Pass le..

Jz finish my car driving test today n luckily i pass le...
ty god..

Tml lion dance traditional di qin competition...
let it be ba..
i no heart in care bout it..
jz finishing a task..
stupid thing i doing zzz...
!@#$%^

BUT
2008 gonna end le....
most of te thing...
gonna b a memory only...
so gonna put down le...

i m nth...
i hav nth..
haha dun find me anymore le ya...
God bless....

Best Background...

I like tis pic v v much...
cz...
te person i cherish n i love... are inside te pic oso....

Tis pic is taken at 25th nov gua if x wrg..
te day b4 we start 2 stay overnight at hq...
we go through te schedule of camp ch again...

haiz

Today, there are the visitors from smk sibu methodist come 2 chung hua 4 further understanding bout each other.. it is about 100+ person.. so tat mean.. will gt pretty gal!! haha

go 2 scu by car.. my bro fetch me.. i m stil jz recovering from tireness.. we clean up te hall the scu area.. until te visitors come at 8.30 am lik tat.. i get energised.. suddenly lik wake up le lol..

I SAW A GIRL WHICH ARE V V V V V V PRETTY !

wow looks lik alot of person agree wid tat.. o keep focusing on looking on her when giving presentation at conference room!!

Wid red colour bag n something lik blue green blazer as their prefect blazer, blue coloured ribbon 2 tie te hair as it is te scu rule 4 gals in their scu.. dark colour skin.. a tennis player 4 te representative 4 our country.. tis o not so important.. jz.. feel lik wanna care for her more..

when te scu tour, almost o te guys getting crazy by te introduction bout us by fang hau 2 tat gal named shirley..

i feel so sad when o of us hav promised tat whoever stil wan come near wid tat gal ll get "katak"ed... jz can watch her behind but cant do anything..

Getting more sad when wen yi said tat gt a guy among te visitors "qian" tat gal de hand oled..

When is te performance time, terrence did sang on te stage, in order 2 get te interest from tat gal i ever raid te mic from choon man lol.. sang " ni na me ai ta" ...

I keep finding whic guy tat might b te bf of tat gal.. when i told tat is a guy tat i kno named ricky pau.. i feel lik duno how.. cz when i ask him bout tat he din admit it.. jz gt lik joking she is pretty, dun wan her find bf cz he is her bf.. but jz feel lik he is saying te real things.. i only can take it as true.. i dun wan 2 fight wid tat guy as i take him as fren oso. he is friendly..good guy..

Manage 2 "wo4" her hand when saying good bye 2 every1.. quite rough.. tennis player ba.. sadly i gt xia dao her ba..dun feel 2 take hp no from her.. she gt bf le gua.. so nice de gal..dun wan disturb her life

jz hope she is xin fu owes....


Shirley.. A nice girl..

Kor...

Kor, u have been supporting me o te time since we get 2 know each other..
u let me feel safe, let me feel comfort, let me feel 2 believe..
u change my life, change my attitude, change my world..
i think kor wun kno how important u r actually in my heart...
cz kor din kno tat how scare i m how lonely i m how weak i m..
when kor is not around..

kor, u not jz te guideliness o supporter in my life..
u r jz lik te bed..
u giv me everything i nid when i m weak.. when i m down..
i duno how express my feeling in certain way..
sometime express in wrg way oso..

IT have been a while since we not2geter.. distance between us let me feel scare.. feel losing control. somehow i stil nid ple walk 2geter wid me o te way.. n kor hav been so important 4 me..

kor's coming birthday, i duno shud buy wat present.. i less celebrate it even wid frens oso.. so i reli duno can do wat 2 let kor happy.. too much swt words scare let kor feel fake..

THANKS

Really thanks

Unfulfill feeling...The day will never come..

深夜，花草双双入睡，街灯皆有影子的相伴，我孤身望着窗外，心里固然很不是滋味。夜，告诉我，是你在哭泣吗？怎么，微弱的哭泣声，在耳边不停徘徊呢？滂沱大雨，覆盖不了我的心跳声，断不了我浓烈的思念，藏不住那哭泣声。夜，是如此的忧伤。

“晓丁，你在哪里？”你听到我在呼唤你吗？听不到吧？今晚的乌云，藏住了月亮，遮住了浪漫的星星…握在手里的信，没有地址，不知该送往何处。我要如何，如何才能把它送到你心里去？那只会是梦吧，一个不可能实现的梦。

晓丁，缘分它是生命体吗？它有思想吗？应该有吧，要不，它怎么会拿我们两个开玩笑呢？第一次与你相遇，是在中一的时候。当时的我们，是同班同学，但我却忽略了你的存在。那时的我，只沉醉在自己的音乐世界里，就连上课脑子里都满是音符，毫不专心，只在那里幻想着自己的音乐前程，更何况是与别人沟通？周遭的朋友，都没有好好地与他们交流，现在想起来，真是后悔，惭愧，遗憾…

直到十三岁那年的年终假期，我参加了教会的一场音乐盛会，我吓呆了。竟然是你，夏晓丁，用你那纤细的手指，在钢琴上翩翩起舞，弹奏出那温暖的音符。晓丁，我从没想过我俩的相遇会是在那里。自从那一刻起，我才真正地正视你的存在…不自觉地，你弹奏出的旋律，无形的，牵动着我俩的缘分。钢琴上，你的手指，是如此如此的温柔，弹奏出的曲子让我听了好舒服，好轻松…你突然望向我，眼里充斥的感情，是复杂的…

“你是晓丁吧？我们曾是同班同学，记得吗？”

“记得，我对你印象很深刻…”

就这样，两句简单的对白，拉近了我们的关系，拉近了彼此的距离。晓丁，很奇妙吧？那天之后，我们成了彼此的知己，互相信任，互相支持，一起讨论我们的音乐梦想。那个假期，是我最唯美的回忆。那时的我们，总是形影不离，整天腻在一起。记得那时候，我们的住家距离不远，每天晚上我都会到你家去，一起弹琴，说心事。那段日子，真的好甜蜜，好幸福…

晓丁，你知道吗？看着你的手指在钢琴上起舞，听着那舒服的旋律，我的心，总觉得格外平静，温暖。你指尖所弹奏出的旋律，常常安慰着我受伤疲惫的心灵，让我坚强。不知不觉，听你弹钢琴，已经变成了生活中的一种习惯。它，已成为我的支柱，我的能量。或许，我该说，成为我的支柱，给我能量的，是你…

就这样，每一夜，我都会准时到你家做客。日子久了，我发现我从未见过你的双亲，每次出现在眼里的，只是一张张的字条，贴满房子的各个角落，还有一张张的钞票搁在茶几上。我知道，其实你很渴望家人的爱，想被关心，想被在乎…每当我谈起你父母亲时，你总是一笑置之。我知道，其实你的心里在流着泪…我真的感受得到你心里的那种孤独、无助，我真的好心疼…当时我偷偷地许诺，要一辈子待在你身边守护着你，不让你受伤害。

那个夜晚，你反常地约我在附近的公园碰面。我等了许久，始终不见你的踪影。我焦急，我彷徨，我担心，因为你从不曾迟到。就在我想冲往你家探个究竟的时候，突然，一双手从背后抱住了我，我知道是你，那种熟悉的温度。你轻轻的靠在我身后，脸颊紧贴着我的后背。当我开始感觉到背后的湿气时，我慌了。我听到你微弱的抽泣声，看着你的眼角含着泪，我的心好乱，好想为你做些什么。

这是第一次，第一次你在我面前流泪，抽泣。在我眼里，你总是坚强，勇敢…看到你哭，我知道，你一定伤得不轻。我尝试着安慰你，尝试着逗你笑，但都失败了…我换来的，只是一阵阵的沉默…

忽然，你开口说话了。你哽咽的说：“我好想飞，想飞到幸福的地方，久久不离去…”心里的情感也按耐不住，跟着爆发了，你紧紧地抱着我不放…

我轻轻地拭干你的泪水，轻声说道：“我愿意，我会一辈子守护着你，照顾着你，一辈子听你弹钢琴…”说完，我感觉到你的情绪渐渐的平稳了，但眼泪似乎还是不止，还在悲伤吧？

那晚，你靠着我的肩，睡着了…安稳地睡着了。我彻夜未眠，照顾着你，害怕你醒来时，又失控。那个夜晚，我感觉到风，是沉重的…载着悲伤，载着心痛，载着泪水，让呼吸也变得狼狈。

这个悲伤，似乎还会是个连续剧…

几天后，你试着躲避我…我尝试与你亲近，但你却退得更远…你怎么了？渐渐的，我失去了你的消息，我好慌张，我走遍所有你去过的地方，去过你的家，去过任何你去过的地方…最后，我得到了答案，你移民了…

我抱着伤心，拖着无奈，一步一步地走回家。在信箱里，我找到了你给我的信---道别信。我在里头找到了一片光碟，光碟里，储存着我们曾一起弹奏的那首歌…却怎么找也找不到你离去的原因。

看着熟悉的字迹，听着熟悉的旋律，心里隐隐作痛…我通过了许多方式寻找你的下落，但你却如人间蒸发了一样，一点消息都没有…花了好长一段时间，我才成功地说服自己面对现实。我回到了原来的生活，但始终走不出失去你的伤痛。没有你的日子，就连呼吸，都是酸的…但我能做些什么?你走了，我只能选择接受…

窗外的雨停了，思念，却丝毫没有停歇的意思。晓丁，如今的你，究竟在哪？看着那台我们曾一起弹的钢琴，看着你留给我的信还有那片光碟，心里盛满了无数的思念。晓丁，你找到了另外一个可以让你幸福的人了吗？你得到你渴望的家庭温暖了吗？我真的很想帮你，但你不给我这个机会…我有好多好多的问题想问你，想问你，一辈子…

孤独的夜，替我作证好吗？晓丁，我在这里许诺，再给我几年时间，我一定会找到你，也一定能给你你向往的幸福。晓丁，我真的很在乎你。你是我，最疼爱也最在乎的知己…

我始终深信，我们的缘分，还是被那一首歌牵着的…那首属于我们的歌…

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^^ update my blog now le..
i m fine..
jz fly too high b4..
nid 2 face te reality now..
wings no nid oil but nid stamina..
thx 4 te strength i hav b4.. but..
i ll use crawl de..
o my way now..
who kno i can crawl till te sky............
wings.... will b my sweetest memory..
i dun hav any pretty wings.. but i ll create my own wings..
I WANNA SHOUT....

...

so long din share my things here le..
now, i jz feel 2 say ........
tats te only thing i feel 2 say now
so
....

Jz feel 2 say..

Well..
V well..
i m v well now..
........
actually not well..
zzz.. but i believe i can handle it.. o of it.. i will..
When u wan 2 get smth.. sure there ll b smth tat u ll b lose..
Ya tat is true..
tat is te fact.. te reality.. i admit it..
i still wan 2 go on by my way..
even.... it hurt.. it pain..
i dun wan 2 giv up
dun feel to..
jz think of te good 1 n ignore te bad 1..
mayb tis is te only thing i can do..
mayb..
mayb...
mayb...
i cant do it..
but wat else can i do?
no more..
I need 2 keep go on in my way..
wid smth hide inside my heart..
i ll handle it myself..
mayb te another 1..
i will b keep hiding it in my heart for te rest of te time..
but isnt it better than i let it suffer..
i cant b tat greedy..
mayb.. i having too much things oled..
jz i duno appreciate them..
ya i duno...
if i was given a choice..
i choose 2 dun hold tight the 1 i lik..
but let it hold me tight...

Run away..

I jz wish 4 night time now....
if can only got every night but no everyday...
everything...
can jz express at te night..
cz i m alone...
only in te night time,
i cai ll feel better..
during te day time..
alot of ple pass around me..
but i din feel v warm...
mayb i wan too much again le..
even i nid 2 b alone at night le...
at least stars, moon..
will stil b my companion..
until tml..
every night..
i wan 2 shout out o my things
o my fan nao..
but seem lik it sealed in my heart le..
by myself..
i duno how 2 unseal it..
n dun think 2 unseal it le..
i dun wan them 2 b exposed now..
i duno how n no more reason 2 persuade me 2 do tat..
i hate ......
i wan 2 run away from o of tis...
if i disappear le..
can let o te ple around me happy..
o if i nvr appear..
can reduce te pain i gave..
i m willing 2 restart o of tis..
let my starting become ending..

WAT A STUPID THINKING...

but, for now de me.. i can only say tat.. too emotional le.. nid time 2 cool down..

Forever?

I owes dou believe in eternity, forever.
but, if it reli exist...
i think i hav destroy my own forever..
i destroy other's dream..
seem lik i stil not mature yet.. not a gud son, gud man, o even a gud fren...
keep going wid wat i believe,
is tat a wrg step?
i gt my dream,
even a bad dream...
i jz wan 2 believe wat i believe..
even te ending...
could kill me,
i jz wan 2 hav my way...
for me,
i not live 4 myself,
n not die for myself...
but
for my frens,
for te 1 i care...
i nt gud in social skill..
mayb tat is jz a stupid reason 4 u
i think so..
mayb i din think bout others..
sry...
when te star begin 2 disappear from my life le,
i oso hope i can hold it tight..
but cant...
it oled far from me..
it cant hear wat i say...
wat my heart say...
i oso....

Heart

Heart..
Te place where a soul was locate...
but i wonder...
how big it is?
it is fragile o not?
wat build up a heart?
y it can store up so many things..
it gt expire date?
although i oso hav a heart...
but i not understand...

te things tat our heart tell...
o r te right things?
i duno....
when shud i folo my heart decision?
i duno...

hide n seek oso gt rule...
it oso nid ending...
but until now,
i haven c any...
te worst thing is..
i duno wat is te role i playing...
shud i hide?
shud i b brave?
o quit te game?

Believe??

believe ?? wat make us so trust o believe in some1?
wat told by him of her...
y we ll believe?
wat make us gt tis kind of confidence?
how can we do tis?
Everythings... jz depend on tat feeling..
A simple mind change everythings..
Reli... jz depend on how we think..


My mind blurred...
i dun wan hurt any1..
however.. i did..
i stil repeat te same fault..
i confuse of being myself..
stupid things again...
when.. how..
i wan 2 ban my second mind thinking..
i broke my promise...
i duno wat shud do...
everythings... every condition..
i not te worst 1..
i not te most charm de ple..
but i stil act lik i m...
hate...
sry...
i reli wan 2 say sry la...
haiz...


*if i was stil a kid... i wan 2 cry...*
*but now... cant.. i wan 2 learn 2 b tough..*
*wan every1 2 b happy.. even i cant do te same thing...*

Haiz..

happy? sad? everything jz depend on how u think..
if smth mean so much 4 u.. but it jz 4 u onli.. nt 4 others..
well.. not tat happy bt not tat down oso lo today..
even smth unhappy thing happened...
ok i m ok.. dun wry
alot of things 2 do..
2 think.. every things might start from misunderstanding..
n many others cause..
i need rest a..
snake snake plz haha..
jy every1.. f4 rocks

Inter unit..

Tis Sat n Sun is te inter unit 1st aid competition le..
Time past by us jz lik a needle fall on ground..
no 1 can feel it.. no 1 can rewind it..
If reli given a remote control..
i wan 2 do alot of things..
i wan 2 hold tight o of it..
wat i cherish, wat i miss, wat i need..

I admit tat.. te spirit is no longer alive.. i cant say we do our best le..
We nvr try best..
These few days, i cai realize i can use my fingers 2 count te day left 4 inter unit competition le..
Some of us even sleep late.. din care bout study..

haiz.. wat we need din come out.. but come out these things.. argh..
every1.. take care ya..
dun let u sick..

Finish le?

Wake up at 1 am smth today.. some little stuff let me feel lik no mood 2 continue study last night.. So, jiu decide 2 close my eyes.. wake up le feel lik quite ok a bit.. my bro stil bia DOTA there.. i jiu study lo.. keep on eating.. if nt i ll fall asleep. zzz. Early morning.. .. nth happen.. jz tat peace.. cold cold de.. stil can study a bit.. Till 4.40 am lik tat.. ok go sleep half hour lo .. who kno straightly hav a bad dream!!! haiz.. reli kik..hate it!!!

Bio test.. finish le.. tis week.. tis month wun hav test le.. Mayb shud happy gua.. but mid year exam coming soon.. i stil haven settle a lot of things.. but wat i reli scare is myself.. Suan le.. stil gt long way 2 go.. think it slowly lo.. who m i how m i? these question ll b out soon... haha..haiz

Night.. lion dance appreciation dinner, stil manage 2 find some happy stuff there.. o sob sob de.. FINISH? suddenly think of tis word.. it is a question without answer.. only can let te time 2 decide o of it..

I jz want...

I jz a simple person.. But i m oso want 4 te things tat a simple person want 4..
At home..At scu.. No matter where, when o who.. i dou shi want 4 it..
te things i wish 2 hav n i dun wan giv up..

BUT, things did not happen as so smooth lik wat we wan.. I duno wat 2 say.. I want 4 too much le eh.. o i nid 2 giv up? lol... i dun wan!! Delete my memory if u wan me 2...

Stupid.. reli stupid.. haiz.. i did so many wrg.. But sometime i reli duno how 2 make clear of right n wrong.. mayb put too much emotion le gua.. I dun wan b te elastic ball... i wan settle down.. u understand ma? but if i wan stay here.. will stil kena push away by another force... i jz lik tis.. jump here jump there.. if jump 2 other world lol... mayb is i think too much.. i owes lik tis.. te things i dun wan giv up but mayb ll due 2 other causes let me 2 giv up.. wat i wan mayb oled clear le.. but wat may happen in future is not.. I duno if it is a joke o wat.. but i think i oled make up my decision so clear.. jz depend on where te elastic ball ll jump 2? i reli reli hope.. it can live in a world tat hav a stronger gravity.. attracted.. wun let go anymore..

5th a... every month dou gt... it is impossible 2 change le.. i dun wan change it oso.. let it be.. i jz follow my feeling n i think tat i oled think v carefully le.. unless i push by another force.. tat i dun quite agree but onli can do as wat it wan..

Wow so happy..

reli happy lo recently but duno wat so happy.. hahaha so funny.. lol lik crazy le

KiK aa....argh

haiz.. today? haiz.. 1 word.. haiz.. situation seem may nt gud now.. even worse.. cant cooperate a...
haiz.. so much problem.. haiz...

night... haiz.. haiz.. things lock in dewan suarah.. cant get back... haiz.. then.. haiz.. tml concert le.. Hav i done o my responsibility? duno lo.. stil lik tat lo.. duno concert stil ll ok ma.. hope reli can c changes.. haiz.. jz feel lik wanna scream.. alot things come out...

tire day..

concert rehearsal today.. so tire... but sure ll b more n even more tire wid te following days.. Alot problem occur lo.. Haiz.. those who no chance 2 c te free movie reli quite soi lo... not tat lucky haha..
well.. dota hero oso can appear in real life oso de o... Te riki... so near 2 us.. bt we din defend o... jz let him 2 spam skill.. haiz jz duno y tis riki ll kill teammate.. haha.. wow.. every1 dou v tire le today..
actually, i tot tat i can back home le after te rehearsal end at 5.30 smth.. jz receive msg from ketua.. nid stay back.. 2 help.. fortunately parent allow me 2 do so lo.. quite a hard job.. back a t 10 smth.. wow.. then struggle at night.. think of concert... more n more

Today is 14th of March..

IF today is te ending.. it mean tat today is oso another starting right? but if i dun wan ler? i stil nid start? can start? force it 2 end!!!?? force it 2 start!!!?? can i? Such things ll happen n owes happen..

Finally feel better le.. Time.. help me 2 hide o of it... keep o of it.. when i feel missing it le.. cai let it out can? NOT now.. plz.. i nid 2 b strong.. not lik now.. it shud not explode at tis time.. i gt my reason oso..

Ok.. *smile* ...so miss these sign... ok le.. cheer up every1...

For the people tat stil take me as a FRIEND.. and nid my opinion..

Well, jz wan 2 tell tat.. I m ok now.. dun wry.. everything is ok for me recently.. JZ tire nia haha..
U make up ur decision le right? Wun regret le right? If ur ans is right then jiu ok le.. MY ans oled not important le.. I cant say out my point le.. useless.. WIll stil support u.. at the back.. Even u make ur decision clear le.... N i v not agree wid it.. i stil ll let u do the things u think tat is right but not for me..i kno u gt ur reason de.. n it mayb the best way 4 u...u r my close fren .. today.. Everything ll b fine gua.. future oso.. so, cheer up fren... u look so tire n stress.. dun wry k? A fren ll nvr leave u.. FRen... Go 2 eat some swt swt de things ba.. will feel better lol...

2nd day of BSMM training camp

Well.. Omos late 4 te training camp today.. so nervous.. actually nid wake up at 5 to do smth else.. but i forgot 2 set alarm ytd le!! phew 6 am stil can wake up myself.. manage 2 prepare n go 2 hq by Jacky's car.. Dream owes recently.. mayb think too much? dream tat got ple sick le then jiu @#%&* blur blur.. actually i oso omos sick le.. feel lik shao shao de.. haha. o of tis jz bcz tat dark cloud!!

Te day b4 we oled hav a training camp for f4s..it was reli fun.. o of fren train 2geter.. we having a coarse.. in te coarse.. Jing Kwong let us c some wounds pic.. ZZZZZ reli scary n er xin.. Damn.. Fortunately i stil manage 2 take my lunch... After eating, i go toys world wif my frens.. Jacky, vincent them n sure those gal.. JOy them.. Quite enjoyng inside.. BT it was raining.. We stil wonder tat how can go bak hq.. stupid idea come out.. Using te safety tyre.. lol duno how 2 say.. jiu sheng quen tat use blow de.. stil gt so many type.. got 1 tat hav atap de.. so nice wun kena rain..ZZz..

When te rain turn little.. we jiu went bak slowly lo..enjoying.. BT BT te rain turn damn heavily suddenly.. suan le.. let it wet ba.. whole body!! quite enjoing oso la.. v xin fu ba.. under te rain walk slowly... lol.. v cold ler ..BT stil nid continue our training afterwards.. cold cold de.. jz my other frens tat wif me go eat jz now oso o wet le.. o cold cold.. jiu start bandaging each other.. some others ways 2 get warm oso.. then jiu hide into a room n discuss te games.. alot more..
We folo Ah ter car go eat at double star at evening.. quite delicious.. 1st time go there oso.. we stay till 9 2 help those who gt involve in inter unit 1st aid competition 2 training.. v funny.. enjoying.. v tire la after bak home.. play game till bout 11.30 pm.. sleep lo

Today.. zzz..training camp 4 members oso le.. i find tat myself dun suit 2 talk lo o lik communicate directly 2 others lo.. ZZZ as a lazy person, i lik 2 snake ^^.. When getting serious then jiu u may ask me go die.. lol today i reli quite angry ba v shao.. teaching te NEW MEMBERS 2 kawad.. too nervous o wat i duno.. feel lik they din serious then i oso say many times le seem lik no use.. tone reli too heavy le.. feel regret.. i scare them lik tat lol.. wat 2 "nice" person i m.. owes lik tat.. i reli not tat much talk 2 others tat i nt shou le eh o not around..i m so emotional stil n fierce!! stupid haiz.. stil ok la 4 te problem occured.. stil can under control.. duno la.. o new new de 2 me ..nid time.. but i duno how long it take.. cheers up.. smile.. duno whic can put down n whic cant.. practise till 7pm today for those inter unit de.. chatting training playing there.. campur..

jy jy.. stil gt long way 2 go.. FRENZ o te 1 not FRENZ.. gud luck bak ba..

How r u?

Well, din update my blog 4 so long le.. not reli feel lik wanna blogging recently.. I kno.. there r stil some frens stil care bout me.. even we din talk 4 long time le.. i stil can feel tat who stil fren.. n who r not going 2 b tat gud fren le..

Haha.. a simple "how r u" can change alot of things.. but since when we 4got le tis important thing..
when we start bz o care bout smth.. we focus on smth.. then less talk o 2geter wid some1 le.. these kind of things keep on happening.. even now i oso feel sry when din care too much bout those gud n close fren le..

RELI hope.. when we less talk o din hav so much chances 2 meet le.. stil can strongly believe each other.. think 4 each other..i duno if tis kind of friendship stil beside me.. i onli kno i wan 2 hav it...
sincere de.. NO 1 lik 2 lose frens.. BELIEVE tat.. appreciate wat we having now? dun destroy our own xin fu.. Care o not care.. frens r stil frens.. if we wan 2..

Especially 4 u...

To : Jai Seng

It's juz a blink of eyes, n da moon has made a full round on earth... It's 2day, da 1 month time tat we both have entered into tis special n strong brothership... Never ever think of tis, but it reli happened between us...

...

Still remember da moment when i jz 1st saw u, it wuz back in da year of 2004... U were jz a new freshie in chung hua tat time, an energetic freshie... It wuz tis annual sch concert tat we spent most of our time 2gether... n very soon, in a flash of light, u have turned into a big boy... It's when we met again last year during da election... Incredible...

...

In a very short period of time, we both had established a strong brothership... Distance never break our relation, nor time. Indeed, kor believe tat it's actually making us closer in heart, deeper...

...

Thanks 4 all this while, 4 being such a nice, lovable n caring di, who listen to all da voices inside my heart... A good supporter tat oways behind me, telling me not to give up... Kor reli appreciate it! Thanks too 4 trusting me as ur kor, sharing ur ups n downs...

...

Juz oways put in ur deep heart, tat kor oways ur guidance tat protect, love n care jai... A forever promise... Once bro, 4ever bro!

...

Love, henzzZ

Tagged

******* Bold the statements that are true for you. Italicise the statements that you wish are true. Leave the fibs alone. Then, tag 5 people to do the same test.*******

I miss somebody right now.
I do not watch tv these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I have tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I have changed mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I curse.
I'm totally smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past
I couldn't survive without Caller ID.
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love 2 shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I want to have children in future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I'm shy around members of the opposite sex.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I have tried alcohol before.
I own the South Park movie.
I would die for my best friend.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I am happy at this moment.
I'm obsessed with girls.
I'm obsessed with boys.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I study for tests most of the time.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake's slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
I have jazz in my blood.
Climbing trees is a brilliant pastime.
I wear a toe ring.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I am an adrenaline junkie.
I love being happy.

*******i tag:
1. Kor
2. Si Nan
3. Lii Ming
4. Amos
5. Chung Ong

Tire..

te week after orien 08, since not so comfortable 4 me, since there r alot of hw nid 2 catch up. Bside wrying bout study, stil nid 2 take care of my relationship wif others, my attitude, my future, my health n my family.. Lol everytime i bak home duno shud chat wat wif my family, i cant find a suitable topic, o is bout scu life de.. Morever, once i bak home, i ll onli hav my computer, hp n hw 2 company me, they o wathcing tv outside my room.. te fun n joy i can onli find thru these things at home.. hw + scu activities r very kik enuf, problem pop out everyday, i nid 2 adapt 2 them oso.. Nid 2 think, refresh my brain n heart.. haiz. I ll feel hurt if my frenz not happy jz bcz of me, feel sad if they very fan.. wry bout their health n kor' health..

Fortunately, i stil got a few frens tat r very very close 2 me.. i duno if it is wrg 2 trust them ma, but in my mind, i shud trust them.. judging ple is very tire de.. it take long time..not jz a few action can decide everythings.. they giv me a feeling 2 trust them.. n feel lik very safe 2 b 2geter wif them although some of my fren leave me slowly le.. o i leave them le.. TIRE of being so bz, so discipline, so fan n TIRE!!! rest rest haha let me rest..

Mayb quit blogging for a period oso.. i nid cool down.. i kno expressing my feeling here is not wrg.. but mayb i reli nid take a rest.. until i get bak de feeling i wan.. haiz, bad dreams owes recently.. very scare 2 losing every1.. but it did in my dreams.. i cant do anythings else

Till te end of orientation programme year 2008

Onli a whole week time left for us 2 do te orientation program, te coming of end oso mean tat i nid 2 think te way of closing ceremony oso.. Instead of closing, i oso gt other works 2 do oso.. Cz of te limit of time n bz works around, nearly feel lik wanna giv up.. Doing other stuffs tat r actually not my work.. Mayb in danger anytime... Bu shuang by alot of pple...BT they din even kno wat kind of stuff top 5 r facing, n wat hav we done for they o... It may seem ez job, bt te stress bhind is more n more serious than wat u can imagine... After te opening ceremony, i can say is short of idea le.. lazy 2 think oso.. So, after discuss wif Jacky, my partner 2 take care of te closing ceremony, we pass our work 2 Choon Man n Amos... 2 person tat may not can communicate well....

Feel lik a bit irresponsible oso when i make tis decision wif Jacky... Bt, i though tat let other ple do it mayb te best way le... Since they may gt new idea n te 1 take over te job of us r te 1 we blieve... Feel hurt smth oso when seeing my frenz suffering for think te closing ceremony oso.. Stress come into them.. Alot of problem oso come out in tis week of orientation program, i nid 2 fan bout te new students problem oso.. then te relationship wif others..

Bt, when te last few days, some ajks hav been stay bak at scu n start 2 prepare for closing le.. Te idea made by them b4 hav fail bt they manage 2 find another way 2 solve
oso after bia n bia.. I oso very admire those 2 frenz who helping me n Jacky in te closing ceremony.. Without them, no 1 will do te closing ceremony le.. haiz..

Finally, te last day hav come, it is 00 0o showed on my hp... i feel very nervous.. since te closing oso haven done yet.. When it it bout 0230, i reli made a big mistake.. a childish act.. i use te marker pens 2 draw n write on ajks' face.. although there r oso lots of ajks do it wif me, bt i reli did wrg.. i was te 1 who do tis 1st n effect tio others... I wan 2 say sry here for my rudeness n te inconvenience i bring 2 u o... I take my following time 2 cool down outside te hall then... I feel sad tat time when i was tot by my gud fren, tat wat i did hav make him feel sad... I jz wanna stay alone tat time, cz te closing haven done, i dun wan others 2 waste time on pei wo oso.. my gud frenz tat pei wo actually tat time gt go le, BT they stil find a gal 2 pei wo after tat.. Tat kisiao Wen Yi, do te stupid job again.. Ask her go in te hall 2 rest oso dun wan.. C her so tire le ler.. Wear short pant pula, sit bside me under blog G, duno how she manage 2 sabar wif te nyamuk n te cold temperature.. I sit there for bout an hour long.. control myself de emotion n refresh myself lol... Reli sry frenz if wat i did made u o unhappy, n mafan pple pula... Jz in a while, it is omos 7am le, then ajks din show their discipline well today n din cooperate well.. we o top 5 jz sabar... BT, when is te closing ceremony running on, i reli feel touch... It is perfect combination for me... AMos n Choon Man manage 2 done these in such short time.. a memorial closing.. tat remind me of orientation.. wat i facing b4, who owes chat wif me n help me... alot n alot.. i cry after te vip go.. cant stand le.. feel happy n sad.. i can throw away my pose le.. bt in te same time nid 2 leave o of te ajks i lik in tis orientation.. haiz.. My tears cant b controlled tat time..

Amos giv me his present.. the closing ceremony tat giv me full memory of orientation wid him... after he go 2 Austrialia, onli hope tat i can rmb tis closing 4ever.. n yet my best fren, Amos oso.. Although din train myself well in tis program, i oled feel very happy cz can spend my time wif my frenz 2geter b4.. My last year orien, oso lasy year orien wif Amos.. God bless o of us plz, let us live under ur bless n wishing

My 1st day of rest since last year holiday..

I sleep on 1.30am today, blogging n doing nth oso.. freezing in front of te pc.. bt stil gt some important stuff appear in my mind.. te relationship problem oso.. i gt my new kor le tis early morning.. Henry.. treat me so nice n understand me.. comfort me n help me 2 solve my problem.. at last willing 2 hav such a bro lik me.. haha..happy.. reli very tire today.. sleep n sleep o te time.. gt time 2 handle my relationship problem oso wif my family n frenz... haha.. wonder how many time i can rest in future? as i owes waste my time on stupid stuff lik think bukan-bukan..haha

1st 3 days of orientation..

actually, i gt very long de speech for here, bt i delete o of it accidentally!!! lol.. sad.. 1st day reli charm.. haiz i stay overnight at amos house le la te night b4.. bcz of family problem..i scold ajks oso today, so gt alot bu shuang me oso..

te 2nd day, opening ceremony make me so gan jiong.. reli kik.. bt at least nt sia soi..

3rd day, te day i most open mind, clear n positive in mind, so nervous nid change 2 rc uniform so fast after lion dance performance 2 do e team test.. afternon de station game most kik.. gm n station master set games in rain, then i duno if wan continue te games although raining o cancel it.. there is impossible 2 postpone le cz o material oled use n there r no budget le.. i so fan n sad oso when i saw my frenz feel wanna cry o even cry le.. then i camt help anything o even comfort them.. i run around te field bout 5 rounds after tat, wanna express my feeling tat cant help them, fan nao n let myself 2 b calm down n clear in mind.. bt duno y suddenly o of te station master around run wif me.. i crazy they oso..zzz.. bt after i run bout 5 rounds, rain start 2 stop le, i feel so happy, finally... ty god..today is oso karen's birthday, we celebrate it n then go eat 2geter le.. stay jz for chatting.. nt bad oso.. te kisiao de wen yi, ao dao her jiao huai, bei her go out 2 scu compound tis evening, nt so heavy la actually.. haha..bt very noisy.. today, i finally bak 2 my home le..

Duno wat 2 say

ty very much 2 frenz tat r stil supporting me, blieve me, help me, wry n care bout me... without u o, i am nth.. seriously.. te best frenz owes chat wif me.. appreciate it in deep..
Bt, if seriously gt ple gt misunderstanding bout me o dun lik me n i gt do any wrg, sry 1st... i put my frenz at 1st, seriously, i oso dun wan 2 lose my frenz.. if u think b my fren wun let u feel well, then i onli can say sry

end of year 2007

reli can say i nvr hav a holiday tis year.. te time i spend on scu r totally 2/3 of te time.. te 1/3 is sleeping time at home... i oso hav alami alot of things oso, can oso say sour, sweet, bitter n spicy o got.... alot of things nid 2 handle at scu, i hav feel lik i oso nt much communicate wif my family, i din guan xin them le, i lefft o te stuff 2 let my family solve, while i owes go scu onli... nvr do a job as a gud son...

i feel sour when my frenz nid my help, then i cant do anything well to help.. onli feel sweet when their problem solve n we can chat 2geter, bt feel bitter again when nid 2 away wif fren when work, nid 2 fan bout alot of stuff cz i am nt mature, haven grow up alot.. te 1 spicy for me is henry gtg le after tis year... haiz, he definetely help me alot, cant imagine te life without him.. will miss u henry, thx 4 wat hav u done 4 me.. support u oso when u nid o no nid