灵魂栖息处

离乡之子，或迷失的羊儿，
可别忘了，
当初赐予你独特生命的那一位。


“他”是永恒的那一位，
守承诺的那一位。

我绝不撇下你，也不离开你。 【希伯来书 13： 5 】

一句话，
一个人却有可能需花上一生的时间在怀疑，也无法倘然接受。

然而，
“他”是信实的.

曾几何时，
你回归到灵魂深处？

避开世间五花八门的诱惑吧！
总有那一片青草地，
等着你栖息。。
＝D。。。

Case of mine, you could view and judge it in own way..

It is a hot noon..
I am still locked in this "square box"..
well, it is ok,
it is not the worst,

Appreciate every bad moment of yours,
Cause you will face with better 1!

I had once undergo a tougher moment at home during mid term holiday in last year,
l was limited in this "square box" as well..
Staying in a limited space for a long period could kill 1!
The temperature of that holiday was high too..
I was locked in a "hot pot"
I was once wanna commit suicide for times..
I told some person who use to b v close to me,
but there were non of them manage to giv me a rope to save me out..
I am holding the will of commit suicide for days..
There are no other things scary than that until now..
I am damn depressed..
Damn helpless..
I have forgot how i go through that moment,
but i have to say,
glad that i still can have my sharing here..


There is another case or i can say is a risky joke..
When i was still a probationary prefect in F4,
i use to carry out my duty around the school gate.
I saw a senior student that is more likely an offender.
I went to him and "advise" him to tuck in his shirt,
when i looked on his nametag,
i huai2 yi2 he use the nametag of others,
so i requested to check his bag to prove his identity..
HE REFUSE!
The climaks come around when he tumbuk the wall of the male toilet behind the Block E..
well, the war was still happening afterward, but thats not the point..
Guess wat? The name of that student is Melvin Phuah..
Same to the name of the younger brother of Michelle Phuah..
tats why i ll seek for the allowance to check his bag.. =.=
So funny to recall bout tis..

Life can always have surprises...
No matter wat happen, i jz want to glorify my Lord..
I apologize for the unhappiness i ever bring to any1 of u,
and i wish to spread the gospel and being a good witness all along my life..

Tats all i wanna share today..
Well, sry ya cz i din connect the phrase in better way..

Praise the Lord

It has been a period i didn't face with any severe problem of nightmare or weird dream..
Thanks to my Lord for listening to my prayer and helping me..
Thanks Alice Tong~ for suggested me a great way too..
Musictheraphy did helped.. perhaps Christian song have such awesome effect, cz it is song to praise the God..

Thanks for the leading, Lord.
It is not easy for 1 to accept you..

Thanks God..
=)

Human? Who is the intelligent one? Who is the stubborn one?

Human have no right to judge human,
because we are the creature of same level, stick with sins..
It is a fact,
HOWEVER, it doesn't mean that we can ignore the sins we saw and letting those to happen right?

Sins..
There is always a 1 who forgot the One who create us and give life.
There is always a 1 who do not have a healthy lifestyle.
There is always a 1 who do not treat the person around him/her fairly or kindly.
There is always a 1 who do not know God want us to be perfect in our "kelakuan".

No sins?
Impossible...

ONLY when some1 CAN & WILLING to admit own sins and believe that the
son of God, Jesus willing to forgive us,
can save us from go in the hell due to our sins,
he/she can save from hell, but not sins..
Human=Sin

Well, there are friends around have serious problem in their certain thinking,
i do not know how to help them yet..
i can only pray,
pray to the Mighty 1..

My lord,
could you guide them back to Your arm?
could them understand about Your love and love You?

You told us in the bible,
Knowing and believing in You is the start of the growing of intelligent..
I wish more person can understand this...

Aiyak =.=

o.0 i was having some kind of impossible dream again..
>.< luckily i was not defeated..
i control my mind to defeat it..
Ush....
I start to accept more about everything around me..
including the past..
myself too...

My God,
you are the 1 i should praise..
you can make "nothing" to "everything"
and yet you want us to know "everything" can be "nothing"
when i have nothing,
i know you are everything...
=)..
i want to experience more with your guidance...

感恩

有好一段时间没 update 这一个意义非凡的 blog 了.
它是我间接表达的管道，
也是我更了解自己起伏的管道.

一直以来，
我确实让自己陷入了低潮，
不断的自责，
不断的自卑，
不断的停留在过去，
不好受..

很感激，
生命走到现在，
我仍然还能反省自己.

我也感激，
那些曾在我回忆里的人，
那些现在仍在默默支持我的人，
深信我的人，
了解我不足及缺点却仍接受我的人.

不知不觉中，
我不知我怎么走过之前的一段“黑暗的深渊”.

我不能保证我会一直勇敢的走下去，
但是我一直都渴望勇敢，坚强.

不平常的恶梦仍存在着，
和父母亲的隔蔷依然如此，
我的心态，
却有稍微的不一样.

口里说的可以是玩笑，
希望我能作美好的见证！

颠倒的视野

当别人总在直直地向前看，往着前方迈进，
我却面向在后面的风光，犹豫地踏步前进..

当别人看见前方的窟隆时，都会设法而过，
我却眷恋昨日掉入的网罗， 主动地残害自己..

当别人可以一笑而过时，
我却让自己难过..

当我知道人可以浮在海面上时，
我却让海水覆盖我..

一切一切，
为何就不能再简单化？

为何去渴望一把钥匙，那盒子都没上锁，
只是被压在笨重的错误观念下，
稍微移边去，
不就行了吗。。。

Happy birthday, Han Ong..

Vincent,
Thanks for your invitation to your birthday celebration.
Thanks for being a well witness as a christian all this time too..
Thanks for ever gave me support when i feel like left alone.

I wish to have closer relationship with u lol...

Well, it is a nice gathering...
I hav joy, i believe most of us hav joy...

I felt glad Jacky ll listen to Christianity songs,
Thanks God his sis hav such resource for him as well as being a christian.

I felt grateful once i know i was suggested to hold a pose in VAD group.
Thanks for let me in..
another brand new experience..

I felt safe when i know choon man is aiming to help as much people too,
he can owes put in action to his though easily..
i stil gt a far way to learn..
XD..

I felt like so newbie when talk with those who hav start their pre-U life..
luckily i can accept the gasp between us..

I felt ok when i saw something. Shh...

I felt proud of George!!
bravo!
i m not laughing on u or take u as a joy..
but u did bring joy to us..
thanks...
u have nice courage.. keep it on..

I felt shameful when jiayang is telling me a right way of thinking bout going to church...
ya just bcz i have problems then i should go for God, listen to His words, praise him though in problems..
I wan't to hav a healthy lifestyle..
with the presence of God..

I felt happy i can hav lot of conversation with Chung Ong n Vincent tonight.
We less talk actually..
But i hope i can hav better relationship with them..
vincent, u r a great man actually, just nakal bit lol..

I felt good when asked by Hui Yii them for some gatheing..
Beach, Sunflower Centre..
Nice..
I reli wan to go for it..

I felt safe bout Han Ong,
though not v close or less talk with him..
but he is owes a great n helpful man..

Thanks God for such gift to me..
I m happy tonight..

Precious Corner

It was an early morning instead of late night..
I come to my bed around 1am++..
i m listening to a song tat time..
repeat n repeat..

"Zui4 Zhen1 Gui4 De4 Jiao3 Luo4"....

I like songs..
I like to understand n immerse in the melody, mv as well as lyric of the song.
this song have let lot of my sweet memories flash back as speed of light.
so amazing!
I am qi dai more on our expenditure in future, though some of us may cant meet or have to separate..

I msg some of those who owes playing important role in my life..
well, thx God i got warm respond from them too..
hehe ah ter kena my msg woke up qu..
lol!!
there is 1 of the msg i sent, i put some special words inside.. >.<
with the tips from the capital letter..
i duno it ll have the day to b discover o not..
but it is ok though the msg may been categorized in deleted msg now.

I m feeling so good today..
cz of wat i did.. lol..
i reli feel good when i cn open my heart to send these..
i duno i can maintain or do better in tml n tml o not..
i just reli happy when i can try to express my true feeling..
but not cheating myself sometime..

It is the easter day..
i absent for church gathering again..
go to cc with brothers pula!! lol...
it is my own fault..
i reli wanna be a helpful counsellor in future..
i reli wanna help the people around me with my counselling skill..
especially with god's help n religion base.
once i leave Him, i m weak..
this is true cz i ever went through it.
and today, thx God for listen my prayers all this while...
though i may not Your good son now..
Hold me tight, Lord...
Hold me tight too, the 1 i care...and the 1 care me..
let me be ur castle for a warm rest..
let God fulfill our daily life...
Amen...


i do make a kind of prayer sometime,
wish tat my wife in future is a christian as well..
hope tat i can make it..
share the gospel to the 1 i love..
though it seem hard now..