Run away..

I jz wish 4 night time now....
if can only got every night but no everyday...
everything...
can jz express at te night..
cz i m alone...
only in te night time,
i cai ll feel better..
during te day time..
alot of ple pass around me..
but i din feel v warm...
mayb i wan too much again le..
even i nid 2 b alone at night le...
at least stars, moon..
will stil b my companion..
until tml..
every night..
i wan 2 shout out o my things
o my fan nao..
but seem lik it sealed in my heart le..
by myself..
i duno how 2 unseal it..
n dun think 2 unseal it le..
i dun wan them 2 b exposed now..
i duno how n no more reason 2 persuade me 2 do tat..
i hate ......
i wan 2 run away from o of tis...
if i disappear le..
can let o te ple around me happy..
o if i nvr appear..
can reduce te pain i gave..
i m willing 2 restart o of tis..
let my starting become ending..

WAT A STUPID THINKING...

but, for now de me.. i can only say tat.. too emotional le.. nid time 2 cool down..

Forever?

I owes dou believe in eternity, forever.
but, if it reli exist...
i think i hav destroy my own forever..
i destroy other's dream..
seem lik i stil not mature yet.. not a gud son, gud man, o even a gud fren...
keep going wid wat i believe,
is tat a wrg step?
i gt my dream,
even a bad dream...
i jz wan 2 believe wat i believe..
even te ending...
could kill me,
i jz wan 2 hav my way...
for me,
i not live 4 myself,
n not die for myself...
but
for my frens,
for te 1 i care...
i nt gud in social skill..
mayb tat is jz a stupid reason 4 u
i think so..
mayb i din think bout others..
sry...
when te star begin 2 disappear from my life le,
i oso hope i can hold it tight..
but cant...
it oled far from me..
it cant hear wat i say...
wat my heart say...
i oso....

Heart

Heart..
Te place where a soul was locate...
but i wonder...
how big it is?
it is fragile o not?
wat build up a heart?
y it can store up so many things..
it gt expire date?
although i oso hav a heart...
but i not understand...

te things tat our heart tell...
o r te right things?
i duno....
when shud i folo my heart decision?
i duno...

hide n seek oso gt rule...
it oso nid ending...
but until now,
i haven c any...
te worst thing is..
i duno wat is te role i playing...
shud i hide?
shud i b brave?
o quit te game?

Believe??

believe ?? wat make us so trust o believe in some1?
wat told by him of her...
y we ll believe?
wat make us gt tis kind of confidence?
how can we do tis?
Everythings... jz depend on tat feeling..
A simple mind change everythings..
Reli... jz depend on how we think..


My mind blurred...
i dun wan hurt any1..
however.. i did..
i stil repeat te same fault..
i confuse of being myself..
stupid things again...
when.. how..
i wan 2 ban my second mind thinking..
i broke my promise...
i duno wat shud do...
everythings... every condition..
i not te worst 1..
i not te most charm de ple..
but i stil act lik i m...
hate...
sry...
i reli wan 2 say sry la...
haiz...


*if i was stil a kid... i wan 2 cry...*
*but now... cant.. i wan 2 learn 2 b tough..*
*wan every1 2 b happy.. even i cant do te same thing...*

Haiz..

happy? sad? everything jz depend on how u think..
if smth mean so much 4 u.. but it jz 4 u onli.. nt 4 others..
well.. not tat happy bt not tat down oso lo today..
even smth unhappy thing happened...
ok i m ok.. dun wry
alot of things 2 do..
2 think.. every things might start from misunderstanding..
n many others cause..
i need rest a..
snake snake plz haha..
jy every1.. f4 rocks

Inter unit..

Tis Sat n Sun is te inter unit 1st aid competition le..
Time past by us jz lik a needle fall on ground..
no 1 can feel it.. no 1 can rewind it..
If reli given a remote control..
i wan 2 do alot of things..
i wan 2 hold tight o of it..
wat i cherish, wat i miss, wat i need..

I admit tat.. te spirit is no longer alive.. i cant say we do our best le..
We nvr try best..
These few days, i cai realize i can use my fingers 2 count te day left 4 inter unit competition le..
Some of us even sleep late.. din care bout study..

haiz.. wat we need din come out.. but come out these things.. argh..
every1.. take care ya..
dun let u sick..

Finish le?

Wake up at 1 am smth today.. some little stuff let me feel lik no mood 2 continue study last night.. So, jiu decide 2 close my eyes.. wake up le feel lik quite ok a bit.. my bro stil bia DOTA there.. i jiu study lo.. keep on eating.. if nt i ll fall asleep. zzz. Early morning.. .. nth happen.. jz tat peace.. cold cold de.. stil can study a bit.. Till 4.40 am lik tat.. ok go sleep half hour lo .. who kno straightly hav a bad dream!!! haiz.. reli kik..hate it!!!

Bio test.. finish le.. tis week.. tis month wun hav test le.. Mayb shud happy gua.. but mid year exam coming soon.. i stil haven settle a lot of things.. but wat i reli scare is myself.. Suan le.. stil gt long way 2 go.. think it slowly lo.. who m i how m i? these question ll b out soon... haha..haiz

Night.. lion dance appreciation dinner, stil manage 2 find some happy stuff there.. o sob sob de.. FINISH? suddenly think of tis word.. it is a question without answer.. only can let te time 2 decide o of it..

I jz want...

I jz a simple person.. But i m oso want 4 te things tat a simple person want 4..
At home..At scu.. No matter where, when o who.. i dou shi want 4 it..
te things i wish 2 hav n i dun wan giv up..

BUT, things did not happen as so smooth lik wat we wan.. I duno wat 2 say.. I want 4 too much le eh.. o i nid 2 giv up? lol... i dun wan!! Delete my memory if u wan me 2...

Stupid.. reli stupid.. haiz.. i did so many wrg.. But sometime i reli duno how 2 make clear of right n wrong.. mayb put too much emotion le gua.. I dun wan b te elastic ball... i wan settle down.. u understand ma? but if i wan stay here.. will stil kena push away by another force... i jz lik tis.. jump here jump there.. if jump 2 other world lol... mayb is i think too much.. i owes lik tis.. te things i dun wan giv up but mayb ll due 2 other causes let me 2 giv up.. wat i wan mayb oled clear le.. but wat may happen in future is not.. I duno if it is a joke o wat.. but i think i oled make up my decision so clear.. jz depend on where te elastic ball ll jump 2? i reli reli hope.. it can live in a world tat hav a stronger gravity.. attracted.. wun let go anymore..

5th a... every month dou gt... it is impossible 2 change le.. i dun wan change it oso.. let it be.. i jz follow my feeling n i think tat i oled think v carefully le.. unless i push by another force.. tat i dun quite agree but onli can do as wat it wan..

Wow so happy..

reli happy lo recently but duno wat so happy.. hahaha so funny.. lol lik crazy le