What can i do now?

I have went to tanjung to have my dinner wid family last night..
i told them i m not going to chu dui next year le, cz it is against on my religion..
then they jiu @#$%^..

i kno $ is important..
but what i have now is enough oled..
plus, i reli dun wan to do against my religion..
i hav no appetite te whole night
listening you all to complain and having conflict

how long should i wait?
i need more power..
feel lik i m alone in this environment..
i jz wan to contribute more..
but why there is no1 wanna do it wid me?
hmm..
sad ah!