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Sunday, September 19, 2010

Guitar





This is the 1st guitar i had in my life..
Hopefully i would learn with passion and make full use of it..
To honour the God..
Bring joy, peace, love...=D

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

愿意依靠祢

这,是一个久违的见证,
烦闷的心情,
在奇妙的午后,
溶解了...

我好喜欢这本<辅导心理学>,
神似乎都一直透过当中的教导对我说话.

"许多个人问题的产生, 是因为人未能让基督作自己思想及行为的主宰,也不晓得那真正追求神的人有用不尽的力量资源!"

我坐在无人的花园中,
闭目祷告,
希望神能充满我,
让我继续成为他喜悦的仆人...

[7 你们祈求,就给你们; 寻找,就寻见; 叩门,就给你们开门.
8 因为凡祈求的,就得着; 寻找的, 就寻见; 叩门的, 就给他开门.
9 你们中间谁有儿子求饼, 反给他石头呢?
10 求鱼, 反给他蛇呢?
11 你们虽然不好, 尚且知道拿好东西给儿女, 何况你们在天上的父,岂不更把好东西给求他的人吗? ]
马太福音 7 章 7- 11 节

神是那允许的父,
他让我醒悟,
有许多得着...

我回忆起过往灵魂被拯救的事故,
真是奇妙!
神透过辅导者,
让人得拯救,重生,长进...

看见自己的改变,
我知道当中都是神的带领..

我希望能继续为神做美好的见证,
人都拥有软弱,
我知道藉着天上的父,
一切都有可能...
现在的我,
虽还是个无法成大局的人,
但只要上帝愿意用我,
而我也愿让上帝塑造,
奇迹不是妄想.

这几个月以来,
我频频跌倒,
愿慈爱的天父,
时时保守我,
不陷在罪中...

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Turning phase

I am wondering,
how long could i still assume i am a teenager. =X

Not long right?
But i had to learn to love and enjoy life too..
An adult can also live happily right?

Sometimes,
i m feeling stress while on my way learn to b a teacher,
i have to learn to act as an adult do before that.
Do you ever seem a teacher act immature as a teenager?

hmm...
Be tough man!
whatsup whatsup..!
The skies are there waiting for you to reach high!
ush~
Lets cherish and make your rest of adolescence be a cool 1! =D

Monday, September 13, 2010

Maybe it is true

I guess i know why i am quite upset now..

Feeling useless or sad cause can't help those who u wish to help right? Jai Seng..

haiz...
take it easy.. take it easy...
though it may uneasy for you...

=X

A weird feeling

Feeling confuse,
feeling weird...

The feelings jump out of a sudden.
Feel like there are really too much things to learn..


*To help, it depend on situation...
To help, we don't simply help everyone...
to help, think of who we are first...*

Those question jump out of my mind suddenly..
I wonder,
who can i help?
how should i help?
who am i to help?
......

I am on the way exploring of the definition of "HELP".
Tonight,
i get lost...
I would rest first,
start my journey again soon.

*The happiest people don't neccessarily have the best of everything,
they just make the best of everything they have..*

I read the quote above on the wall of others on FB,
it is so meaaningful.

and yet i m trying to apply it to my feeling now..
jia you !

Sunday, September 12, 2010

珍贵的回忆

借宿了三天,
今天终于回到了这间四四方方的IPG.

第一次到穆斯林的家做客,
一起准备,庆祝..
起初还担心害怕有些沟通上的障碍,
最终却相处的不在话下..

过程,
是珍贵的.

很庆幸,
很开心.

很想与人分享,
回忆..

临别时,
我看见了一个小女孩的不舍,
她,
是那么的单纯,
那么的在乎与珍惜,
这看似简单的三天..

谢谢你,
你的眼神,
就是那说不完的故事......

Thursday, September 9, 2010

A wonderful dream

Things happen around are so warm though may imperfect in certain aspect,
I am so serious about it and cherish whatever as I can.
It was a sweet moment in Miri..

I know it was a dream when i had woke up..
i am not desperate once i know it was only a dream..
I appreciate it cz i have even a dream like this..

At least,
i ever went back to Miri last night.....

=}

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

如果没有金钱负担..

今天是假期的第五天......
我想,
我似乎需要加强我逞强的能力了..

真的,
有些受到惊吓了..

我妄想,
如果我是蛮富裕的人,
现在的我,
会在客厅里陪妈妈看电视,
会因为她的唠叨而学习了解并知足..
并不会在这里...
痴痴的幻想...



知道自己不能一直懦弱!
总不能一直待在避风港..
唉...可是...
....我.....


如果成长是那么的刻骨铭心,
这一刻,
我真的好害怕成长..
没有人知道,
乌云何时会逝..
只有等待.. 期待.. 深深的无奈...

我又好希望,
能找人分享,分析,讨论
我生命中的每个好与坏..
可是该死的自尊心与孤敖,
总是能拒人与千里,
有时候,
真不知自己在坚持什么,
也不知道自己为了什么而坚持...

情绪缓缓超越坚强的面具,
我需要更有信心的面对生活..
需要一些陪伴与鼓励...
更需要学习..
独自的面对..
自给自足.......

Monday, September 6, 2010

如今,
离乡升学,
我也几乎与美里的一切断离联络..

面对拥有血缘关系的家人,
有时,
真会不知所措,
如今就像是一家人的鱼儿,
却活在不一样的鱼缸.

自从换了鱼缸,
我知道一昧眷恋着过往的环境不能让我在现有的环境成长,
然而,
我仍会胆却,
我对于自己保持联络与关心的能力豪无信心.
我看见自己在这方面的忽略.
我好希望我是个贴心的家人,
好希望我能很自然的爱我的家人..
好希望,
电话的另一端,
和我这一端,
是满满的爱...

Thursday, September 2, 2010

2 weeks of Raya break from today

It is holiday!
Too bad it is not my time to back..
I will be staying here with 3 others Sarawakian in this "huge" but silent IPG soon.

No cafe open for sell food in this holiday~
No entertainment~
No gathering with family~
No gathering with those who are always friends~
No shelter for me to rest~

God, please lead me to go through it.