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^^ update my blog now le..
i m fine..
jz fly too high b4..
nid 2 face te reality now..
wings no nid oil but nid stamina..
thx 4 te strength i hav b4.. but..
i ll use crawl de..
o my way now..
who kno i can crawl till te sky............
wings.... will b my sweetest memory..
i dun hav any pretty wings.. but i ll create my own wings..
I WANNA SHOUT....

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so long din share my things here le..
now, i jz feel 2 say ........
tats te only thing i feel 2 say now
so
....

Jz feel 2 say..

Well..
V well..
i m v well now..
........
actually not well..
zzz.. but i believe i can handle it.. o of it.. i will..
When u wan 2 get smth.. sure there ll b smth tat u ll b lose..
Ya tat is true..
tat is te fact.. te reality.. i admit it..
i still wan 2 go on by my way..
even.... it hurt.. it pain..
i dun wan 2 giv up
dun feel to..
jz think of te good 1 n ignore te bad 1..
mayb tis is te only thing i can do..
mayb..
mayb...
mayb...
i cant do it..
but wat else can i do?
no more..
I need 2 keep go on in my way..
wid smth hide inside my heart..
i ll handle it myself..
mayb te another 1..
i will b keep hiding it in my heart for te rest of te time..
but isnt it better than i let it suffer..
i cant b tat greedy..
mayb.. i having too much things oled..
jz i duno appreciate them..
ya i duno...
if i was given a choice..
i choose 2 dun hold tight the 1 i lik..
but let it hold me tight...

Run away..

I jz wish 4 night time now....
if can only got every night but no everyday...
everything...
can jz express at te night..
cz i m alone...
only in te night time,
i cai ll feel better..
during te day time..
alot of ple pass around me..
but i din feel v warm...
mayb i wan too much again le..
even i nid 2 b alone at night le...
at least stars, moon..
will stil b my companion..
until tml..
every night..
i wan 2 shout out o my things
o my fan nao..
but seem lik it sealed in my heart le..
by myself..
i duno how 2 unseal it..
n dun think 2 unseal it le..
i dun wan them 2 b exposed now..
i duno how n no more reason 2 persuade me 2 do tat..
i hate ......
i wan 2 run away from o of tis...
if i disappear le..
can let o te ple around me happy..
o if i nvr appear..
can reduce te pain i gave..
i m willing 2 restart o of tis..
let my starting become ending..

WAT A STUPID THINKING...

but, for now de me.. i can only say tat.. too emotional le.. nid time 2 cool down..

Forever?

I owes dou believe in eternity, forever.
but, if it reli exist...
i think i hav destroy my own forever..
i destroy other's dream..
seem lik i stil not mature yet.. not a gud son, gud man, o even a gud fren...
keep going wid wat i believe,
is tat a wrg step?
i gt my dream,
even a bad dream...
i jz wan 2 believe wat i believe..
even te ending...
could kill me,
i jz wan 2 hav my way...
for me,
i not live 4 myself,
n not die for myself...
but
for my frens,
for te 1 i care...
i nt gud in social skill..
mayb tat is jz a stupid reason 4 u
i think so..
mayb i din think bout others..
sry...
when te star begin 2 disappear from my life le,
i oso hope i can hold it tight..
but cant...
it oled far from me..
it cant hear wat i say...
wat my heart say...
i oso....

Heart

Heart..
Te place where a soul was locate...
but i wonder...
how big it is?
it is fragile o not?
wat build up a heart?
y it can store up so many things..
it gt expire date?
although i oso hav a heart...
but i not understand...

te things tat our heart tell...
o r te right things?
i duno....
when shud i folo my heart decision?
i duno...

hide n seek oso gt rule...
it oso nid ending...
but until now,
i haven c any...
te worst thing is..
i duno wat is te role i playing...
shud i hide?
shud i b brave?
o quit te game?

Believe??

believe ?? wat make us so trust o believe in some1?
wat told by him of her...
y we ll believe?
wat make us gt tis kind of confidence?
how can we do tis?
Everythings... jz depend on tat feeling..
A simple mind change everythings..
Reli... jz depend on how we think..


My mind blurred...
i dun wan hurt any1..
however.. i did..
i stil repeat te same fault..
i confuse of being myself..
stupid things again...
when.. how..
i wan 2 ban my second mind thinking..
i broke my promise...
i duno wat shud do...
everythings... every condition..
i not te worst 1..
i not te most charm de ple..
but i stil act lik i m...
hate...
sry...
i reli wan 2 say sry la...
haiz...


*if i was stil a kid... i wan 2 cry...*
*but now... cant.. i wan 2 learn 2 b tough..*
*wan every1 2 b happy.. even i cant do te same thing...*