The motivation from God

In order to expose myself to others,
i reopen this blog.

I wish to learn to manage my relationship..

I wish to spread the love and help others through this starting point too!

I want to be a counsellor in future,
and now, i m walking on the road God have shown to me..

Love is important,
I m trying to discovering more bout love..

Love is the gift from God,
we have no need to be selfish to give..

Lesson learn on 青团 27.02.10

“事奉人生” 是教会今年的主题，
今天的青团聚会就是针对这给于专题。

God is the Boss，
this is the lesson i learned!

I have clear of the cause of the problem i m facing all this time..
i was desperate since i duno why i have different attitude in different situation
i was desperate too since i duno how to put my love in action
but thanks God i know what to do now..

It is just bcz of a question,
Who is your boss?
who is your boss?

Thanks God..
you are my boss, you are my lord..
i should serve you all my life..

Because of you,
i understand what is love,
You are the love.

I should admit You as my only Lord and Boss..
My Lord,
no matter where i am,
no matter what situation i m having of,
no matter wat am i doing,
You know all of it..

I have been "blindfold" before this,
so i have so many different attitude,
i was acting differently to different "Boss" before..

But,
i should bear in mind tat,
you are the lord i m serving,
i do no need to lap Your shoe,
You do know all bout me.

i just have You as my Lord in my life,
i love You,
so i want to spread Your love toward me to others too..
I'll learn to think of you and love others at anytime..
You are my Lord,
i have to love others and i wan to love others too,
You are my boss,
How can i betray you?
=)
My Lord, give me the strength and intelligent to overcome these..
Amen


P/S: PLZ forgive me if can't understand of what i wrote, my standard of English is low, but i am sincere.

Are you following the trend or holding tight the righteous?

Oh my heart,
i have read an articles at pujut church' notice board this morning,
it is bout the "MEETING AND PLANNING OF SATAN & DEVILS"
it is a factual articles, but i dun think every1 can understand the true meaning of the article,
same as the meaning of gospel and who is the God as well as where we come!

My heart, i thanks to the God to let me have some discussion with you..
My heart, i thanks to the God to let me understand of i have to clear my mind once again to hold back the righteous..

OH my lovely human beings,
Devils are evil,
they are aiming for the failure of human..
What kind of failure is that?
The failure of having a closer relationship with God..

The failure of having a closer relationship with God

OH my lovely human beings,
High-tech stuffs haven't been invented since 50 years ago,
there are no such things like computer, PSP, Plasma TV or even Internet.
BUT NOW, look around you plz!
look carefully!
use your heart to think, nt brain..
What have we loss if compare to the old age?
IGNORE those adv. knowledge bout these "high-tech" stuff we called tat they are lacking of,
We are the loser in fact..
I m not good in collecting facts or arguing as well as dabate..
thanks God for it!
i manage to use heart to think!

Oh my lovely human beings,
Those 70 s, 80 s people are so lucky..
haiz..

They have no entertainment at their zaman..
They are so lucky for it..
they can concentrate on study,
exploring bout philosophy,
the meaning of life... * not the meaning we tot is v meaningful, but the righteous*
so nice...
There are so much distraction now..
Sales, games, money, business, work, fun, parties...
Speechless...

Oh my God,
give me the strength plz..
so tat i can hold tight Your rightous..
Amen..

I like choir!

Wow, the choir practice today make me feel good...
i manage to catch up more on notes as well as more familiar to the keys hehe...
Thanks God n those frens who helping me all the time..
Xiao Hong, Moses, Jeremy, Curtis, Ah lik,Pei Yi hehe...
but i scare i ll miss up the choir practice on every fri or even tuan qi on every sat if i start to work as part time worker..
hope God can lead me as well as give me a harsh situation tat i m manage to go through..
I should hungry for the growth of my soul..
hmm...
anyway.. frens, plz remind me n give me support to hungry for church activities all the time..
thanks =)
the life in church is so meaningful.

A challenging task

Well, i have went to Parkson to search n apply for part time vacancies this afternoon..
It was my first time to have such war..
well i reli expose to a little little bit more to the society..
T.T... it is not easy for me to put down my pride...
i m quite a hypocrite.. sigh..
but thanks God i have such chance n courage to make it out..
At least i m discovering more bout myself through this chance...
i reli duno i m a polite man or wat lol..
or i m just pretend to be polite in front those future employers?
duno.. at least it was a good try..
Arrr... these thing are not easy for me eh..
actually, i m just a nonsense in this world..
i dun have much knowledge or any adorable background...
i just hope i can have a heart tat God ll like to do until the limit God have given to me..
but i owes limit myself 1st before tat..
Hmm, i reli dn have much confidence...
May God lead me this nonsense all the time..
i m having a messy life with sins...
if i m employed, i hope i stil can have te passion to folllow the God...
Amen

Sien

Mood spoiled..
Peace disturbed...
Shao ah!
Why you jiu shi dun understand i need so much courage n independent to do all of these and i m trying to make it out..
i need to prepare myself most of the time just to overcome my inner weakness..
but you... but you...!
but you.... make my world in a mess again..
haiz...

Hmm, exercise is so cool

Well, just have some basketball shooting this morning,
though my shooting rate is so so so low..
but i like the lifestyle whereas exercise are present.
At least i know i am doing something beneficial..
=)...
after the bath, i can feel bit bit..
There are love in myself when i m exercising...
though alone...

A suffering phase to understand jaiseng more..

It have been days.
I'm having parts of slow beat in my life.
Days are not the days to me, but months.
I'm dreaming, drowning.
I have become a coward, looks for cover all the time.
I am afraid of the pretty sun,
i am a coward in front the others..
Oh my...
I can't get lost...
I know God is the guidance, the light of the path,
but i think i have lose the courage n passion to walk out the next step.
I'm losing of the bonding around.
Home, my nest to rest n escaping.
The family is the relationship i can hold other than God..
there is no more motivation can drive me out from home..
what the...
I have feed a COWARD inside of me all the time..
I m afraid of opening the "door",
i m afraid of wat i gonna to face,
I am now to ask, Who am i...
Who am i...
can i be positive 1?
or am i a negative 1?
Sigh..
Courage is the applying of faith,
i have no faith in the other relationship now..
I doesn't believe in my love..
i m suspecting my love..
well, i m getting stuff complicate, i knew it..
i m conflicting inside my heart all the time,
just to prevent the negative me ruling me..
Courage cant be gained by advice or scolding,
Courage is something more holy..
Courage involving the faith..
A faith can only appear in pure n lovely mind..
A faith is something more like miracle..
A faith involving the ruling of the heart..
I m having wounds in heart..
Most of the wounds are getting worse cause of me..
Love is absent..
Love is need now...
God, forgive me to being stubborn..
God, please let me experience Your love..
God, i m afraid of people..
GOD, please guide me and lead me..
I need faith!
I need courage!
I need to love myself!
=(...
I m suffering..
Cant cry out, tears are absent, but those wounds are burdening me and press on me heavily!
I can hardly express it,
i wanna shout, but..
who can open the "door" for me,
bring me to the seashore full of sunshine...
who can touch my heart,
stop me from locking myself anymore...
God, i love you..
i hope i reli can kno how to love you..
My family, i love you all,
i hope i reli kno how to love you all..
jaiseng, i love you too,
i hope..
there is love...

Cheer up

I just have an outgoing with my lovely kor this afternoon,
together with a v few of best frens n juniors..
We spent our golden time just for a movie..?!
Well i dun like to watch movie in cinema actually..
It is a expensive entertainment for me..
This is not the main point!
It is bcz interaction is rarely happen in cinema usually..
at least i m one of the example..
Well, i have to go just after the movie had finish..
i missed a good chance to share with a close person,
who have the VIP's card to go in my heart..
haiz..
I really dun have much time to talk with him face by face just now..
quite sad...

I was sitting in the bus,
sunset could attract my sight easily..
but not my mind..
fa dai again...
XD...
I really quite scare to take a ride in bus again..
It remind me of lots of memories i often think in bus..
and most of the memories including.....
haiz..
I have to rest ah..
but i have to try to let my soul to have a rest as well..
an unhealthy body n unhealthy mind can just influence my emotion..
It is time a good chance to learn to rely n have more faith in God..

Recovering

Thanks God for my recovering of sick...
though was having some harsh moment n painful night..
but im much better now..
i think i should have an efficient rest..
as well as rebuild my view...

Feeling bad

HOWEVER, i have experienced once again how i recover from it with the help of God,
though i m still tiring.. but wow.. it is amazing..
thx God

Bye forever..

Goodbye grandma..
i m short of time n chance to share the gospel with you..
sorry to say tat, grandma,
the scenes of those tradition make me feel bad..
sry for not close with u too..
haiz...
Mum, jia you ya..
God us the peace n place for u to rest..

14/02/10

Valentine Day...
=X
You happy jiu hao...
I unhappy jiu duno how..
sob...
!@#$%^....^"

13/02/10

It is new year eve..
tml i have to go to Bintangor with my family..
Grandma have been lying in ICU for days..
Hopefully i stil have the chance and courage to share the gospel to her..
='(...

Well..
i have drown in sadness the whole day..
have been reminded of the past..
haiz..
things doesnt seem like encouraging me..
i dun like myself either...

God,
sry for keep forgotten your words
please help me..
guide me..
let me experience your love..

Happy Chinese New Year..
Happy Valentine..


Smile ya~
=X

I .... .

Gathering at Parkson

I went to Parkson with all the duan3 xun4 frens n also
Terrence n Mei Fen...
We went to Popular Bookshop..
I found lot of interesting book as well as Evil books lol..
We enjoy the moment to talk together..
i think all of us like to spend our time together like this...
We have bought books as souvenir n gave to Mei fen, Terry, Tan Yi and Justina..
We have our dinner at KFC...
well it is so fun~
thanks God for gave us such chance to have a gathering..

Tan yi n Justina is leaving to Australia today..
may God bless them to have a safe flight n can adapt to the life at oversea..
may them hold tight the words of You..
Amen...

短训结业礼

06/02/2010

晨祷会后，
便跟着伟欣的车去珠巴堂会，
我们短训生也在88cafe那里和导师们用餐。

接着我们就在教会开始我们彼此的分享见证。
大家都很多灵命上的成长，
我也对自己的改变而感谢神！

后来，我们便开始我们的结业礼彩排，
我接触了第一次的打鼓事奉！
在此我想把这荣耀都给神，
若不是神的奇妙作为，我也须无法胜任这工作！
i like drum set!

我们的表演
－诗歌呈现
－手语表演 （荧光手套〕

这一切，
让我回想这些日子大家共同的回忆。
我感谢神的带领，
我在接下毕业证书时，
心里很感动，
我在教会与弟兄姐妹当中找到了安慰于关怀。。。。。
感谢。。。。。。

Dating inside of God

I went to pujut church ytd as planning of all duan3 xun4 student..
we used the time in morning to do those shou3 gong1 for the jie2 ye4 li3..
>.<..
i was having my precious time to play my drum set happily...
and crazily too..
cool!
improve again le lol....

That evening,
we went to Tanjung beach there..
what a golden time and dating it is.
all of us were appreciate for what God have arrange for us..
it was a pretty memory..


We have our sharing while the sunset..
well, i feel good after say sry for what i have did..
and actually i stil have lots of words to say..
i have to thanks alot of person..
I m glad that i can grow in my Spiritual life with the help of you all la..
We spent bout one and half an hour for the sharing among 16 person!
Unfortunately there are some else frens who cant joined us..
may God lead us..

We have our dinner after tat..
And i ll keep these memory in my heart too..
thanks for all..