Guitar

This is the 1st guitar i had in my life..
Hopefully i would learn with passion and make full use of it..
To honour the God..
Bring joy, peace, love...=D

愿意依靠祢

这,是一个久违的见证,
烦闷的心情,
在奇妙的午后,
溶解了...

我好喜欢这本<辅导心理学>,
神似乎都一直透过当中的教导对我说话.

"许多个人问题的产生, 是因为人未能让基督作自己思想及行为的主宰,也不晓得那真正追求神的人有用不尽的力量资源!"

我坐在无人的花园中,
闭目祷告,
希望神能充满我,
让我继续成为他喜悦的仆人...

[7 你们祈求,就给你们; 寻找,就寻见; 叩门,就给你们开门.
8 因为凡祈求的,就得着; 寻找的, 就寻见; 叩门的, 就给他开门.
9 你们中间谁有儿子求饼, 反给他石头呢?
10 求鱼, 反给他蛇呢?
11 你们虽然不好, 尚且知道拿好东西给儿女, 何况你们在天上的父,岂不更把好东西给求他的人吗? ]
马太福音 7 章 7- 11 节

神是那允许的父,
他让我醒悟,
有许多得着...

我回忆起过往灵魂被拯救的事故,
真是奇妙!
神透过辅导者,
让人得拯救,重生,长进...

看见自己的改变,
我知道当中都是神的带领..

我希望能继续为神做美好的见证,
人都拥有软弱,
我知道藉着天上的父,
一切都有可能...
现在的我,
虽还是个无法成大局的人,
但只要上帝愿意用我,
而我也愿让上帝塑造,
奇迹不是妄想.

这几个月以来,
我频频跌倒,
愿慈爱的天父,
时时保守我,
不陷在罪中...

Turning phase

I am wondering,
how long could i still assume i am a teenager. =X

Not long right?
But i had to learn to love and enjoy life too..
An adult can also live happily right?

Sometimes,
i m feeling stress while on my way learn to b a teacher,
i have to learn to act as an adult do before that.
Do you ever seem a teacher act immature as a teenager?

hmm...
Be tough man!
whatsup whatsup..!
The skies are there waiting for you to reach high!
ush~
Lets cherish and make your rest of adolescence be a cool 1! =D

Maybe it is true

I guess i know why i am quite upset now..

Feeling useless or sad cause can't help those who u wish to help right? Jai Seng..

haiz...
take it easy.. take it easy...
though it may uneasy for you...

=X

A weird feeling

Feeling confuse,
feeling weird...

The feelings jump out of a sudden.
Feel like there are really too much things to learn..


*To help, it depend on situation...
To help, we don't simply help everyone...
to help, think of who we are first...*

Those question jump out of my mind suddenly..
I wonder,
who can i help?
how should i help?
who am i to help?
......

I am on the way exploring of the definition of "HELP".
Tonight,
i get lost...
I would rest first,
start my journey again soon.

*The happiest people don't neccessarily have the best of everything,
they just make the best of everything they have..*

I read the quote above on the wall of others on FB,
it is so meaaningful.

and yet i m trying to apply it to my feeling now..
jia you !

珍贵的回忆

借宿了三天,
今天终于回到了这间四四方方的IPG.

第一次到穆斯林的家做客,
一起准备,庆祝..
起初还担心害怕有些沟通上的障碍,
最终却相处的不在话下..

过程,
是珍贵的.

很庆幸,
很开心.

很想与人分享,
回忆..

临别时,
我看见了一个小女孩的不舍,
她,
是那么的单纯,
那么的在乎与珍惜,
这看似简单的三天..

谢谢你,
你的眼神,
就是那说不完的故事......

A wonderful dream

Things happen around are so warm though may imperfect in certain aspect,
I am so serious about it and cherish whatever as I can.
It was a sweet moment in Miri..

I know it was a dream when i had woke up..
i am not desperate once i know it was only a dream..
I appreciate it cz i have even a dream like this..

At least,
i ever went back to Miri last night.....

=}

如果没有金钱负担..

今天是假期的第五天......
我想,
我似乎需要加强我逞强的能力了..

真的,
有些受到惊吓了..

我妄想,
如果我是蛮富裕的人,
现在的我,
会在客厅里陪妈妈看电视,
会因为她的唠叨而学习了解并知足..
并不会在这里...
痴痴的幻想...



知道自己不能一直懦弱!
总不能一直待在避风港..
唉...可是...
....我.....


如果成长是那么的刻骨铭心,
这一刻,
我真的好害怕成长..
没有人知道,
乌云何时会逝..
只有等待.. 期待.. 深深的无奈...

我又好希望,
能找人分享,分析,讨论
我生命中的每个好与坏..
可是该死的自尊心与孤敖,
总是能拒人与千里,
有时候,
真不知自己在坚持什么,
也不知道自己为了什么而坚持...

情绪缓缓超越坚强的面具,
我需要更有信心的面对生活..
需要一些陪伴与鼓励...
更需要学习..
独自的面对..
自给自足.......

乡

如今,
离乡升学,
我也几乎与美里的一切断离联络..

面对拥有血缘关系的家人,
有时,
真会不知所措,
如今就像是一家人的鱼儿,
却活在不一样的鱼缸.

自从换了鱼缸,
我知道一昧眷恋着过往的环境不能让我在现有的环境成长,
然而,
我仍会胆却,
我对于自己保持联络与关心的能力豪无信心.
我看见自己在这方面的忽略.
我好希望我是个贴心的家人,
好希望我能很自然的爱我的家人..
好希望,
电话的另一端,
和我这一端,
是满满的爱...

2 weeks of Raya break from today

It is holiday!
Too bad it is not my time to back..
I will be staying here with 3 others Sarawakian in this "huge" but silent IPG soon.

No cafe open for sell food in this holiday~
No entertainment~
No gathering with family~
No gathering with those who are always friends~
No shelter for me to rest~

God, please lead me to go through it.