appetite te whole night
listening you all to complain and having conflict
how long should i wait?
i need more power..
feel lik i m alone in this environment..
i jz wan to contribute more..
but why there is no1 wanna do it wid me?
hmm..
sad ah!
Thursday, December 10, 2009
One Life Revolution
IF you never experience the life of those suffering..
it is a good chance for you to visit tis campiagn!
Don't live an selfish life..
experience is better than words..
Do respect n giv fair treatment to those Aids..
sigh...
May god bless we all
it is a good chance for you to visit tis campiagn!
Don't live an selfish life..
experience is better than words..
Do respect n giv fair treatment to those Aids..
sigh...
May god bless we all
human? insane?
Good morning my dear friends and professor.
i am here at this moment to activate the alarm in your life!
For your information, i have watch 2012 yesterday.
Well i have to congratulate to the whole bunch of workers involve in the movie..
tats a great movie..
not bcz of its extreme graphic,
but its success to attract the attention from the world..
So do i m attracting you all now, to spread a 2012's attitude!
There is a question. What is 2012's attitude?
It is easier to interact with you all if we know what is 2012 right?
Lets have a watch on this movie first!
..............................................................................................................................................................
ok done~~
Now i will like to invite you all to focus at here and don't let your brain stop to think.
ok now, i want to ask a question.
Will you use 1 billionaire to buy a slot to save your life?
yes you will but u don't have tat much $$..
isnt it?
lets proceed to next stage..
Do u think that you stil can alive if GOD wan take your life now?
...
...
...
...
i guess no1 can answer yes. EVEN if that person have buy the slot, but not from GOD..
Now we shall discuss more about 2012's attitude..
Why are the rich man or the human in the movie struggle so much when the end of day have come? Why they still don't want accept the truth of end of the world?
WHY? I guess they don't want to admit it.
They are struggling bcz they know the day have come!
how if they don't know?
eg: they have crash by car suddenly......
i guess there ll be no struggling.. their life have end without letting them know..
2012's attitude !
-Don't be greedy!
: Life is short and once. We will never know when will we die, so don't be selfish.. those "human" still act like animal even the day have come. This action is ridiculous.
: Nothing is eternal in this world. World is create by God, we too..
if we are the one being create, we can be destroyed too..
-Meaning of life!
: Innocence of human. When we are wish to holding something tightly, we should expect we may lose it too. Do you ever think of why human is created? Do you believe in life after death? thats depend. But i can have some discussion with those who have interest to know more.
2012's attitude is focus on the attitude toward meaning of life too..
however it is varies in human.
i have no right to judge others too cz i m human too..
but, GOD is present..
do u believe tis world have no judge?
do u believe u present as natural?
i hope you all can find ur own religion too..
There r a few guideline here..
1. GOD should be the one who is lightest and kindest
2. GOD is the 真理
well.. i think we have to put a top here since the knowledge i know is limited now..
we can have more sharing afterward..
feel free to contact me..
thx..
i am here at this moment to activate the alarm in your life!
For your information, i have watch 2012 yesterday.
Well i have to congratulate to the whole bunch of workers involve in the movie..
tats a great movie..
not bcz of its extreme graphic,
but its success to attract the attention from the world..
So do i m attracting you all now, to spread a 2012's attitude!
There is a question. What is 2012's attitude?
It is easier to interact with you all if we know what is 2012 right?
Lets have a watch on this movie first!
..............................................................................................................................................................
ok done~~
Now i will like to invite you all to focus at here and don't let your brain stop to think.
ok now, i want to ask a question.
Will you use 1 billionaire to buy a slot to save your life?
yes you will but u don't have tat much $$..
isnt it?
lets proceed to next stage..
Do u think that you stil can alive if GOD wan take your life now?
...
...
...
...
i guess no1 can answer yes. EVEN if that person have buy the slot, but not from GOD..
Now we shall discuss more about 2012's attitude..
Why are the rich man or the human in the movie struggle so much when the end of day have come? Why they still don't want accept the truth of end of the world?
WHY? I guess they don't want to admit it.
They are struggling bcz they know the day have come!
how if they don't know?
eg: they have crash by car suddenly......
i guess there ll be no struggling.. their life have end without letting them know..
2012's attitude !
-Don't be greedy!
: Life is short and once. We will never know when will we die, so don't be selfish.. those "human" still act like animal even the day have come. This action is ridiculous.
: Nothing is eternal in this world. World is create by God, we too..
if we are the one being create, we can be destroyed too..
-Meaning of life!
: Innocence of human. When we are wish to holding something tightly, we should expect we may lose it too. Do you ever think of why human is created? Do you believe in life after death? thats depend. But i can have some discussion with those who have interest to know more.
2012's attitude is focus on the attitude toward meaning of life too..
however it is varies in human.
i have no right to judge others too cz i m human too..
but, GOD is present..
do u believe tis world have no judge?
do u believe u present as natural?
i hope you all can find ur own religion too..
There r a few guideline here..
1. GOD should be the one who is lightest and kindest
2. GOD is the 真理
well.. i think we have to put a top here since the knowledge i know is limited now..
we can have more sharing afterward..
feel free to contact me..
thx..
Monday, December 7, 2009
Haiz
有
一点点的不快乐，
一点点的无奈，
但靠着紧抓着一丝平安与满足，
才知道那一点点的不平凡。。
知足，
是要乐于所拥有的不足。。。
富足，
是当你奢弃了对满足的欲望。。。
不应为富足而知足，
而因为知足而富足。。。
一点点的不快乐，
一点点的无奈，
但靠着紧抓着一丝平安与满足，
才知道那一点点的不平凡。。
知足，
是要乐于所拥有的不足。。。
富足，
是当你奢弃了对满足的欲望。。。
不应为富足而知足，
而因为知足而富足。。。
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Haiz
Dad gonna go the other place to work le..
can only back once in 3 month le gua..
hmm y in tis time..
i spend my time to go eat shopping wid my family tonight..
and now, i hav to pay for the debt..
cant sleep le!
jia you ba!
thx god for blessing me to hav my confidence back on driving..
though stil cacat one..
cant master te clutch now..
stil scare to press te wrong pedal too..
hav to keep think of te brake all the time=.=
heard the comment session in radio bout te 世界末日,
jz feel tat human r stil so self concentrate even on te last minute..
no1 think to help others at last meh?
no1 wan to say sry to those they ever hurt meh?
no1 think to realize the dream of others meh?
no1 wan to admit their fault in front of god meh?
no1 think to sing a song to share the peace wid others though there is an end le meh?
no1 wan to help those african n those suffering yet meh?
haha, jai ah..
u r stil young to kno the answer..
u ll find it out in ur future.. or mayb after u die..
so keep ur spirit on...
physic go..
can only back once in 3 month le gua..
hmm y in tis time..
i spend my time to go eat shopping wid my family tonight..
and now, i hav to pay for the debt..
cant sleep le!
jia you ba!
thx god for blessing me to hav my confidence back on driving..
though stil cacat one..
cant master te clutch now..
stil scare to press te wrong pedal too..
hav to keep think of te brake all the time=.=
heard the comment session in radio bout te 世界末日,
jz feel tat human r stil so self concentrate even on te last minute..
no1 think to help others at last meh?
no1 wan to say sry to those they ever hurt meh?
no1 think to realize the dream of others meh?
no1 wan to admit their fault in front of god meh?
no1 think to sing a song to share the peace wid others though there is an end le meh?
no1 wan to help those african n those suffering yet meh?
haha, jai ah..
u r stil young to kno the answer..
u ll find it out in ur future.. or mayb after u die..
so keep ur spirit on...
physic go..
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
责任
有一个无聊的人，
他对他的生活豪无责任感，
他天真的参与别人的故事，
却躲避自己的天空。。。
而这样的他，
尚且被上天怜悯活在世上。。
觉醒吧。。
若他仍不悔改，愿他早日跌入最低谷。。
从而领略。。
如今，
请抱着一丝悔意，
努力一阵子。。。
他对他的生活豪无责任感，
他天真的参与别人的故事，
却躲避自己的天空。。。
而这样的他，
尚且被上天怜悯活在世上。。
觉醒吧。。
若他仍不悔改，愿他早日跌入最低谷。。
从而领略。。
如今，
请抱着一丝悔意，
努力一阵子。。。
Sunday, November 29, 2009
彷徨。。
有样东西，
奇特但也可以很软弱，
总在白天黑昼的交替中，
吞噬最原始的单纯，
总一次次的戳破童话故事的安宁。。
如果可以，
我愿放下这无邪的天真。。
如果可以，
我愿绕远路。。
也不愿戳破别人的安宁。。。。
愿主常与你我同在，
带领，
赐平安
予 迷路的人。。。。
奇特但也可以很软弱，
总在白天黑昼的交替中，
吞噬最原始的单纯，
总一次次的戳破童话故事的安宁。。
如果可以，
我愿放下这无邪的天真。。
如果可以，
我愿绕远路。。
也不愿戳破别人的安宁。。。。
愿主常与你我同在，
带领，
赐平安
予 迷路的人。。。。
Friday, November 27, 2009
Nightmare..
I hav dream about ghost ah..
zzz so scary.
wan shout but dun hav sound out de..
sigh...
hate it...
zzz so scary.
wan shout but dun hav sound out de..
sigh...
hate it...
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Sienz
I miss my close frens ever... things have changed while time flies... To be or not to be..yesterday is no longer today...and i can never change the fact in past...
we may walk further apart...but i ll never forget..until we may meet in the next corner..
Lead me ahead please, my Lord..
nutritious my soul and my need...
give me the confidence and power..
to go on for longer path in life...
and now,
i need your bless, my Lord
i need your help to comfort my soul..
i feel weak..
i ll continue my effort to bia add math again..
HA!
sinpaido, daijogu sama....
i can make it better de!!
Trial 2 result:
Add math: 28
Biology: 21
Physic: 55
Chemistry: 34
oh my God..
my results in science subject r so lousy
i hav make these be better in tis 2 weeks..
arrr...
sohai jaiseng....
Add math: 28
Biology: 21
Physic: 55
Chemistry: 34
oh my God..
my results in science subject r so lousy
i hav make these be better in tis 2 weeks..
arrr...
sohai jaiseng....
Saturday, November 21, 2009
=.=... cheh.. dream again
Zzzz... should never put expectation on others ba
i dun wanna such dream...
aiyo..
ling jai seng..
study la u..
i dun wanna such dream...
aiyo..
ling jai seng..
study la u..
Thursday, November 19, 2009
>.<
Thx to God i hav go through part of the harsh moment..
smile ya smile ya~
wahahahahhahahahahaha
hahahahahahahaha...
not feeling much stress recently
duno it is hidden by me o not...
hmm... jia you!
smile ya smile ya~
wahahahahhahahahahaha
hahahahahahahaha...
not feeling much stress recently
duno it is hidden by me o not...
hmm... jia you!
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Monday, November 16, 2009
=.=..
It is not a matter that have solution..
what i can do is to choose among the choice i have..
I am working hard too, Sharon..
i'll not give up..
i kno wat shud i do too..
i ll find my own key out..
to open "that"
to open the door which have no key to unlock...
how nice it ll b, if there is some1 who can help me to unlock it at the other side..
=X
what i can do is to choose among the choice i have..
I am working hard too, Sharon..
i'll not give up..
i kno wat shud i do too..
i ll find my own key out..
to open "that"
to open the door which have no key to unlock...
how nice it ll b, if there is some1 who can help me to unlock it at the other side..
=X
Saturday, November 14, 2009
折磨。。。
直到何时，
我才会爱我自己呢？
一再的排斥自己，不让它去接近人。。
真的好挣扎。。
每当寂静侵袭，
失去麻醉品时，
陪伴着我的只有自己，
真的很想往它脸上揍过去！
恨。。。
i m not myself when i m not loving him..
now, i m not the 1 who i m..
i only can persuade myself with words from God..
May God's love guide me to love myself too..
amen..
我才会爱我自己呢？
一再的排斥自己，不让它去接近人。。
真的好挣扎。。
每当寂静侵袭，
失去麻醉品时，
陪伴着我的只有自己，
真的很想往它脸上揍过去！
恨。。。
i m not myself when i m not loving him..
now, i m not the 1 who i m..
i only can persuade myself with words from God..
May God's love guide me to love myself too..
amen..
Messy mind.. i run away again..
Hm.. i have take a long nap b4 upload tis post..
i hav exhaust my stamina today
since i hav let myself in dilema..
keep run away of myself ah..
sien..
haha..
not dare to hold anything today too..
so sien...
jai ah,
when u wan to open ur heart huh?
haiz....
i hav exhaust my stamina today
since i hav let myself in dilema..
keep run away of myself ah..
sien..
haha..
not dare to hold anything today too..
so sien...
jai ah,
when u wan to open ur heart huh?
haiz....
Friday, November 13, 2009
毕业礼～
哎呀。。
tml is the prize giving ceremony eh..
but mum n dad cant attend..
so much i hope tat they can go n witness the golden moment..
so much i hope tat i can hav them accompany me to go on the stage n let the others c them.
let them feel proud..
feel good..
i hope to get the reassurance from tat as well as make them proud..
but haiz..
quite sad..
make me feel lonely again..
i wan to share my stuff with those i care..
but...
God, plz accompany me all the way in my life..
you are the one i could rely on when there is nobody around me..
wish tat my achievement could let you feel proud..
i will try my best to contribute better to others
tml is the prize giving ceremony eh..
but mum n dad cant attend..
so much i hope tat they can go n witness the golden moment..
so much i hope tat i can hav them accompany me to go on the stage n let the others c them.
let them feel proud..
feel good..
i hope to get the reassurance from tat as well as make them proud..
but haiz..
quite sad..
make me feel lonely again..
i wan to share my stuff with those i care..
but...
God, plz accompany me all the way in my life..
you are the one i could rely on when there is nobody around me..
wish tat my achievement could let you feel proud..
i will try my best to contribute better to others
无可奈何。。
唉，好辛苦啊。。。
太无知或太清醒都麻醉不了XX。。
天真的国度，
早该堕入地狱。。
愿我的灵不被世俗所侵蚀。。
愿我的意识不被创伤所模糊。。。
唯有回到神的范围，才看见孤寂的软弱。。
神啊，请赐给我坚持的立量。。
走过毒花园，
度过悲怨阴霾，
我需要您的陪伴。。。
永恒的
不便的。。。
i hav live for 18 years..
and i hardly let the people around me feel happy and peace..
may God give me the strength and confidence to do so..
spread your love..
amen......
太无知或太清醒都麻醉不了XX。。
天真的国度，
早该堕入地狱。。
愿我的灵不被世俗所侵蚀。。
愿我的意识不被创伤所模糊。。。
唯有回到神的范围，才看见孤寂的软弱。。
神啊，请赐给我坚持的立量。。
走过毒花园，
度过悲怨阴霾，
我需要您的陪伴。。。
永恒的
不便的。。。
i hav live for 18 years..
and i hardly let the people around me feel happy and peace..
may God give me the strength and confidence to do so..
spread your love..
amen......
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
=)
It is another starting of the day..
though i still haven make use of the time to study wisely
but i feel better le..
i do spend some time talk cock wid kevin bout the camp
haha feel good bout it lo..
owes dou not feel lonely when i share bout those things wid him..
jy~
though i still haven make use of the time to study wisely
but i feel better le..
i do spend some time talk cock wid kevin bout the camp
haha feel good bout it lo..
owes dou not feel lonely when i share bout those things wid him..
jy~
There was a rainy day in his heart
haiz..
keep 失眠 these few days..
tonight.. a peaceful night where i can hear the sound of my heart.. i run from my bed。。
i heard the sound。。
it was blur.. but i kno it doesn't feel good..
thx kor for pei me chatting la..
i have to say it..
it reli feel good when i kno i stil grabbed by some1..
沙塔之所以屹立，
乃因它拥有结构，
但，又有谁知晓，
它心里的杂陈。。。
如果回忆能被选择，我愿从沙堆里找出最维美的。。
梦×梦×梦。。。
keep 失眠 these few days..
tonight.. a peaceful night where i can hear the sound of my heart.. i run from my bed。。
i heard the sound。。
it was blur.. but i kno it doesn't feel good..
thx kor for pei me chatting la..
i have to say it..
it reli feel good when i kno i stil grabbed by some1..
沙塔之所以屹立，
乃因它拥有结构，
但，又有谁知晓，
它心里的杂陈。。。
如果回忆能被选择，我愿从沙堆里找出最维美的。。
梦×梦×梦。。。
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Saturday, November 7, 2009
#$%&*
T.T...
what have happened to me?
not understand the situation now..
Talk to me >.<
God,
i hope i will not defeated by loneliness..
what have happened to me?
not understand the situation now..
Talk to me >.<
God,
i hope i will not defeated by loneliness..
"^^"""
No mood today..
tiring today..
feeling weird today..
will b ok after today..
i guess..
it is not my day.......
tiring today..
feeling weird today..
will b ok after today..
i guess..
it is not my day.......
I m improving.. i guess so..
Hmm.. i had played badminton wid kevin them again on ytd afternoon..
exercise keep my mind fresh n let me cool down n think more..
i kno i m improving. it may not reach the target or the standard yet..
but i hav being different in other way.. somewhere i kno only..
i was haunted by different nightmare tis few night..
and yet jz shout at my mum twice today.. >.<..
she not v agree wid me to go exercise again b4 spm ba..
plus, i hurt my foot haha..
then jiu $%^&**(..
shout xia..
haha i think there is still have some unknown stress in my heart gua..
release in wrong way le haha.
i heard some of the frens discussed bout their future..
i heard bout the uni they so wanted to go..
i duno whether some of them do really kno what thy wan la..
and duno they reli hav prepare themselves well o not
but l ll be here to help what i can do>.<.. though i not so wei3 da4 yet la.
i ll aim for government scu..
takes it as a challenge lo..
not bad too la..
i wun study til too guilty cz cost parent tat much to provide me further study..
at the same time..
i ll try learn as much as i can..
aim to study piano after spm de..
>.<..
asked cheng yi to teach me basic oled..
hehe jz wanna express my feeling n wanna help to play piano in the church..
well..
jy ba..
sohai guy..
exercise keep my mind fresh n let me cool down n think more..
i kno i m improving. it may not reach the target or the standard yet..
but i hav being different in other way.. somewhere i kno only..
i was haunted by different nightmare tis few night..
and yet jz shout at my mum twice today.. >.<..
she not v agree wid me to go exercise again b4 spm ba..
plus, i hurt my foot haha..
then jiu $%^&**(..
shout xia..
haha i think there is still have some unknown stress in my heart gua..
release in wrong way le haha.
i heard some of the frens discussed bout their future..
i heard bout the uni they so wanted to go..
i duno whether some of them do really kno what thy wan la..
and duno they reli hav prepare themselves well o not
but l ll be here to help what i can do>.<.. though i not so wei3 da4 yet la.
i ll aim for government scu..
takes it as a challenge lo..
not bad too la..
i wun study til too guilty cz cost parent tat much to provide me further study..
at the same time..
i ll try learn as much as i can..
aim to study piano after spm de..
>.<..
asked cheng yi to teach me basic oled..
hehe jz wanna express my feeling n wanna help to play piano in the church..
well..
jy ba..
sohai guy..
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Happy birthday kor..
Happy birthday to you~
aiya cant sing birthday song for u..
haha nvm.. i ll paiseh too lol..
seldom do it..
but lets have a outgoing after you back ya..
haha saw my bro de post on ur wall in facebook..
u said u din help much,
but i help myself..
i can be agree wid it..
but i have to let kor now..
u r my close kor who lead me to a correct way..
u r the 1 who ken3 ding4 my effort n present at 1st..
i learn alot from you..
receive the love in action from you..
i wun forget how u support me n comfort me start from the end of Form 3..
thx kor..
may ur life fill wid colour and wid smile..
may our relationship can overcome all the challenge in the world..
hoorayy..
XD
aiya cant sing birthday song for u..
haha nvm.. i ll paiseh too lol..
seldom do it..
but lets have a outgoing after you back ya..
haha saw my bro de post on ur wall in facebook..
u said u din help much,
but i help myself..
i can be agree wid it..
but i have to let kor now..
u r my close kor who lead me to a correct way..
u r the 1 who ken3 ding4 my effort n present at 1st..
i learn alot from you..
receive the love in action from you..
i wun forget how u support me n comfort me start from the end of Form 3..
thx kor..
may ur life fill wid colour and wid smile..
may our relationship can overcome all the challenge in the world..
hoorayy..
XD
Tire ah...
T.T.. i still feel so tire eh
though i sleep so early tis few day edi..
hmm...
spm is coming..
i kno i hav my target oled n i kno i m putting the effort i can afford..
May god bless me..
and my form 5 frens..
though i sleep so early tis few day edi..
hmm...
spm is coming..
i kno i hav my target oled n i kno i m putting the effort i can afford..
May god bless me..
and my form 5 frens..
Monday, November 2, 2009
COOL DOWN..
Hoo... hoo...
jai, u shud put aside ur "wei da" de plan aside 1st ba..
if spm oso not prepare well, u gonna blame urself until u die eh..
stil 18 tis years..
i dun wan regrets for tat long time ler..
20years+ eh
study ba..
u r a clever guy..
u kno wat shud u do..
jz have urself cool down..
put down everything...
power is driving u crazy..
hmm... lai lai lai study..
jy ya!!
jai, u shud put aside ur "wei da" de plan aside 1st ba..
if spm oso not prepare well, u gonna blame urself until u die eh..
stil 18 tis years..
i dun wan regrets for tat long time ler..
20years+ eh
study ba..
u r a clever guy..
u kno wat shud u do..
jz have urself cool down..
put down everything...
power is driving u crazy..
hmm... lai lai lai study..
jy ya!!
Saturday, October 31, 2009
My feeling (right after i back from church)
I m so touch i back to church again..
and yet i can feel tat God is leading me..
tis is te 1st time i go Tuan2 Qi4 after so long time being a fake Christian lol..
hav the feeling of wanna express something to him n cry in front of him..
i dun wan to leave God..
>.<..
haha... just make some update on the facebook again bout the camp..
i think..
i ll make it come true after spm..
do believe in yourself, jai..
jy!!
and yet i can feel tat God is leading me..
tis is te 1st time i go Tuan2 Qi4 after so long time being a fake Christian lol..
hav the feeling of wanna express something to him n cry in front of him..
i dun wan to leave God..
>.<..
haha... just make some update on the facebook again bout the camp..
i think..
i ll make it come true after spm..
do believe in yourself, jai..
jy!!
T.T... din study much tis few days
Aiya...
today you4 no study dao le except tat 2 hours de tuition..
=.=...
motivate yourself fast fast...
get it as a habit fast fast...
houh...
left around 2 weeks le...
haha jz made a page for CH 09's graduate in facebook...
kindly refer to
http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#/pages/CH-09s-Graduate/163448322772?ref=ts
o search for CH 09's graduate ba
it is te 1st step to do survey bout te interest n comments of form 5 students..
>.<.. i may only plan it after SPM le lo.. need out my focus on test stil.. hehe.. but i ll leave it to GOD.. if i hav te strong will n there hav around 30 people wanna hav a camp.. i ll go on my plan n finish it in a week of time.. but now.... i hav to go church.. back le jiu ll study le.. i will study de!!!!
today you4 no study dao le except tat 2 hours de tuition..
=.=...
motivate yourself fast fast...
get it as a habit fast fast...
houh...
left around 2 weeks le...
haha jz made a page for CH 09's graduate in facebook...
kindly refer to
http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#/pages/CH-09s-Graduate/163448322772?ref=ts
o search for CH 09's graduate ba
it is te 1st step to do survey bout te interest n comments of form 5 students..
>.<.. i may only plan it after SPM le lo.. need out my focus on test stil.. hehe.. but i ll leave it to GOD.. if i hav te strong will n there hav around 30 people wanna hav a camp.. i ll go on my plan n finish it in a week of time.. but now.... i hav to go church.. back le jiu ll study le.. i will study de!!!!
Thursday, October 29, 2009
^^ i found the solution hehe..
erm..
i have an idea last few days before when i was chatting wid Kevin in msn..
tat is organize a camp for our close fren n te1 we care la..
Is it exciting???
well i guess it is lol...
i do decide to make a camp after my secondary scu life..
i wan to challenge myself..
so i do discuss wid Mr. Lucas bout my idea today..
it was definitely a useful lesson for me again hehe..
lets view back what happen jz now..
>.<
haha i prepare myself so well for tat lol..
i take it as an interview n i present it to him..
he oso help me to express wat i wan n my feeling..
haha i oso tell him i m afraid too..
not bcz i no tat ability to make te camp.
but i hav no confidence now..
as i scare i cant influence te frens..
i m totally no problem wid te objective of the camp, the schedule or anything else.
jz i hav no confidence on myself..
so mr. Lucas ask me to do it step by step..
so i decide to start wid small gathering 1st..
but not a normal gathering..
but fill of meaningful activities and oso healthy topic n mind washing..
i jz hope i can do something to te frens who willing to accept my help..
so after the spm, i ll definitely try to plan it wid te frens involved..
lets do something meaningful!!
something tat worth for us to do at this YOUNG age hehe~
actually, i cried again in his office la..
cz remind of the things i go through b4..
those harsh moment whic others may not understand..
feel better oso la.
i can feel tat i m improving..
i m proud of tat...
erm..
i jz nid some ken3 ding4 la..
so far dou less ken3 ding4 by others de..
but nvm..
soon, i ll be v v v v v tough..
i m te1 who can contribute lots to others..
jy!!!
i have an idea last few days before when i was chatting wid Kevin in msn..
tat is organize a camp for our close fren n te1 we care la..
Is it exciting???
well i guess it is lol...
i do decide to make a camp after my secondary scu life..
i wan to challenge myself..
so i do discuss wid Mr. Lucas bout my idea today..
it was definitely a useful lesson for me again hehe..
lets view back what happen jz now..
>.<
haha i prepare myself so well for tat lol..
i take it as an interview n i present it to him..
he oso help me to express wat i wan n my feeling..
haha i oso tell him i m afraid too..
not bcz i no tat ability to make te camp.
but i hav no confidence now..
as i scare i cant influence te frens..
i m totally no problem wid te objective of the camp, the schedule or anything else.
jz i hav no confidence on myself..
so mr. Lucas ask me to do it step by step..
so i decide to start wid small gathering 1st..
but not a normal gathering..
but fill of meaningful activities and oso healthy topic n mind washing..
i jz hope i can do something to te frens who willing to accept my help..
so after the spm, i ll definitely try to plan it wid te frens involved..
lets do something meaningful!!
something tat worth for us to do at this YOUNG age hehe~
actually, i cried again in his office la..
cz remind of the things i go through b4..
those harsh moment whic others may not understand..
feel better oso la.
i can feel tat i m improving..
i m proud of tat...
erm..
i jz nid some ken3 ding4 la..
so far dou less ken3 ding4 by others de..
but nvm..
soon, i ll be v v v v v tough..
i m te1 who can contribute lots to others..
jy!!!
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Pain XD
haha today snake at home lol..
muscle so pain now..
old bone old body..
sigh jz exercise a while jiu not tahan le..
stil expect myself can do more lagi ler..
so fast reach maximum limit meh..
haha..
gonna find back my study mood ler..
STUDY MOOD ah...
muscle so pain now..
old bone old body..
sigh jz exercise a while jiu not tahan le..
stil expect myself can do more lagi ler..
so fast reach maximum limit meh..
haha..
gonna find back my study mood ler..
STUDY MOOD ah...
我一定要你回来~~~ |
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
!!!!
Shao!!!
some incredible idea out wid Kevin...
but i hav to manage myself better..
put my all focus on SPM stil..
jy..
God, i can feel it..
u ll lead me right?
i can feel tat i m standing out in front now..
some incredible idea out wid Kevin...
but i hav to manage myself better..
put my all focus on SPM stil..
jy..
God, i can feel it..
u ll lead me right?
i can feel tat i m standing out in front now..
Arrr....
hmm.. jz finish my 2nd trial today..
so far i m reli not satisfy wid te trial results..
but i understand there r no points to regret..
te memory i hav make me grow until now..
thx God...
actually, i m quite stress tis few days..
something wrg wid me haha...
and i think it is not bcz of te spm..
is something bout my mind..
distract by some unknown things..
i choose to exercise n play wid fren after te test but not study..
erm quite happy lo..
at least i can hav chance to touch badminton again..
more n more chance to in contact wid Jacky too..
i m working hard to improve our relationship^^..
i played basketball and badminton..
i m satisfy wid my performance as i kno i can do better if i practise more..
jz my muscle pain le now..
feel better after sapu medicine..
today cant release o my negative feeling lo..
but i cant stop my foot now..
i need to go on..
i ll use my mind to overcome te rest..
wid te help of God..
"THE SECRET".. teach us to think positive..
to gain positive result too..
i m trying on it..
it ll bring me to a better way!!
erm..
i dun think there is a need to publish tis blog to too many person yet la..
tis blog is te place i write my diary..
my hidden feeling..
jy
jy jy!!!!!!
u r te one who is capable and yet loyal...
live like how God live..
think lik how God think..
Do like how God did..
amen....
so far i m reli not satisfy wid te trial results..
but i understand there r no points to regret..
te memory i hav make me grow until now..
thx God...
actually, i m quite stress tis few days..
something wrg wid me haha...
and i think it is not bcz of te spm..
is something bout my mind..
distract by some unknown things..
i choose to exercise n play wid fren after te test but not study..
erm quite happy lo..
at least i can hav chance to touch badminton again..
more n more chance to in contact wid Jacky too..
i m working hard to improve our relationship^^..
i played basketball and badminton..
i m satisfy wid my performance as i kno i can do better if i practise more..
jz my muscle pain le now..
feel better after sapu medicine..
today cant release o my negative feeling lo..
but i cant stop my foot now..
i need to go on..
i ll use my mind to overcome te rest..
wid te help of God..
"THE SECRET".. teach us to think positive..
to gain positive result too..
i m trying on it..
it ll bring me to a better way!!
erm..
i dun think there is a need to publish tis blog to too many person yet la..
tis blog is te place i write my diary..
my hidden feeling..
jy
jy jy!!!!!!
u r te one who is capable and yet loyal...
live like how God live..
think lik how God think..
Do like how God did..
amen....
Monday, October 26, 2009
I miss this chatbox..
http://shuling_wong.shoutmix.net/
*chrc blog is currently dun hav chat box now..
however, i stil encourage te usage of it lo >.<...
but te admin mz reli kno te responsibility of them..
they shud kno wat to do to protect te others..
but not creating more problems...
erm.. duno wat to do wid tis chatbox too actually..
for those who reli wan to refresh back to te past when free..
kindly visit tis website lo hehe^^
*chrc blog is currently dun hav chat box now..
however, i stil encourage te usage of it lo >.<...
but te admin mz reli kno te responsibility of them..
they shud kno wat to do to protect te others..
but not creating more problems...
erm.. duno wat to do wid tis chatbox too actually..
for those who reli wan to refresh back to te past when free..
kindly visit tis website lo hehe^^
Nightmare!! totally nightmare!!
ZzzzzzzZZ...
it make me suffering throughout te dream n in real life..
but i feel better now le..
te feeling is worst at te moment i jz wake up..
haiz..
actually...
it is te dream bout how desperate i m lo..
Isi isi penting:
Pendahuluan: "she" came to my house for holiday wid her those close fren.. My family member welcome them lagi! well, cz i cant accept it to happen yet ba haha..
P2: They overnight at my house.. te unknown writer of te dream hav use some monolog dalaman to show te conflict happen in myself..
P3: Te story berkembang dengan peristiwa i run from my house.. in order to escape from te hell may be to myself..
P4: Te day i back to my home again, they r stil there.. My mum kno bout my detail of my previous 1st love le.. Te climaks happen when i cant control my emotion n burst out in front them..
P5: Te peleraian hav been happen through te comfort from ( ?? forget le.. ).
Kesimpulan: I cool down myself once again.. choose to treat it wid positive way.. more opened mind.. everything ll b ok.. i sure can handle de...
****
haha then i jiu wake up le..
stunned on te bed for few minutes..
haha..
i think,
it is a nightmare for me..
bcz i dun wan burst out..
i kno i cant change something in past..
i jz wish to handle myself well..
hmm... XD
it make me suffering throughout te dream n in real life..
but i feel better now le..
te feeling is worst at te moment i jz wake up..
haiz..
actually...
it is te dream bout how desperate i m lo..
Isi isi penting:
Pendahuluan: "she" came to my house for holiday wid her those close fren.. My family member welcome them lagi! well, cz i cant accept it to happen yet ba haha..
P2: They overnight at my house.. te unknown writer of te dream hav use some monolog dalaman to show te conflict happen in myself..
P3: Te story berkembang dengan peristiwa i run from my house.. in order to escape from te hell may be to myself..
P4: Te day i back to my home again, they r stil there.. My mum kno bout my detail of my previous 1st love le.. Te climaks happen when i cant control my emotion n burst out in front them..
P5: Te peleraian hav been happen through te comfort from ( ?? forget le.. ).
Kesimpulan: I cool down myself once again.. choose to treat it wid positive way.. more opened mind.. everything ll b ok.. i sure can handle de...
****
haha then i jiu wake up le..
stunned on te bed for few minutes..
haha..
i think,
it is a nightmare for me..
bcz i dun wan burst out..
i kno i cant change something in past..
i jz wish to handle myself well..
hmm... XD
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Open or not open?
Guys.. plz giv me some idea n suggestion..
shud i open tis blog o not?
te blog is te place i wan to express my personal feeling..
now i hav bit feel to use my blog to influence te frens around me too by some positive feeling too eh
>.<
How?
shud i open tis blog o not?
te blog is te place i wan to express my personal feeling..
now i hav bit feel to use my blog to influence te frens around me too by some positive feeling too eh
>.<
How?
25th Nov 2009..
Yesterday was the birthday party of Kit Wee lo..
Though his actual birthday is at 28th Nov la..
but he has to celebrate earlier..
i did hav fun there lo..
wanna go study at pustaka tat morning de.
but go le cai realize tat day is cuti umun..
dewan suarah oso not open..
haiz then i jiu study there lo..
I reli can study there ler!!
there r 2 meaningful incidents in tat morning..
one of tat is i met Gary Yong n Chua Wei Hui outside te pustaka lo...
we hav some talk..
hehe i can interact better than past le ler..
erm i feel te changes in Wei hui lo..
he is so helpful..
and he told me he is 1 of te yi4 gong1 of LZ too..
tats giv me a big impact..
Lz reli do bring big impact to me too..
tats y i feel to help others too..
i wan influence n help those who stil dun hav direction in their life.. >.<..
tat afternoon i met jia yang lo..
went to his house to study..
then str8 go Kit Wee house for party at 5 le..
I did interact n sharing!
i m not te one who cant contribute smile to others..
hav some doggy action..
hav some serious talk bout moral value n general knodledge too..
thx Joanne, Hien Yung, Alvin, Kevin more n more lo..
haha quite sad to heard tat Ben is going to Study oversea few weeks after Spm..
hmm i ll pray for u to de la..
25th*
i go to church today.. i met Moses..
haha everything happened as planned by God..
i hav accept so many activities in church..
and back to God..
in a formal.. better understanding situation..
however..
now i stil feel lonely in te way of Christian la..
te frens around me now dou not v sincere in Jesus yet too de lo..
hmm
GOD, u reli mz hold me tight ya..
i ll jy de..
i can live in ur way alone too..
i ll slowly adapt myself..
haha..
i wish more n more frens i care can come to church n back to God too..
The present God ll give is free..
it is te endless life..
not in te form of human where we hav sin..
i hav confidence i can go to paradise 1 day..
i m willing to help those who willing to believe in God o hav come changes too..
Frens.. i m here to help..
practising to help..
Though his actual birthday is at 28th Nov la..
but he has to celebrate earlier..
i did hav fun there lo..
wanna go study at pustaka tat morning de.
but go le cai realize tat day is cuti umun..
dewan suarah oso not open..
haiz then i jiu study there lo..
I reli can study there ler!!
there r 2 meaningful incidents in tat morning..
one of tat is i met Gary Yong n Chua Wei Hui outside te pustaka lo...
we hav some talk..
hehe i can interact better than past le ler..
erm i feel te changes in Wei hui lo..
he is so helpful..
and he told me he is 1 of te yi4 gong1 of LZ too..
tats giv me a big impact..
Lz reli do bring big impact to me too..
tats y i feel to help others too..
i wan influence n help those who stil dun hav direction in their life.. >.<..
tat afternoon i met jia yang lo..
went to his house to study..
then str8 go Kit Wee house for party at 5 le..
I did interact n sharing!
i m not te one who cant contribute smile to others..
hav some doggy action..
hav some serious talk bout moral value n general knodledge too..
thx Joanne, Hien Yung, Alvin, Kevin more n more lo..
haha quite sad to heard tat Ben is going to Study oversea few weeks after Spm..
hmm i ll pray for u to de la..
25th*
i go to church today.. i met Moses..
haha everything happened as planned by God..
i hav accept so many activities in church..
and back to God..
in a formal.. better understanding situation..
however..
now i stil feel lonely in te way of Christian la..
te frens around me now dou not v sincere in Jesus yet too de lo..
hmm
GOD, u reli mz hold me tight ya..
i ll jy de..
i can live in ur way alone too..
i ll slowly adapt myself..
haha..
i wish more n more frens i care can come to church n back to God too..
The present God ll give is free..
it is te endless life..
not in te form of human where we hav sin..
i hav confidence i can go to paradise 1 day..
i m willing to help those who willing to believe in God o hav come changes too..
Frens.. i m here to help..
practising to help..
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Nightmare..
Sigh..
dream of accident again..
so scary n too terrible le la..
zzz in dream oso cant find brake..
so fen3 ci4...
haha jy ah jai..
hav a nice day ya..
dream of accident again..
so scary n too terrible le la..
zzz in dream oso cant find brake..
so fen3 ci4...
haha jy ah jai..
hav a nice day ya..
Thursday, October 22, 2009
I wanna boost myself!
Thx god for motivate me to hav my biology test today lol..
ben lai dun wan waste time go n sit there fa dai only de..
haha but not bad la..
i experience te feel of last test in CH...
although sleep more than writing on paper..
i hav went to lz around 3.00pm..
i do talk wid mr. Lucas again b4 tutition..
haha he boost me alot again..
showing his confidence on me n
told me he wish i can b te leader in lz too... ( in future la haha)
erm..
thx for letting me kno tat i m mature cz i m willing to think..
thx for let me kno tat i hav to challenge myself more..
let me kno tat i do not need to hav others to pei me in all te stuff..
i nid to b independent too..
i cn do alot of things still wid alone.. i no nid rely on others... tats cool..
i wan to achieve tis attitude..
then i ll b different wid lots of ple..
i can do well in my future road..
finally thx for helping me in te lz camp fee..
u free me RM 80 ler..
lol now i hav no tat ability to earn te money yet..
i ll probably back n help lz after graduate gua..
thx God for leading me o te time..
ben lai dun wan waste time go n sit there fa dai only de..
haha but not bad la..
i experience te feel of last test in CH...
although sleep more than writing on paper..
i hav went to lz around 3.00pm..
i do talk wid mr. Lucas again b4 tutition..
haha he boost me alot again..
showing his confidence on me n
told me he wish i can b te leader in lz too... ( in future la haha)
erm..
thx for letting me kno tat i m mature cz i m willing to think..
thx for let me kno tat i hav to challenge myself more..
let me kno tat i do not need to hav others to pei me in all te stuff..
i nid to b independent too..
i cn do alot of things still wid alone.. i no nid rely on others... tats cool..
i wan to achieve tis attitude..
then i ll b different wid lots of ple..
i can do well in my future road..
finally thx for helping me in te lz camp fee..
u free me RM 80 ler..
lol now i hav no tat ability to earn te money yet..
i ll probably back n help lz after graduate gua..
thx God for leading me o te time..
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
You ll find ur way in the name of God..
Hmm...
din prepare well for te Add math paper 2 today..
i oso din handle well te bc essay..
but is ok..
it is a trial..
i aim for SPM..
GOD.. plz keep me wid u..
live in ur bless...
went to LZ to hav my physic tuition again jz now..
Mr. lucas talked wid me in his office..
he was care bout me n asked me bout my situation..
and i cried accidentally and unexpectedly..
all of a sudden..
i reli duno i hav stress in my heart..
i tot i digest oled..
haha but it is ok..
may God give me a chance to cry..
^^...
so long time no gen3 ye4 lik tat le..
waa te sound so funny man..
haha...
but i ll keep going stil..
thx Mr. lucas hehe
din prepare well for te Add math paper 2 today..
i oso din handle well te bc essay..
but is ok..
it is a trial..
i aim for SPM..
GOD.. plz keep me wid u..
live in ur bless...
went to LZ to hav my physic tuition again jz now..
Mr. lucas talked wid me in his office..
he was care bout me n asked me bout my situation..
and i cried accidentally and unexpectedly..
all of a sudden..
i reli duno i hav stress in my heart..
i tot i digest oled..
haha but it is ok..
may God give me a chance to cry..
^^...
so long time no gen3 ye4 lik tat le..
waa te sound so funny man..
haha...
but i ll keep going stil..
thx Mr. lucas hehe
Monday, October 19, 2009
o.0
waaa..
almost get crazy in bus tis morning..
tahan dao4 so xin ku..
kelian ler..
duno wat happen to tat malay aunt too..
sing in te bus n keep laugh..
haiz..
sit beside me lagi!!!!
luckily i forget tat now..
hmm..
today ah.. stil not bad lo..
though keep think of te past..
but i did study in te bus tis morning oh..
jz continue like tis..
make yourself nervous bout spm..
u can do it de!!!
realize te advantage of single ba..
lonely not te world u hav to stay all te time..
gambateh jer..
almost get crazy in bus tis morning..
tahan dao4 so xin ku..
kelian ler..
duno wat happen to tat malay aunt too..
sing in te bus n keep laugh..
haiz..
sit beside me lagi!!!!
luckily i forget tat now..
hmm..
today ah.. stil not bad lo..
though keep think of te past..
but i did study in te bus tis morning oh..
jz continue like tis..
make yourself nervous bout spm..
u can do it de!!!
realize te advantage of single ba..
lonely not te world u hav to stay all te time..
gambateh jer..
Sunday, October 18, 2009
>.<
Aiks...
i jz finish bath n look into te mirror to c myself..
i saw a long hair guy...
haha... it do remind me of something...
there is a moment u say i look good when in short hair..
but looks lik "ye3 ren2" lagi in long hair..
zzz n now i m a ye ren loooo haha...
mayb nid to hav a hair cut soon le..
at least ll in better mood haha..
long hair seem lik so down eh..
jy guy...
=(....
i jz finish bath n look into te mirror to c myself..
i saw a long hair guy...
haha... it do remind me of something...
there is a moment u say i look good when in short hair..
but looks lik "ye3 ren2" lagi in long hair..
zzz n now i m a ye ren loooo haha...
mayb nid to hav a hair cut soon le..
at least ll in better mood haha..
long hair seem lik so down eh..
jy guy...
=(....
So huai nian..
Woohoo having a dream i ever had around 3 years b4..
almost te same 1..
i can feel tat it was te same dream..
a weird life in scu
where a gal i like hav been captured by evil...
i was in fear when i m stil tat age ler haha..
now.. no more lo..
there r more things scary then ghost..
hehe so huai nian my samurai sword in te dream..
my weapon ler...
put so much effort to make it..
to save te gal...
tats all la...
it is not a nightmare..
thx GOD
almost te same 1..
i can feel tat it was te same dream..
a weird life in scu
where a gal i like hav been captured by evil...
i was in fear when i m stil tat age ler haha..
now.. no more lo..
there r more things scary then ghost..
hehe so huai nian my samurai sword in te dream..
my weapon ler...
put so much effort to make it..
to save te gal...
tats all la...
it is not a nightmare..
thx GOD
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Aiya my stomach...
Sien din wear cloth n let te air go into my stomach..
now pain pain pain le!!!
ish..
haha today go lz tuition again..
i like to meet wid mr. Lucas..
like to share wid him..
even jz few words..
he is te 1 sure ll listen to me too..
wahahaha...
thx God..
n thx mr Lucas for help me come back to God..
kor ah..
jy in ur test ah...
gambateh...
wait u back...
to giv a warm hug..
too many things wanna share wid u le..
will explode de oh..
so fast fast back after my spm ah.
dun forget we stil wan to go swim together..
teach me oh..
*****
hmm.. speechless...
nvm nvm... XD i wun how..
i ever think lik tat too..
forgiveness is important..
though seem lik suspect my side here..
but is ok.
jy ba...
God judge everything, not me...
now pain pain pain le!!!
ish..
haha today go lz tuition again..
i like to meet wid mr. Lucas..
like to share wid him..
even jz few words..
he is te 1 sure ll listen to me too..
wahahaha...
thx God..
n thx mr Lucas for help me come back to God..
kor ah..
jy in ur test ah...
gambateh...
wait u back...
to giv a warm hug..
too many things wanna share wid u le..
will explode de oh..
so fast fast back after my spm ah.
dun forget we stil wan to go swim together..
teach me oh..
*****
hmm.. speechless...
nvm nvm... XD i wun how..
i ever think lik tat too..
forgiveness is important..
though seem lik suspect my side here..
but is ok.
jy ba...
God judge everything, not me...
Friday, October 16, 2009
Haiz
Erm..
dream dao some weird weird de dream again..
nvm la..at least winnie did talk wid me inside..
haha i can differentiate it once i wake up oh.
cz tis is reli not real.. wun happen de..
something wun happen...
for tis period..
aiya..
te car kena me played xia now many problem le..
quite guilty...
go go go..
dun kacau me..
hahaha..
happy birthday Fionna...
wish u can live happily n meaningful...
jy!
dream dao some weird weird de dream again..
nvm la..at least winnie did talk wid me inside..
haha i can differentiate it once i wake up oh.
cz tis is reli not real.. wun happen de..
something wun happen...
for tis period..
aiya..
te car kena me played xia now many problem le..
quite guilty...
go go go..
dun kacau me..
hahaha..
happy birthday Fionna...
wish u can live happily n meaningful...
jy!
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
T_T
Dad back le..
kena him say arr....
stil feel depressed although i expected it oled..
$^%^&*
....
ush!!!!
dun spoil my mood..
i duno wat decision o action u 2 wanna do to me..
jz go ahead...
dun feel to find te reason o excuse for tat incident too..
i did wrg..
tats all!!
yeah~
go go go..
ban me la..
dun feel to touch te car for tis period too..
Jerome..
a doggy person..
and yet is quite pity too..
owes kena me bully lol....
jy ba..
will pray for u in ur future music's road..
reli wan find me to write lyric for u oh?
ahahaha...
wait i feng1 fu4 my knowledge more 1st lo...
gambateh!!
kena him say arr....
stil feel depressed although i expected it oled..
$^%^&*
....
ush!!!!
dun spoil my mood..
i duno wat decision o action u 2 wanna do to me..
jz go ahead...
dun feel to find te reason o excuse for tat incident too..
i did wrg..
tats all!!
yeah~
go go go..
ban me la..
dun feel to touch te car for tis period too..
Jerome..
a doggy person..
and yet is quite pity too..
owes kena me bully lol....
jy ba..
will pray for u in ur future music's road..
reli wan find me to write lyric for u oh?
ahahaha...
wait i feng1 fu4 my knowledge more 1st lo...
gambateh!!
Monday, October 12, 2009
Dream?
Hmm..
it is a tiring day..
stil kena Mr. phang to "use" lagi n work for him until 6 something..
nth special today..
i din hav my mind cleared n appreciate my day today..
it is not a dream today gua..
although i feel tire now..
Hui yi..
jy oh!!
mayb those decisions n things r not happen in a suitable way..
but i ll pray for u too de..
even u cant c tis post haha...
it is a tiring day..
stil kena Mr. phang to "use" lagi n work for him until 6 something..
nth special today..
i din hav my mind cleared n appreciate my day today..
it is not a dream today gua..
although i feel tire now..
Hui yi..
jy oh!!
mayb those decisions n things r not happen in a suitable way..
but i ll pray for u too de..
even u cant c tis post haha...
Sunday, October 11, 2009
DAMN!!!
Oh shit!
it is terrible enuf!!
sohai it jz lik a nightmare..
but it happen in real life! in my life..
tis morning lagi...
damn it...
luckily no1 injured cause of me..
damn wat happen to me?!
shit...
y m i so stupid?!!!!! y being so blur?!!!!!!
sien ah....
damn so guilty....
i x wan drive for tis few month le...
ARRRRRRRR....
it is terrible enuf!!
sohai it jz lik a nightmare..
but it happen in real life! in my life..
tis morning lagi...
damn it...
luckily no1 injured cause of me..
damn wat happen to me?!
shit...
y m i so stupid?!!!!! y being so blur?!!!!!!
sien ah....
damn so guilty....
i x wan drive for tis few month le...
ARRRRRRRR....
Friday, October 9, 2009
Wayaiya.....
Haiz..
reli speechless...
i ll observe...
wat may happen te next..
who may kena distracted in front of te challenges...
reli speechless...
i ll observe...
wat may happen te next..
who may kena distracted in front of te challenges...
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
study study study!!
thx _mos,
thx god...
i appreciate it..
long time no feel so le..
grabbed by some1...
" No one is perfect, so learn to forgive and forget..."
>.<....
a story of a stupid guy...
-he is motivating himself again..
-he is studying now..
thx god...
i appreciate it..
long time no feel so le..
grabbed by some1...
" No one is perfect, so learn to forgive and forget..."
>.<....
a story of a stupid guy...
-he is motivating himself again..
-he is studying now..
The story of a stupid guy who stil live in fairy tale..
Haiz..
reli duno wat i doing these few days..
set te target le oso stil te same..
feel lik i reli not zhu4 zong4 my life..
sigh..
WASTING TIME AH!!!!
argh..
it knock my door..
it is te consciousness bout reality..
now i could realize..
wat i believe n hav in mind before,
are jz jokes in front of te fact now..
how little i m..
how normal i ll be..
i know it now..
after i hav been so proud bout 18 years..
i hav no inner strength neither efficient knowledge...
Pui!!
no mood...
sien tis morning hav a dream again..
i reli dulan of dreaming anymore..
it jz remind me of how far it is from te real life..
it almost make me blur n tot te dream is true..
but it is jz something fake..
PITY!!
Useless...
reli duno wat i doing these few days..
set te target le oso stil te same..
feel lik i reli not zhu4 zong4 my life..
sigh..
WASTING TIME AH!!!!
argh..
it knock my door..
it is te consciousness bout reality..
now i could realize..
wat i believe n hav in mind before,
are jz jokes in front of te fact now..
how little i m..
how normal i ll be..
i know it now..
after i hav been so proud bout 18 years..
i hav no inner strength neither efficient knowledge...
Pui!!
no mood...
sien tis morning hav a dream again..
i reli dulan of dreaming anymore..
it jz remind me of how far it is from te real life..
it almost make me blur n tot te dream is true..
but it is jz something fake..
PITY!!
Useless...
Sunday, October 4, 2009
13.10.09 Mid autumn festival..
Wow.. moon cake moon cake...
but ytd din eat dao moon cake..
my favourite bing1 pi2 yue4 bin3 ah!!
aiyo..
haha go to pustaka study again early morning..
i skip te talk in school..
wondering y there r stil hav student ll afraid of demerit system...
luckily there r stil some big bomb de fren go pustaka..
i m not lonely in study..
around 4.30pm...
all go swim at te public swimming pool..
i folo them too since ming invited me..
hm..
i did improve le hor..
can swim far 10cm lol..
kidding..
stil learning..
caact de..
move oso wun move..
night...
go hav dinner wid family..
buy some tradisional biscuit..
hehe i lik it..
keep feed it into my mouth after back home..
moon..
bulat bulat de..
haha..
te feeling of missing other come so strong in tis special day..
everything seem no perfection in front te white moon..
well..
wish tat those who r lonely now..
can cheer up wid te help of god..
life is stil go on..
^^...
"There r no interaction,
so better dun put expectation.."
it is ok... stil too young to have tat much yet..
jz let it being forgotten...
but ytd din eat dao moon cake..
my favourite bing1 pi2 yue4 bin3 ah!!
aiyo..
haha go to pustaka study again early morning..
i skip te talk in school..
wondering y there r stil hav student ll afraid of demerit system...
luckily there r stil some big bomb de fren go pustaka..
i m not lonely in study..
around 4.30pm...
all go swim at te public swimming pool..
i folo them too since ming invited me..
hm..
i did improve le hor..
can swim far 10cm lol..
kidding..
stil learning..
caact de..
move oso wun move..
night...
go hav dinner wid family..
buy some tradisional biscuit..
hehe i lik it..
keep feed it into my mouth after back home..
moon..
bulat bulat de..
haha..
te feeling of missing other come so strong in tis special day..
everything seem no perfection in front te white moon..
well..
wish tat those who r lonely now..
can cheer up wid te help of god..
life is stil go on..
^^...
"There r no interaction,
so better dun put expectation.."
it is ok... stil too young to have tat much yet..
jz let it being forgotten...
Monday, September 28, 2009
The 1st step to achieve my dream..
Wow...
jz went to church ytd..
i hav skip it for 3 years lik tat ler..
finally determined to go to church even i was tire..
feel good lo..
i meet kevin ling there..
my close fren when i was stil in primary school..
we seldom chat together lo although until now we stil in te same school..
he invited me to work as part time waiter at boulevard restaurant lo..
i accept it!
haha i hav been wishing for it for long time le..
jz owes no 1 pei..
thx god for arrange tis for me..
tat afternoon,
i out wid mr.lucas for 1 more time lo..
we chat again..
he analysis alot of things for me too..
i m happy i m now in te process to understand n accept myself more..
i can feel it..
i m having some little changes in myself..
thx god for leading me..
and welcome me to back to YOU...
Tat evening, i folo kevin's car go work lo..
he go fetch his gf too XD haha..
so sweet they are..
Guan1 Qiang2 oso work there eh..
hehe..
i feel happy lo although tiring..
i experience alot of things..
i kno something mayb unfair too..
but te most important thing is i ever put effort..
tats te most precious process...
there are some v ngiao n dulan de things in my mind la..
and oso something i wry too..
but it is ok..
i stil young hehe..
after few years..
i kno i ll b different.
Skip for school today lo..
reli tiring ba...
sleep whole morning n afternoon..
but manage to study bit at night la..
hmm..
will go n work again gua if hav chance..
i wan to earn money to cut down te beban of family..
need earn for tuition fee hehe..
wow...
dad back today..
once again..
i reli feel tat tis home ll never b quiet if dad is around.
not bcz he talk alot o v cheerful..
is bcz he is here wid us..
1 ayat sahaja to care me o talk wid me..
can make me feel tis family is complete oled..
haha
thx GOD...
hehe so love u...
jz went to church ytd..
i hav skip it for 3 years lik tat ler..
finally determined to go to church even i was tire..
feel good lo..
i meet kevin ling there..
my close fren when i was stil in primary school..
we seldom chat together lo although until now we stil in te same school..
he invited me to work as part time waiter at boulevard restaurant lo..
i accept it!
haha i hav been wishing for it for long time le..
jz owes no 1 pei..
thx god for arrange tis for me..
tat afternoon,
i out wid mr.lucas for 1 more time lo..
we chat again..
he analysis alot of things for me too..
i m happy i m now in te process to understand n accept myself more..
i can feel it..
i m having some little changes in myself..
thx god for leading me..
and welcome me to back to YOU...
Tat evening, i folo kevin's car go work lo..
he go fetch his gf too XD haha..
so sweet they are..
Guan1 Qiang2 oso work there eh..
hehe..
i feel happy lo although tiring..
i experience alot of things..
i kno something mayb unfair too..
but te most important thing is i ever put effort..
tats te most precious process...
there are some v ngiao n dulan de things in my mind la..
and oso something i wry too..
but it is ok..
i stil young hehe..
after few years..
i kno i ll b different.
Skip for school today lo..
reli tiring ba...
sleep whole morning n afternoon..
but manage to study bit at night la..
hmm..
will go n work again gua if hav chance..
i wan to earn money to cut down te beban of family..
need earn for tuition fee hehe..
wow...
dad back today..
once again..
i reli feel tat tis home ll never b quiet if dad is around.
not bcz he talk alot o v cheerful..
is bcz he is here wid us..
1 ayat sahaja to care me o talk wid me..
can make me feel tis family is complete oled..
haha
thx GOD...
hehe so love u...
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Kelian ah..
Pity human...
owes trapped by challenges n emotion..
Dear god..
i ll pray so tat YOU can save us..
save those who important for me..
keep them safe, healthy, and able to overcome evry encounter of life..
help those who need help..
save those who wish to be saved..
and i ll pray so tat they can hav chance to listen to ur words..
Dear god,
i wish to be saved actually..
save me plz..
help me plz..
when i refer to you..
plz show ur love on poor me..
cz i need u n i believe in u.....
in te name of god..
i pray..
amen..
owes trapped by challenges n emotion..
Dear god..
i ll pray so tat YOU can save us..
save those who important for me..
keep them safe, healthy, and able to overcome evry encounter of life..
help those who need help..
save those who wish to be saved..
and i ll pray so tat they can hav chance to listen to ur words..
Dear god,
i wish to be saved actually..
save me plz..
help me plz..
when i refer to you..
plz show ur love on poor me..
cz i need u n i believe in u.....
in te name of god..
i pray..
amen..
Jy.. birthday gal
Happy birthday to u,
Happy birthday to u,
Happy birthday to Mavis~
Happy birthday to u....
Happy birthday to u,
Happy birthday to Mavis~
Happy birthday to u....
Friday, September 25, 2009
Thx ya my only lord...Jesus..
Thx thx thx...
u comfort my soul..
u give me peace..
u show me te direction...
although i m not complete...
u r stil forgive me for times...
u give me te chance to live as u..
u show me where te happiness is..
ur song shud b sing by me every moment..
ur words shud i bear in mind every day..
plz occupy my heart..
take us wid u...
now, i ll ask for a dream to come true..
i wish to be a humble n loyal christian..
so tat i wun fall down cz of te challenges..
u ll be wid us..
ur words make us strong..
ur world owes ready for us..
plz guide us..
so tat we owes folllow ur road too...
i m sry tat i not a good person tat u ll like yet..
teach me te methods to love u..
may u giv us some confidence..
JESUS...
love you all!
u comfort my soul..
u give me peace..
u show me te direction...
although i m not complete...
u r stil forgive me for times...
u give me te chance to live as u..
u show me where te happiness is..
ur song shud b sing by me every moment..
ur words shud i bear in mind every day..
plz occupy my heart..
take us wid u...
now, i ll ask for a dream to come true..
i wish to be a humble n loyal christian..
so tat i wun fall down cz of te challenges..
u ll be wid us..
ur words make us strong..
ur world owes ready for us..
plz guide us..
so tat we owes folllow ur road too...
i m sry tat i not a good person tat u ll like yet..
teach me te methods to love u..
may u giv us some confidence..
JESUS...
love you all!
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
THX God!
I m happy,
i manage to spend sometime talk wid Mr. Lucas today...
He is helpful n caring
as usual haha....
in te name of te God,
he show te way to me..
we chat together at te starbucks locate at miri airport..
well..
i m appreciate tat he help me to sort out my messy mind..
tats great.
i kno wat shud i do now n wat shud i hav in my mind..
thx god...
i love u...
hug me close..
so tat i can live in ur way
i manage to spend sometime talk wid Mr. Lucas today...
He is helpful n caring
as usual haha....
in te name of te God,
he show te way to me..
we chat together at te starbucks locate at miri airport..
well..
i m appreciate tat he help me to sort out my messy mind..
tats great.
i kno wat shud i do now n wat shud i hav in my mind..
thx god...
i love u...
hug me close..
so tat i can live in ur way
Monday, September 21, 2009
20.09.2009
Wow... jz wake...
was enjoying yesterday outgoing wid frens..
it was te ex logistic prefects gathering..
i was joining them too loo..
going bbq at tanjung around 7...
it was a cool raining day..
enjoy te big wind..
te coldness whic could blow away my messy mind.
We going mariott hotel to swim, sauna...
then go eat at kfc again...
and stay in te room watch football league afterward..
at least i m not lonely haha...
i back around 1.30am lo...
mum x let me overnight ba haha...
ytd saw kah khing was doing wid some special stuff..
make my heart sour xia haha...
but suan le ba..
let it be..
i ll be lead by te destiny...
jz nid b fan4 kai1 le...
*
If u reli gonna leave from my world...
please x take away my heart..
nth last forever
unless te time stop...
and now,
te time is moving...
our memories is jz memories...
which may hav different meaning
for u..
for me......
was enjoying yesterday outgoing wid frens..
it was te ex logistic prefects gathering..
i was joining them too loo..
going bbq at tanjung around 7...
it was a cool raining day..
enjoy te big wind..
te coldness whic could blow away my messy mind.
We going mariott hotel to swim, sauna...
then go eat at kfc again...
and stay in te room watch football league afterward..
at least i m not lonely haha...
i back around 1.30am lo...
mum x let me overnight ba haha...
ytd saw kah khing was doing wid some special stuff..
make my heart sour xia haha...
but suan le ba..
let it be..
i ll be lead by te destiny...
jz nid b fan4 kai1 le...
*
If u reli gonna leave from my world...
please x take away my heart..
nth last forever
unless te time stop...
and now,
te time is moving...
our memories is jz memories...
which may hav different meaning
for u..
for me......
Thursday, September 17, 2009
How many days oled huh?
Today,
is a rainy day..
but i think, te rainy weather is not as cold as my heart...
the cloud, surely not as much as te question there are in my mind...
i wish for some guide..
to lead me go ahead....
i m now losing my previous feel of believing...
days by days..
it gonna kill me...
how pity is tis boy...
he shud learn to be more siao sa...
to put down everything..
although there are tones of question n she bu de..
"Man, cheer up man..."
"jy jy"
u stil nid continue your life...
and u nid 2 prepare if u cant forget her...
learn to be more silent against something...
i duno how 2 help u..
jz...
i x wan c u lik tis too...
>.<
is a rainy day..
but i think, te rainy weather is not as cold as my heart...
the cloud, surely not as much as te question there are in my mind...
i wish for some guide..
to lead me go ahead....
i m now losing my previous feel of believing...
days by days..
it gonna kill me...
how pity is tis boy...
he shud learn to be more siao sa...
to put down everything..
although there are tones of question n she bu de..
"Man, cheer up man..."
"jy jy"
u stil nid continue your life...
and u nid 2 prepare if u cant forget her...
learn to be more silent against something...
i duno how 2 help u..
jz...
i x wan c u lik tis too...
>.<
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
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thx blogger...
i reli duno wat shud i do if u r not invented..
thx.......................................
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thx blogger...
i reli duno wat shud i do if u r not invented..
thx.......................................
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T_T...
Haiz...
Just had a dream tis morning..
well it is bout some1 important to me...
but now we hav been less talk oled...
i think i ll v happy if i dream dao her b4..
but now..
duno wat to do n wat shud i feel le..
shud b feel happy.. but once think of te situation now,
str8 down le..
ishhh.......
tis morning jz met her outside te school...
but i was not wake up fully yet tat time..
and stil haunted by my feeling..
i was cold in words...
but now i reli scare le lo...
not dare c dao her n talk wid her..
tat situation gonna kill me since we hav no topic...
erm..
i wan to say sry actually la..
there hav been a period i less smile n no much face expression de..
mayb u tot tat i fu yan u o dun lik u le..
sry la..
mayb bcz of tis so u oso x feel to talk much wid me le..
whic lead to no topic at o...
Dear jesus..
may u bless my day in your love..
so tat i can hav my emotion n mind stay in ur way...
amen..
Just had a dream tis morning..
well it is bout some1 important to me...
but now we hav been less talk oled...
i think i ll v happy if i dream dao her b4..
but now..
duno wat to do n wat shud i feel le..
shud b feel happy.. but once think of te situation now,
str8 down le..
ishhh.......
tis morning jz met her outside te school...
but i was not wake up fully yet tat time..
and stil haunted by my feeling..
i was cold in words...
but now i reli scare le lo...
not dare c dao her n talk wid her..
tat situation gonna kill me since we hav no topic...
erm..
i wan to say sry actually la..
there hav been a period i less smile n no much face expression de..
mayb u tot tat i fu yan u o dun lik u le..
sry la..
mayb bcz of tis so u oso x feel to talk much wid me le..
whic lead to no topic at o...
Dear jesus..
may u bless my day in your love..
so tat i can hav my emotion n mind stay in ur way...
amen..
Monday, September 14, 2009
Tiring... cacat...
Both my hands...
so pain after went to te gym last sat..
now... pressing keyboard oso so slow...
take my cup of water oso nid use my other hand help 2 lift up..
haiz...
today....
suan le ba...
keep giving myself courage to believe tat we can hav topic 'MAYBE after break..
who kno...
suan le ba...
jz a noon.. oled disappointed for 4-5 times like tat...
i reli x wan to disappointed anymore..
rao2 le4 wo3...
plz...
haiz... jz do wat u wan for tis period la....
i jz....
wan find a night to go out wid some1...
pei me c stars....
but most probably not u............
it cant be le....
it ll b o te silent tat time.........
jz left te sound of night!
so pain after went to te gym last sat..
now... pressing keyboard oso so slow...
take my cup of water oso nid use my other hand help 2 lift up..
haiz...
today....
suan le ba...
keep giving myself courage to believe tat we can hav topic 'MAYBE after break..
who kno...
suan le ba...
jz a noon.. oled disappointed for 4-5 times like tat...
i reli x wan to disappointed anymore..
rao2 le4 wo3...
plz...
haiz... jz do wat u wan for tis period la....
i jz....
wan find a night to go out wid some1...
pei me c stars....
but most probably not u............
it cant be le....
it ll b o te silent tat time.........
jz left te sound of night!
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Fren..
There are some person who are important in my life...
some of them mayb stil remain as fren, cz they are male..
one become my kor..
and u...
when i found tat i love u..
i tot it is everything...
until u x feel to continue anymore..
i reli duno wat shud i do...
i reli hope u can make ur decision wid me..
including me in ur daily life..
n share wid me...
but hard gua haha...
i m too greedy...
feel lik i m useless...
haiz...
if we become fren again..
wil those problem been solved?
will te problems occur in love relationship wun appear anymore if we are fren?
i scare..
dun wan break de lo...
but cant force u...
plus spm is near le..
i x wan lose u lo..
if i become fren...
my position in ur heart oso wun same as or better than wen yi them gua..
owes is jz i questioning..
talking to myself...
haiz..
answer...?
no1 answer me...
u mean fren..
but how fren u ll be wid me.?
how much will u lik me n care bout me?
will u show out n make it as action tat i need?
will u zhu dong care me?
msg me?
i kno u stil my fren..
jz i feel lik losing something to hold..
feel lik wandering in te world..
is it beacause u x wan pakto yet?
is it because u not enuf time to spend on pakto?
i have many question..
plz talk to me more actively..
let me express out o of these..
i reli dun hope my heart ll b closed...
i x wan to suffer o of these alone...
mavis..
do u hear me?
i wish u wun giv up on me tat easily..
hopefully u kno wat i think in my heart..
and can comfort me by solving my question........
YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
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it is another blue night...
when i m alone..
jiu shi tat hungry of love...
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
i reli dun wan being disappointed anymore...
i oled x believe in everlasting le..
plz x show betrayal...
no fake promise plz
x simply promise too
do promise me bout these....
lastly...
i m alone..
alone is not v qi cham..
jz i feel lik u x let me grab dao..
tats y i now jz lik a weak paper...
blow around by te wing
by those challenges in life...
GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
i feel to cry...
can u find me a shoulder????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????/
some of them mayb stil remain as fren, cz they are male..
one become my kor..
and u...
when i found tat i love u..
i tot it is everything...
until u x feel to continue anymore..
i reli duno wat shud i do...
i reli hope u can make ur decision wid me..
including me in ur daily life..
n share wid me...
but hard gua haha...
i m too greedy...
feel lik i m useless...
haiz...
if we become fren again..
wil those problem been solved?
will te problems occur in love relationship wun appear anymore if we are fren?
i scare..
dun wan break de lo...
but cant force u...
plus spm is near le..
i x wan lose u lo..
if i become fren...
my position in ur heart oso wun same as or better than wen yi them gua..
owes is jz i questioning..
talking to myself...
haiz..
answer...?
no1 answer me...
u mean fren..
but how fren u ll be wid me.?
how much will u lik me n care bout me?
will u show out n make it as action tat i need?
will u zhu dong care me?
msg me?
i kno u stil my fren..
jz i feel lik losing something to hold..
feel lik wandering in te world..
is it beacause u x wan pakto yet?
is it because u not enuf time to spend on pakto?
i have many question..
plz talk to me more actively..
let me express out o of these..
i reli dun hope my heart ll b closed...
i x wan to suffer o of these alone...
mavis..
do u hear me?
i wish u wun giv up on me tat easily..
hopefully u kno wat i think in my heart..
and can comfort me by solving my question........
YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
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it is another blue night...
when i m alone..
jiu shi tat hungry of love...
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
i reli dun wan being disappointed anymore...
i oled x believe in everlasting le..
plz x show betrayal...
no fake promise plz
x simply promise too
do promise me bout these....
lastly...
i m alone..
alone is not v qi cham..
jz i feel lik u x let me grab dao..
tats y i now jz lik a weak paper...
blow around by te wing
by those challenges in life...
GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
i feel to cry...
can u find me a shoulder????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????/
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Ignore this!
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ARGH, some1 plz hold me tight..
wanna cry, but cant...
wanna shout, but cant...
why i dun express it?!!!!!!!!!!!
jai,
tears not mean u lose...
not mean u r weak...
wake up plz...
i spend my time wid fren,
i try to make my timetable to be full...
but all of it is useless...
every1 stil nid to face wid loneliness..
and yet i dun wan to lose..
stil struggling...
but fail..
heart is in half closed situation now..
should not open it tat much de..
mayb...
L**E in couple is something tat not belong to me...
jai ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahaahaahahahahahaaahha
i love uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
more than others........................................
so be strong k?
u gt mememememememememememememememememememeememememememememeememeemmeme.......
other ple oso ever go through such things la....
u oso not te 1st time de le!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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GOD....
show me te path...
tell me,
who shud i rely on...
who shud i believe..
who wun leave..........me.......
who can grab me.....
plz appear around me...
something plz occupied my heart...
ARGH, some1 plz hold me tight..
wanna cry, but cant...
wanna shout, but cant...
why i dun express it?!!!!!!!!!!!
jai,
tears not mean u lose...
not mean u r weak...
wake up plz...
i spend my time wid fren,
i try to make my timetable to be full...
but all of it is useless...
every1 stil nid to face wid loneliness..
and yet i dun wan to lose..
stil struggling...
but fail..
heart is in half closed situation now..
should not open it tat much de..
mayb...
L**E in couple is something tat not belong to me...
jai ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahaahaahahahahahaaahha
i love uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
more than others........................................
so be strong k?
u gt mememememememememememememememememememeememememememememeememeemmeme.......
other ple oso ever go through such things la....
u oso not te 1st time de le!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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GOD....
show me te path...
tell me,
who shud i rely on...
who shud i believe..
who wun leave..........me.......
who can grab me.....
plz appear around me...
something plz occupied my heart...
Friday, September 11, 2009
End lorrh!!!
hmmm..
our story end finally..
wish it ll bring to another good starting lo..
although te percentage mayb is 0%..
gal,
it doesnt matter wat relatioship it is between us..
it is te matter of heart..
if i m not important to u...
i think tat is so called "fren"..
if u reli take me as some1 important to u n appreciated..
i wish to c te effort n heart...
jz lik how u may think dao wen yi, kah how them in ur daily life...
whenever u feel to find some1 to talk, u may find me..
it mayb good for us if it end lik tis..
since feel lik u not reli lik me than before ( while we stil are fren)
anyway...
u hav ur choice..
u hav ur freedom to do anything whic not against te law..
u can jz fu yan me or jz take me as "good fren"
if u feel lik it is ok or not important to u..
in te name of God,
i ll pray....
friendship forever...
amen....
our story end finally..
wish it ll bring to another good starting lo..
although te percentage mayb is 0%..
gal,
it doesnt matter wat relatioship it is between us..
it is te matter of heart..
if i m not important to u...
i think tat is so called "fren"..
if u reli take me as some1 important to u n appreciated..
i wish to c te effort n heart...
jz lik how u may think dao wen yi, kah how them in ur daily life...
whenever u feel to find some1 to talk, u may find me..
it mayb good for us if it end lik tis..
since feel lik u not reli lik me than before ( while we stil are fren)
anyway...
u hav ur choice..
u hav ur freedom to do anything whic not against te law..
u can jz fu yan me or jz take me as "good fren"
if u feel lik it is ok or not important to u..
in te name of God,
i ll pray....
friendship forever...
amen....
Thursday, September 10, 2009
God DAMN...
Zzzz was fall asleep in te bus tis morning..
almost skip for te school le..
luckily was wake by some1..
phew..
=.=
was not paying concentration in daily life recently..
walking on plane oso can almost fall down..
hmm,
God, i love you..
dun leave me ya..
lol!!!
almost skip for te school le..
luckily was wake by some1..
phew..
=.=
was not paying concentration in daily life recently..
walking on plane oso can almost fall down..
hmm,
God, i love you..
dun leave me ya..
lol!!!
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Thx god.. keep me going plz..
Phew, i feel like "saved" tis few day!
thx kor,
my frenz n especially kwong xing n kevin who did spend quite a good time together wid me=)
Thx for accompany me,
helping me..
help me to clear my mind,
play basketball n big bomb together..
( forgive me 4 not playing well, haiz =( i hav tui4 bu4 seriously)
haha..
i ever hav chance to go some1's house to study
it is a golden chance n it benefit me!
nevr go some1 house to study n chat lik tat..
i went kwong xing's house..
yuan lai it is much happier n useful than study alone..
which i seldom can hav it..
i share wid him my feeling n worries too...
i spend almost a whole day outside n wid fren..
tat night,
we go kevin's house to watch movie...
wid some other good fren,
alvin, ben, paul, vincent ling n joanne...
we manage to hav fun..
big bomb n play in te room.. jiolai jio qu..
then having some small party..
watch movie as well as concert DVD..
it was memorable somehow..
it reminded me of the past
te time when o of us were busy of concert preparation..
practicing drama..
te time i can c Mavis owes n almost everyday,
close to her, c her smile,
trying to help her even may over my limit...
i kno she hav gastric,
i c her stressed, tiring...
i gave more time for her to rest n trying to let her kno tat,
i owes supporting n wid her.....
i can put effort to her,
n let her smile..
whic giving me alot of support n grateful...
although tat time she not gf to me yet..
but is gud fren i think..
tat is te sweet moment for me..
whic i can c her smile..
i can make she smile sometime!!
how much important it is n memorable for me..
tat night, i stay until 11 something then back..
it was 12 once i reach home..
it was tiring...
but tat day is so meaningful,
i din waste time by playing computer too often..
i study n enjoy my time spend wid my fren
but not alone in front computer...
Hmmm... SPM period is in the corner..
i hope i can stil hav some1 who can accompany me study..
urge me n slap me when i waste time lol..
study alone make me feel tire..
no matter how,
i ll keep myself gambateh de..
although now i dun kno wat course to take in future
since i may giv up on hotel management tis course cz i jz wan to stay in local to work..
my family n memories are here..
it can hardly happen if i choose hotel management,
cz i ll wan to expand until work at other country
since te fa1 zhang3 in malaysia is limited...
mayb be a mechanic? teacher? or go any technical scu to study? ( my mum ask de)
=.=
Lastly,
wish tat those who r important 4 me can smile owes..
be happy..
=)..
i love u
thx kor,
my frenz n especially kwong xing n kevin who did spend quite a good time together wid me=)
Thx for accompany me,
helping me..
help me to clear my mind,
play basketball n big bomb together..
( forgive me 4 not playing well, haiz =( i hav tui4 bu4 seriously)
haha..
i ever hav chance to go some1's house to study
it is a golden chance n it benefit me!
nevr go some1 house to study n chat lik tat..
i went kwong xing's house..
yuan lai it is much happier n useful than study alone..
which i seldom can hav it..
i share wid him my feeling n worries too...
i spend almost a whole day outside n wid fren..
tat night,
we go kevin's house to watch movie...
wid some other good fren,
alvin, ben, paul, vincent ling n joanne...
we manage to hav fun..
big bomb n play in te room.. jiolai jio qu..
then having some small party..
watch movie as well as concert DVD..
it was memorable somehow..
it reminded me of the past
te time when o of us were busy of concert preparation..
practicing drama..
te time i can c Mavis owes n almost everyday,
close to her, c her smile,
trying to help her even may over my limit...
i kno she hav gastric,
i c her stressed, tiring...
i gave more time for her to rest n trying to let her kno tat,
i owes supporting n wid her.....
i can put effort to her,
n let her smile..
whic giving me alot of support n grateful...
although tat time she not gf to me yet..
but is gud fren i think..
tat is te sweet moment for me..
whic i can c her smile..
i can make she smile sometime!!
how much important it is n memorable for me..
tat night, i stay until 11 something then back..
it was 12 once i reach home..
it was tiring...
but tat day is so meaningful,
i din waste time by playing computer too often..
i study n enjoy my time spend wid my fren
but not alone in front computer...
Hmmm... SPM period is in the corner..
i hope i can stil hav some1 who can accompany me study..
urge me n slap me when i waste time lol..
study alone make me feel tire..
no matter how,
i ll keep myself gambateh de..
although now i dun kno wat course to take in future
since i may giv up on hotel management tis course cz i jz wan to stay in local to work..
my family n memories are here..
it can hardly happen if i choose hotel management,
cz i ll wan to expand until work at other country
since te fa1 zhang3 in malaysia is limited...
mayb be a mechanic? teacher? or go any technical scu to study? ( my mum ask de)
=.=
Lastly,
wish tat those who r important 4 me can smile owes..
be happy..
=)..
i love u
Thursday, September 3, 2009
DAMN!
ZZZZ..
i dont want to hav such nightmare anymore=.=
shao....
so realistic even in te dream...
thx for betray n offend me 1st before i can do so!
argh......................................
i dont want to hav such nightmare anymore=.=
shao....
so realistic even in te dream...
thx for betray n offend me 1st before i can do so!
argh......................................
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Cheer up!!
Man, mayb now u cant..
but cheer up..
try 2 practicing it..
mayb u can do it IN THE FUTURE........
Dun feel upset anymore..
te time u wasted would never come back..
they dou dun wan u le n throw u alone..
y u stil so degil cant leave them?
=(
='(
T_T
.=.=,
but cheer up..
try 2 practicing it..
mayb u can do it IN THE FUTURE........
Dun feel upset anymore..
te time u wasted would never come back..
they dou dun wan u le n throw u alone..
y u stil so degil cant leave them?
=(
='(
T_T
.=.=,
Tiring... i wish i can go further
Gambateh..!
work harder to put in ur effort..
the process is more useful than te result..
try to put down ur stress..
Man u can do it..
i support u!!
jy jaiseng,
never leaving u suffer alone....
work harder to put in ur effort..
the process is more useful than te result..
try to put down ur stress..
Man u can do it..
i support u!!
jy jaiseng,
never leaving u suffer alone....
Monday, August 31, 2009
Argh!!! =.=
I love u
I need u!!
Any1 willing to listen to me now?
I jz wish to tell some1 bout tat...
No matter who...
I jz hope..
some1 can believe,
can listen to me...
let me express....
tats more than enuf le =(
God bless....
I need u!!
Any1 willing to listen to me now?
I jz wish to tell some1 bout tat...
No matter who...
I jz hope..
some1 can believe,
can listen to me...
let me express....
tats more than enuf le =(
God bless....
Sunday, August 23, 2009
"Scanning result"
Hmm... last few day jz having my birthday celebrated wid my dear frenz..
actually, i reli seldom hav chance to colebrate it lo..
family member dou wun te4 di4 celebrate it de..
dad n mum oso no show out any special feel too..
so i duno it is good o not la haha...
my family member is different but yet they are te 1 wun betray me..
long time din find some1 to talk talk le...
>< i wan to share bout my situation..
my feeling..
my stuff....
To my family:
Dad n mum, sry din b responsible to become a good son lo.. sometime do feel wan to xiao4 shun4 u 2 de... but din make it an action... sry sry.. i reli wan to have better communication wid u 2 nicely too d lo.. lik how other family do... can joking can care me can discuss wid me too...
but not like now... we jz live our own life although live under a same house!
Anyway, i shud say thx to u 2 too de ler.. but i m quite a shy shy de guy.. not reli can express thing lik tat... it not a tradition around my life.. because of te living style u gave, i can hav a mindset tat is rational.. although i do miss up something... i wun blame, mayb ll regret.. haha
To my siblings, sry i not a active member in tis family lo.. sometime u o nid help but i dou din help.. jz think for own n live for own.. i too care bout myself only when in tis home...
I hope i can have some growth la.. i wish i could become a person who like te family more than everything...
To my dear frenz:
thx for celebrate my birthday wid me ya! cause of every1 of u i cai slowly feel te warmth in birthday... Actually before tis i dou not dare celebrate it too de.. cause i scare tat these good moment wun last long n i ll feel v v upset...
Therefor sometime i ll think negatively la... cz i reli scare of alone.. when i cant feel te support n love.. P/S: i cant feel love in home mostly ler.. lols.. so for those who ever appear n be te 1 important to me... dun leave me la... haha... i hav so much of things wan to tell u o de... jz duno how 2 say... te feeling is deep inside my heart... no chance for me to hav tat feeling to out yet, otherwise jiu shi when i tell tat but others you4 dunno how i mean bout it.. and even misunderstand bout me..
Anyway.... i love u o... May god bless u o...
To the gal i care now:
Hmm.... I wish tat u r xin fu n happy.. XD
U are special... i wish i could pei u until v v end... no matter how te world change..
To myself:
haha hihi~ i owes dou talk wid u oled so i think no nid to mention here le lo haha...
i jz wan u to JYJY...
be tough..
be independent
let te 1 u care to happy...
dun sleep wid nightmare anymore=.=
be more talkative so tat others r easier to live wid u
AHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.....
song...
Jai~ love youself more ya
actually, i reli seldom hav chance to colebrate it lo..
family member dou wun te4 di4 celebrate it de..
dad n mum oso no show out any special feel too..
so i duno it is good o not la haha...
my family member is different but yet they are te 1 wun betray me..
long time din find some1 to talk talk le...
>< i wan to share bout my situation..
my feeling..
my stuff....
To my family:
Dad n mum, sry din b responsible to become a good son lo.. sometime do feel wan to xiao4 shun4 u 2 de... but din make it an action... sry sry.. i reli wan to have better communication wid u 2 nicely too d lo.. lik how other family do... can joking can care me can discuss wid me too...
but not like now... we jz live our own life although live under a same house!
Anyway, i shud say thx to u 2 too de ler.. but i m quite a shy shy de guy.. not reli can express thing lik tat... it not a tradition around my life.. because of te living style u gave, i can hav a mindset tat is rational.. although i do miss up something... i wun blame, mayb ll regret.. haha
To my siblings, sry i not a active member in tis family lo.. sometime u o nid help but i dou din help.. jz think for own n live for own.. i too care bout myself only when in tis home...
I hope i can have some growth la.. i wish i could become a person who like te family more than everything...
To my dear frenz:
thx for celebrate my birthday wid me ya! cause of every1 of u i cai slowly feel te warmth in birthday... Actually before tis i dou not dare celebrate it too de.. cause i scare tat these good moment wun last long n i ll feel v v upset...
Therefor sometime i ll think negatively la... cz i reli scare of alone.. when i cant feel te support n love.. P/S: i cant feel love in home mostly ler.. lols.. so for those who ever appear n be te 1 important to me... dun leave me la... haha... i hav so much of things wan to tell u o de... jz duno how 2 say... te feeling is deep inside my heart... no chance for me to hav tat feeling to out yet, otherwise jiu shi when i tell tat but others you4 dunno how i mean bout it.. and even misunderstand bout me..
Anyway.... i love u o... May god bless u o...
To the gal i care now:
Hmm.... I wish tat u r xin fu n happy.. XD
U are special... i wish i could pei u until v v end... no matter how te world change..
To myself:
haha hihi~ i owes dou talk wid u oled so i think no nid to mention here le lo haha...
i jz wan u to JYJY...
be tough..
be independent
let te 1 u care to happy...
dun sleep wid nightmare anymore=.=
be more talkative so tat others r easier to live wid u
AHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.....
song...
Jai~ love youself more ya
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Sweet dream!!
Woohoo...
i have lots of weird dream tis few days...
TOTALLY weird dao cant de tat type lol....
anyway..
there are some little stories are bout sweet stuff too...
Hopefully it can be realized in tis world! =)
thx god...
Jyjy... stay happy ya...
i have lots of weird dream tis few days...
TOTALLY weird dao cant de tat type lol....
anyway..
there are some little stories are bout sweet stuff too...
Hopefully it can be realized in tis world! =)
thx god...
Jyjy... stay happy ya...
Friday, July 31, 2009
Saturday, July 18, 2009
18.07.09 It was the ten days after that ady ><
To the gal who willing to together with me again,
Hmm, thanks for give it a try!
At least, you give me a chance and let me learn to be a good bf.
No matter how, i jz wish you can happy owes..
Keep yourself in a cheerful world ya..
So hope that i can be one of the reason of your smile...
I dunno whether you still look good on our relationship o not,
Lets overcome those problems together can?
Once you feel sad... x forget that i ll owes be wid you...
Valid until i leave this precious world..
Erm... jiu shi long term of caring for u la...haha...
U mz be happy oh! x give up easily, i reli reli care bout this relationship...
Hmm, thanks for give it a try!
At least, you give me a chance and let me learn to be a good bf.
No matter how, i jz wish you can happy owes..
Keep yourself in a cheerful world ya..
So hope that i can be one of the reason of your smile...
I dunno whether you still look good on our relationship o not,
Lets overcome those problems together can?
Once you feel sad... x forget that i ll owes be wid you...
Valid until i leave this precious world..
Erm... jiu shi long term of caring for u la...haha...
U mz be happy oh! x give up easily, i reli reli care bout this relationship...
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Fairy Tale
Everything was as fresh as the air in morning...
I still can't differentiate the dream and reality once i wake up..as usual
A dream do affect me much..
affect my mood, my heartbeat...
This morning, i hav a sweet dream..
but now...
i guess i am sure
that was just a dream..
Mayb i should call it as as dream bout fairy tale..
with wonderful, happy ending..
that would never happen in this world..
U r so near when i was in dream..
BUT so far once i wake...
i am unwilling to accept that,
mayb this is the distance between us..
or mayb further?...
I am a guy that longs for my wonderful life in reality..
As you can say that i wish that my life could be
as wonderful as fairy tales
as true as reality..
Mayb
i should lie on my bed and dream
as mush as i can
to let this happen..
Dream bout the things would never happen..
Hmmm...
Nevertheless,
i was enjoyed in the dream..
At least,
i was having that happiness once i was in dream..
haha....
=')
I still can't differentiate the dream and reality once i wake up..as usual
A dream do affect me much..
affect my mood, my heartbeat...
This morning, i hav a sweet dream..
but now...
i guess i am sure
that was just a dream..
Mayb i should call it as as dream bout fairy tale..
with wonderful, happy ending..
that would never happen in this world..
U r so near when i was in dream..
BUT so far once i wake...
i am unwilling to accept that,
mayb this is the distance between us..
or mayb further?...
I am a guy that longs for my wonderful life in reality..
As you can say that i wish that my life could be
as wonderful as fairy tales
as true as reality..
Mayb
i should lie on my bed and dream
as mush as i can
to let this happen..
Dream bout the things would never happen..
Hmmm...
Nevertheless,
i was enjoyed in the dream..
At least,
i was having that happiness once i was in dream..
haha....
=')
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Be strong
You can do more than u expect!!!
Dun afraid.. Dun scare..
God never leave u..
God love u..
Amen
Dun afraid.. Dun scare..
God never leave u..
God love u..
Amen
Friday, June 19, 2009
3rd day of probationary period
erm..
actually.. to duty at te gate of te school there is not reli a easy job..
i duno how those probationary prefects ll nid time 2 adapt it..
but i hope they can b more initiative n hardworking..
i must admit tat tis job is tiring but challenging!
erm..
i did observe te probationary prefects o tis while..
but i reli cant find any1 tat is suitable to get my post yet..
some1 plz....!
come out wid excellent mind thinking n flexible attitude!
houh...
if x i duno wat kind of influence it ll bring to te CH school prefectorial board..
During
actually.. to duty at te gate of te school there is not reli a easy job..
i duno how those probationary prefects ll nid time 2 adapt it..
but i hope they can b more initiative n hardworking..
i must admit tat tis job is tiring but challenging!
erm..
i did observe te probationary prefects o tis while..
but i reli cant find any1 tat is suitable to get my post yet..
some1 plz....!
come out wid excellent mind thinking n flexible attitude!
houh...
if x i duno wat kind of influence it ll bring to te CH school prefectorial board..
During
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
2nd day of prefect probation..
Argh..it was bout 1am!
and i was shocked n consequently waked up from my dream..
a NIGHTMARE..ZzZ
i stil rmb how i wake up =.=
i was running from an aggressive man..i use te knife i hav to hurt him BUT
then he was coming to me wid 2 metal pipe n wanna hit me..
and te savior who promised ll help me din come at o...........
i can heard my scream clearly then jiu wake le zzzz...
wat a "nice" starting of a day >.<
then when i reach to te school..
it start to raining..
well assume tat it is a type of welcoming ceremony..
but long hair drop bit again after te good job of rain!
sien i nid 2 take care my appearance de ma.. aiyo
well...
some probationary somehow did a good job on their 1st day..
Congratz.. haha
they duno i m clap 4 them gua..
anyway..
it is stil te 1st day..
te 1 dare to approach offender o te 1 who seem geng
not possible o are leaders..
Leader..
so hard to choose eh..
since i choose ldr according to te nid of te organization..
different badge may nid different type of ple to b their ldr..
come with different income too..
wow.. headache
Erm.. today.. i stay until 9 to c te junior batch train 4 their inter unit competition..
x much comment bout te board..
te one who shud b lead o te top hav his own opinion n "guideline"..
left them..
watch beside them ba..
erm actually i ll stay oso cz attracted by some1..
haiyo.. some1 say she mayb ll stay.. then i jiu sot sot stay too le to support juniors..
lastly i stay.. she stay too..
wahaha XD..
thx lo gal...
thx for spend some time pei me.. especially when u walk in rc room
then put down ur bag n not go away!
but pei me n chat wid me..
haha hapy..
waa.. so tiring after bak..
reach home around 9.45pm
i stil haven sleep yet but nid finish xia some homework..
dun wan it delay til too long time haha..
now oled is 11.30 pm le eh..
tiring tiring..
So good it is if hav some1 massage for me until i fall asleep..
haha well i guess i nid 2 sleep 1st then cai can hav a dream lik tat..
To conclude wid...
today ah...
in good mood lo!! hehe=D
thx to god..
thx to evryone..
thx to u
dear....
and i was shocked n consequently waked up from my dream..
a NIGHTMARE..ZzZ
i stil rmb how i wake up =.=
i was running from an aggressive man..i use te knife i hav to hurt him BUT
then he was coming to me wid 2 metal pipe n wanna hit me..
and te savior who promised ll help me din come at o...........
i can heard my scream clearly then jiu wake le zzzz...
wat a "nice" starting of a day >.<
then when i reach to te school..
it start to raining..
well assume tat it is a type of welcoming ceremony..
but long hair drop bit again after te good job of rain!
sien i nid 2 take care my appearance de ma.. aiyo
well...
some probationary somehow did a good job on their 1st day..
Congratz.. haha
they duno i m clap 4 them gua..
anyway..
it is stil te 1st day..
te 1 dare to approach offender o te 1 who seem geng
not possible o are leaders..
Leader..
so hard to choose eh..
since i choose ldr according to te nid of te organization..
different badge may nid different type of ple to b their ldr..
come with different income too..
wow.. headache
Erm.. today.. i stay until 9 to c te junior batch train 4 their inter unit competition..
x much comment bout te board..
te one who shud b lead o te top hav his own opinion n "guideline"..
left them..
watch beside them ba..
erm actually i ll stay oso cz attracted by some1..
haiyo.. some1 say she mayb ll stay.. then i jiu sot sot stay too le to support juniors..
lastly i stay.. she stay too..
wahaha XD..
thx lo gal...
thx for spend some time pei me.. especially when u walk in rc room
then put down ur bag n not go away!
but pei me n chat wid me..
haha hapy..
waa.. so tiring after bak..
reach home around 9.45pm
i stil haven sleep yet but nid finish xia some homework..
dun wan it delay til too long time haha..
now oled is 11.30 pm le eh..
tiring tiring..
So good it is if hav some1 massage for me until i fall asleep..
haha well i guess i nid 2 sleep 1st then cai can hav a dream lik tat..
To conclude wid...
today ah...
in good mood lo!! hehe=D
thx to god..
thx to evryone..
thx to u
dear....
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
1st day gathering of probation prefects
hmmph...
at te june of year 2008, it is te time when i was get into probation..
but now it is te time we nid to train those probationary junior prefects oled..
Te time seem like past so fast although it is slow..
there hav been so much of things happen around..
i am wondering...
hav i grow?
haha... x comment..
Well..
i never know tat giving a half an hour talk ll b tat tough 4 me...
it is simple to pass an info to others..
but it is not simple to pass an info to others efficiently n acccuratly..
wow.. it take me bout 45min to brief te school rules n prefect rules..
TIRING..
i hav my tighten shirt to button up...
SO SO nan shou!
erm...
i wish tat i could do better in giving speech..
as i could pass my msg more accurate in other aspect..
when talking to frens o even when communicate with others..
Mayb one day i ll choose to write a book
after i hav a stabil job..
haha.......
haiz...
gonna to hav a tough moment recently...
God... plz bless me n holding me in ur arm...
lead me to a right path...
until te v v end...
Amen...
at te june of year 2008, it is te time when i was get into probation..
but now it is te time we nid to train those probationary junior prefects oled..
Te time seem like past so fast although it is slow..
there hav been so much of things happen around..
i am wondering...
hav i grow?
haha... x comment..
Well..
i never know tat giving a half an hour talk ll b tat tough 4 me...
it is simple to pass an info to others..
but it is not simple to pass an info to others efficiently n acccuratly..
wow.. it take me bout 45min to brief te school rules n prefect rules..
TIRING..
i hav my tighten shirt to button up...
SO SO nan shou!
erm...
i wish tat i could do better in giving speech..
as i could pass my msg more accurate in other aspect..
when talking to frens o even when communicate with others..
Mayb one day i ll choose to write a book
after i hav a stabil job..
haha.......
haiz...
gonna to hav a tough moment recently...
God... plz bless me n holding me in ur arm...
lead me to a right path...
until te v v end...
Amen...
Monday, June 15, 2009
Hoi gal ah..
Jz saw u having flu again cz of te sensitive nose..
and heard u say ur backbone de problem..
U ah..
reli ll wrying me de oh..XD
So take my hand,
let me pei u in your precious life ba..
i wont say the words
Then take them back..
rest well lo..
U are not nid 2 wry tat u ll lonely de when u r reli alone..
u stil having me..
=p
and heard u say ur backbone de problem..
U ah..
reli ll wrying me de oh..XD
So take my hand,
let me pei u in your precious life ba..
i wont say the words
Then take them back..
rest well lo..
U are not nid 2 wry tat u ll lonely de when u r reli alone..
u stil having me..
=p
Sunday, June 7, 2009
To: Mavis
Hoi.. HAPPY 1-MONTH ANNIVERSARY oh~
oh God..it is a special day among me n her
i wish tat..
I could spend my whole life time wid a gal named MAVIS...
Lead to a happy future and
Oso romantically adventure that can let her sweet till
Vomit.... Ahaha
Eh..feel sweet can le..x nid really vomit XD..BUT
You are te one really important for me la.. sincerely..
Outshine my life..and
Understand me..
Mavis,
Always be happy ya..be
Very Very happy..
I ll pray for u too for our closer n everlasting relationship..
So.. lets jy together ya=D muacks
oh God..it is a special day among me n her
i wish tat..
I could spend my whole life time wid a gal named MAVIS...
Lead to a happy future and
Oso romantically adventure that can let her sweet till
Vomit.... Ahaha
Eh..feel sweet can le..x nid really vomit XD..BUT
You are te one really important for me la.. sincerely..
Outshine my life..and
Understand me..
Mavis,
Always be happy ya..be
Very Very happy..
I ll pray for u too for our closer n everlasting relationship..
So.. lets jy together ya=D muacks
Friday, June 5, 2009
Haiz
I hate holiday...
I m no longer want 4 any holiday now..
so tiring ah!!
hot weather.. boring life... stupid mind..
so many free time to waste..
zzz
God..
keep me busy plz..
keep me strong..
and for sure more n more independent...
i hate the current 'me'..
take away it..
Forgive me..
for being so stubborn n childish..
Forgive my stupid mind..
Forgive me that i have no confidence on myself..
i scare of losing anything in the situation i m x ready 4 it..
God..
help me ah!!~
I m no longer want 4 any holiday now..
so tiring ah!!
hot weather.. boring life... stupid mind..
so many free time to waste..
zzz
God..
keep me busy plz..
keep me strong..
and for sure more n more independent...
i hate the current 'me'..
take away it..
Forgive me..
for being so stubborn n childish..
Forgive my stupid mind..
Forgive me that i have no confidence on myself..
i scare of losing anything in the situation i m x ready 4 it..
God..
help me ah!!~
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Lion Dance Appreciation dinner
It is 6.30 pm on the watch, i am sure i din come to a wrong place..
It is the Boulevard Hotel, just i feel strange....
most of the people consider as stranger for me now..
hard to find a close buddy to accompany me.. x much people..
except those logistic depart de prefects..
those we owes big bomb together, ponteng together n share our problem.
luckily, Raymond pei wo n talk wid me..
joanne show her great caring to me oso..
jiu zhe yang..
we simply find a table and sit down..
But,
luckily a gal come to te dinner oso after tat..
Mavis~
thx oh haha..
once again u cheer me up le.
even u din do anything, but
tis is reli the first time i sit together wid the gal i lik
in front so much ple..
i feel so sosososososo
Pr0Ud
HAPPy
LucKy
SweEt
Thx for let me hold ur hand when i feel cold
sometime
i may think too much
so duno wat to do
but hor..
dun wry, i can do well de
who say prefect dun hav the right to lik ple haha
we stil can msg each other oh,
can greet each other n smile wid each other
even when probation oso the same.
we just cut down on walking together ba..
just wait for retire..
then tat time hiak hiak...
u kno la ahahaha..
first time walk tis far to the way of love
sometime reli duno wat to do..
so funny haha..
but i am sure
i m v xin fu now!
sweet gal
It is the Boulevard Hotel, just i feel strange....
most of the people consider as stranger for me now..
hard to find a close buddy to accompany me.. x much people..
except those logistic depart de prefects..
those we owes big bomb together, ponteng together n share our problem.
luckily, Raymond pei wo n talk wid me..
joanne show her great caring to me oso..
jiu zhe yang..
we simply find a table and sit down..
But,
luckily a gal come to te dinner oso after tat..
Mavis~
thx oh haha..
once again u cheer me up le.
even u din do anything, but
tis is reli the first time i sit together wid the gal i lik
in front so much ple..
i feel so sosososososo
Pr0Ud
HAPPy
LucKy
SweEt
Thx for let me hold ur hand when i feel cold
sometime
i may think too much
so duno wat to do
but hor..
dun wry, i can do well de
who say prefect dun hav the right to lik ple haha
we stil can msg each other oh,
can greet each other n smile wid each other
even when probation oso the same.
we just cut down on walking together ba..
just wait for retire..
then tat time hiak hiak...
u kno la ahahaha..
first time walk tis far to the way of love
sometime reli duno wat to do..
so funny haha..
but i am sure
i m v xin fu now!
sweet gal
Thursday, April 16, 2009
A simple life
Thx God..
finally i hav a short moment to hav myself feel peace..
just simple things..
studying, msging...
tats enuf. At least i can relax bit..
I m NO NEED to wry and think of so much stuff that gonna make myself tire.
I can focus on the thing that reli belong to my basic responsibility. BUT not pulling o the things on my shoulder.....
yeah, should go have my sleep now, wid the peace in my hand now..
finally i hav a short moment to hav myself feel peace..
just simple things..
studying, msging...
tats enuf. At least i can relax bit..
I m NO NEED to wry and think of so much stuff that gonna make myself tire.
I can focus on the thing that reli belong to my basic responsibility. BUT not pulling o the things on my shoulder.....
yeah, should go have my sleep now, wid the peace in my hand now..
Messy mind
Haiz....
Argh......
Ish..
ZzzzZ.
.................................................................................................................
Hopeless!
Argh......
Ish..
ZzzzZ.
.................................................................................................................
Hopeless!
Monday, April 13, 2009
First time pei u 2 stay back eh..
Gal... tis is te first time i say i wan pei u gua i think..
haha quite nao zhong actually..
but stil act v stabil lik tat ahaha...
anyway thx for te little swt memory u giv to me today..
first time hold ur hand...
i believe it ll become 1 of te support o strength to me oso. thx!
first time so close to u...
first time talk tat much to u in real life..
first time pei u tat long time in real life..
first time soooooo dare when i stil a councillor in scu...
ahaha thx gal..
it is te first time i share bout my thing wid gal in blog oso........
say good luck to both of us ba...
nid to study hard le..
end.....
haha quite nao zhong actually..
but stil act v stabil lik tat ahaha...
anyway thx for te little swt memory u giv to me today..
first time hold ur hand...
i believe it ll become 1 of te support o strength to me oso. thx!
first time so close to u...
first time talk tat much to u in real life..
first time pei u tat long time in real life..
first time soooooo dare when i stil a councillor in scu...
ahaha thx gal..
it is te first time i share bout my thing wid gal in blog oso........
say good luck to both of us ba...
nid to study hard le..
end.....
Saturday, January 31, 2009
tuan bai on 3o jan 2009
It hav been a restless day since i choose to chu dui this year..
but it did fulfill my boring day somehow..
chu 5 is t day for o te lion dance member to rest..
only the leaders n treasurer need to continue their chu dui..
jacky n me is going too..
it is fun..
in te afternoon, we went to tuan bai at ming,mavis,chee,jacky n wa de house..
it was tiring..
aftrer bak to home i m a sour plum le..
exhaust...
i need rest....
but it did fulfill my boring day somehow..
chu 5 is t day for o te lion dance member to rest..
only the leaders n treasurer need to continue their chu dui..
jacky n me is going too..
it is fun..
in te afternoon, we went to tuan bai at ming,mavis,chee,jacky n wa de house..
it was tiring..
aftrer bak to home i m a sour plum le..
exhaust...
i need rest....
Monday, January 19, 2009
Concert Rehearsal on 19th of Jan
19th of Jan, this is the first day of school concert rehearsal..
and it is also the most busy and tiring day for me after these while.
Almost fainted but luckily i overcome it..
I still haven give up yet on my mind..
That drive me go on today.
When i was on the way walked to my class in the morning, i have feel the uncomfortable already
The situation turn worse because of the dream i have this morning..
HEY! IT IS REALLY REALLY WEIRD LER!
I nvr dream so often in the past.
ANd now, i sure will dream at least 4 times in a week.
It is exhausting especially those dream are weird also and it let me feel tire.
I went for prefects' sing practise then lion dance training also in the morning..
I skip my lunch since the time is not enough for me.
I need to prepare for the rehearsal..
Argh tiring.
But anyway the rehearsal today hav end..
I have my short nap after bath..
But i stil feel exhaust when it is about 9 pm..
Life..
Like a traveling train...
Never wait for the people who miss it..
If you miss the first turn, u can only wait for the second turn..
or catch the first turn by run faster than it..
I think..
i have no more time to wait for second turn..
I am now searching for another road to take me to the destiny..
TIring but restless..
Life is so beautiful while we still can take a deep breath..
Interesting.
i hav been try my best to catch up wid the syllabus this year and i feel satisfy after i get the knowledge..
i feel proud after i manage to improve myself..
I will rest more..
to WOrk harder..
and it is also the most busy and tiring day for me after these while.
Almost fainted but luckily i overcome it..
I still haven give up yet on my mind..
That drive me go on today.
When i was on the way walked to my class in the morning, i have feel the uncomfortable already
The situation turn worse because of the dream i have this morning..
HEY! IT IS REALLY REALLY WEIRD LER!
I nvr dream so often in the past.
ANd now, i sure will dream at least 4 times in a week.
It is exhausting especially those dream are weird also and it let me feel tire.
I went for prefects' sing practise then lion dance training also in the morning..
I skip my lunch since the time is not enough for me.
I need to prepare for the rehearsal..
Argh tiring.
But anyway the rehearsal today hav end..
I have my short nap after bath..
But i stil feel exhaust when it is about 9 pm..
Life..
Like a traveling train...
Never wait for the people who miss it..
If you miss the first turn, u can only wait for the second turn..
or catch the first turn by run faster than it..
I think..
i have no more time to wait for second turn..
I am now searching for another road to take me to the destiny..
TIring but restless..
Life is so beautiful while we still can take a deep breath..
Interesting.
i hav been try my best to catch up wid the syllabus this year and i feel satisfy after i get the knowledge..
i feel proud after i manage to improve myself..
I will rest more..
to WOrk harder..
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
14/01/09
Time flies, he have been brought to another period of growing now.
He is the 1 called jai on the past..
Endless joy and care around him.
Somehow he is also the happiness for others..
Eternity of friendship is the 1 he eager for..
Destine everyone need to have their challenge from Evil..
A series of challenge is waiting for him also this year
Yet he believe in his dream in deep heart..
Some people that he want to protect and care..
It is the secret of a guy who want to be better in order to protect, help everyone..
A tough year for him in 2009..
Miracle is the 1 he working hard for..below is the thing on his mind
S
T
I
L
L
T
A
K
E
Y
O
U
I
M
P
O
R
T
A
N
T
!
He is the 1 called jai on the past..
Endless joy and care around him.
Somehow he is also the happiness for others..
Eternity of friendship is the 1 he eager for..
Destine everyone need to have their challenge from Evil..
A series of challenge is waiting for him also this year
Yet he believe in his dream in deep heart..
Some people that he want to protect and care..
It is the secret of a guy who want to be better in order to protect, help everyone..
A tough year for him in 2009..
Miracle is the 1 he working hard for..below is the thing on his mind
S
T
I
L
L
T
A
K
E
Y
O
U
I
M
P
O
R
T
A
N
T
!
Saturday, January 10, 2009
2009
The most important thing this year---STUDY!!
I dont want to waste my study time in secondary school anymore..
I MISS UP A LOT already...
within a year.. i want to work triple effort!! i wan to catch back what i miss up last year.. i want to master the lessons this years also.. i want to get straight A1s..
SRY for my selfishness
SRY for my helpless
SRY for my useless
I dont want let it continue anymore..
I have a target this year..
Either is go take ocean mining or development of world resources this subject
But since malaysia do not provide this 2 subject..
i think i cant reach the target le..
family wont support me to go oversea and we dont have enough money
so i make up my ming now..
i hope it is my real interest..
i wan make a company tat can beat Petronas n Shell!!!
I dont know what should i do so far,
but i ll study hard!!
Since this while..
i realise tat i no longer need frens..
i need buddies..
Buddies ll owes understand me even i may let them misunderstand..
they choose to believe..
THx God for let me hav buddies...
FRENS tat x believe in me..
i no longer need..
i m v tire already..
i hav been exhausted in form 4.
and now
i find back my little spirit
i wan to study well.
tats my motivation to keep going until now..
i hav being distracted by some important ple 4 me this while..
frens, kor..more...
I cant help or have more effort to care them..
I dont hav that much energy...
Or if they really want to give up on me now i am ok wid it..
but i wont..
just this year i need to handle my study first before i can do more things..
Buddies..
thx for company me so far..
FRens...
sry for i may hurt you all..
kor..
u are really important for me..
even when i am not thinking of you..
NOW,
i still feel weak n tire..
lack of stamina and my body keep feel sour n weak..
FOrgive my selfishness..
I still wan to survive after the secondary school and get a nice job...
cz i wan to help the plewho is important for me in future..
i want to let my family or even wife and sons or daughters have a comfortable life..
I am not useless.
i want to prove it..
COME!!!
CHALLENGERS!!
COME!!
I ll beat o of you down!!!!!!!!!!!
happy 2009
I dont want to waste my study time in secondary school anymore..
I MISS UP A LOT already...
within a year.. i want to work triple effort!! i wan to catch back what i miss up last year.. i want to master the lessons this years also.. i want to get straight A1s..
SRY for my selfishness
SRY for my helpless
SRY for my useless
I dont want let it continue anymore..
I have a target this year..
Either is go take ocean mining or development of world resources this subject
But since malaysia do not provide this 2 subject..
i think i cant reach the target le..
family wont support me to go oversea and we dont have enough money
so i make up my ming now..
i hope it is my real interest..
i wan make a company tat can beat Petronas n Shell!!!
I dont know what should i do so far,
but i ll study hard!!
Since this while..
i realise tat i no longer need frens..
i need buddies..
Buddies ll owes understand me even i may let them misunderstand..
they choose to believe..
THx God for let me hav buddies...
FRENS tat x believe in me..
i no longer need..
i m v tire already..
i hav been exhausted in form 4.
and now
i find back my little spirit
i wan to study well.
tats my motivation to keep going until now..
i hav being distracted by some important ple 4 me this while..
frens, kor..more...
I cant help or have more effort to care them..
I dont hav that much energy...
Or if they really want to give up on me now i am ok wid it..
but i wont..
just this year i need to handle my study first before i can do more things..
Buddies..
thx for company me so far..
FRens...
sry for i may hurt you all..
kor..
u are really important for me..
even when i am not thinking of you..
NOW,
i still feel weak n tire..
lack of stamina and my body keep feel sour n weak..
FOrgive my selfishness..
I still wan to survive after the secondary school and get a nice job...
cz i wan to help the plewho is important for me in future..
i want to let my family or even wife and sons or daughters have a comfortable life..
I am not useless.
i want to prove it..
COME!!!
CHALLENGERS!!
COME!!
I ll beat o of you down!!!!!!!!!!!
happy 2009
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