Who should i concern for? Which stuff should i give my passion in?

My life in f6 had start since 3 weeks ago.
It is not a long period,
i can hardly differentiate yesterday, today or even tomorrow since i could see the time is running out everyday.
I am not here to describe how busy or how hard it is a f6 life for me..
But i would like to say, it may consider as a life which is "half-blind" for me..

Well, i had to balance myself from time to time to prevent myself from getting lost.
A person who step in the trap of emo now may having difficulties to retake his or her courage and confidence. I am the 1 who is half drowning 1..

When i was paying my concern in the academic,
i found tat i used to concern about myself only.
Mayb it is my limit for now,
or mayb i used to act like a selfish 1 when i have to work hard to catch up the study. I really duno the reason, what i know is i have to break through this limit.

I found tat my passion had change eventually. I used to pay more passion in "snaking/resting" or "study" recently. I can sense the passion of mine to help others become weaker from day to day.. I'm quite afraid. I don't want to own by these kind of stuff.

No matter what happen, i have to take care of my health n emotion nicely for now..
Cause this 2 matter might influence One's feeling..I can't give up.. Life is a process for learning too, i hope i can had more better changes with God's leading..

I had been away n away from God..
Thats gonna make me down..
I reli wish i m wishing to glorify the Lord when i m helping others but not for own pride..

面对 "却步 vs 停留"

在一生中,
我们往往会面临挫折.

而在这过程中,
人会有情绪,
时有哀愁,
时有隐瞒.

我们却对这世界有错误的观念,
认为生活可以一帆风顺,
而上帝却没如此承诺.

若是能把自我关心,
扩大至关心更多有需要的人,
你将会发现,
自己想要的条件是奢侈.

活着,
我们有时会却步,
而最让人畏惧的是,
从此停留在那阶段,
走不出自己的阴霾与执着,
也看不见自己的盲点,
更找不到人来帮助自己..

人,
应要有健康的互动..
关心你忽略的人,
给他丰富的泉水,
只要用心,
你也可以...

For :
失望,绝望,无望的人,
尽管情况很糟糕,也会有转机的,
就在人类的视线极限 -- 盲点
转换一个思考模式,
或许你就看得到之前看不到的路... =)

愿神再次让你看见他奇妙的恩典,
洗净你蒙蔽的双眼..

How should i describe it?

The moment i am studying,
i am feeling good although have to finish lot of homework and prepartion..

HOWEVER,
i really less emphasize and hardly can concern on other things now..

I even less concern on other person and help them now...!

I feel quite desperate..

SAVE me God..

Different taste of love and care

Mum had back to Bintangor to visit grandma which is now in other space..
while Dad is now a part time housewife wahahaha..
I m so like to spend my time with dad like this,
though nothing special actually =.=..
But the moment he is at this home let me feel warm..
Maybe we reli don't practising much love expression at home..
But i do care you all..

I am sorry cause i didn't been mature enough in my secondary school life.
however, i will and i believe i m improving..

Now i realize the important of study lol!!
thanks God..

I had just wake up from a sweet dream.
It is most probably only a dream but hardly become a reality.
I am quite sure about it when i am comparing that dream with the situation i am having now..

Well,
i had chose not to feel disappoint about it,
despite,
i m glad that i can experience the sweet moment once in my dream.. =)

I am putting effort to had myself change my view of thinking when i am desperate.
Being tough is not a simple task by myself,
perhaps God lead me so well..

To some1 who is having a miserable period in his/her life now,
all i wish to say is,
Life is never a smooth path,
It need lots of elements to overcome those hard moment too..

I am willing to listen and accompany you through the moment
as long as you are willing to seek for help..

*I used to lock myself in own view and world too when i m facing troublesome matter before. It is not easy for 1 to go through these by own, especially human had the habit to magnify things especially the problems..

Love is the best element in recovery uses..
Don't ever forget to love yourself and the others though you are troubled.

I am praying for you,
my dear friend..

Form 6 starting..

Well,
I am having my further study in ch f6 which can only offer me sc stream for now..
I had get ready myself for any possible or even impossible situation before this..
*Glad that i had a long holiday before - 5 months..

I had prepare myself for fail or don't wish to transfer to art stream anymore due to the matter of time..the transferring progress may take months..anyway, I am trying to do better by working hard to study the subjects of sc stream at the same time i ll concentrate more on PA paper which is also compulsory subject for art student..

Well,
it is jz the second day after the class started,
i feel like losing stamina oled..
I am not calling it as tire or exhausting cz i understand that my situation is not the worst yet..
I pray often for this..
God ll accompany me, it is a fact..
cz He is the lovely God..

I may spend less time on more sharing of mine now onwards, though i always wish i could share more..
However, i'll still improve myself from time to time, to be a better man,
who can contribute to u,u,u,u... in future....

I used to learn n experience more everyday through some little "counselling" session may be between me n frens in the interaction..
Well, the conclusion i get may dun have those supportive scientific approval,
but i m glad for trying..

Take care ya, blog readers..
God bless..

Wanderer

IF i would asked to describe my feeling in my growth,
i would compare it with the feeling of a wanderer...

No point to ask others to understand me seem i know it is hard..

No point to join the others just because i am lonely but never alone..

No point to explain since it is not easy to understand a though of wanderer..

No point to influence by those who live out a so-called "meaningful" life..

No point to "bullshitting" with those who are "blindfolded"..

Last but not least,
It is hardly to realize the presence of a wanderer...

Opps..

Opps..
Doesn't feel good now..
Take care yea jaiseng!

Hmmm...
suddenly feel sympathy with those victim of cancer today..
Lord, plz guide me and lead my way..
Equip me with the strength i should have, to help those who in need..
I have to admit that i am a selfish person and sometime kinda "cold-blood",
i really don't know how could i understand my love better,
but i know You will lead me..

唯美 的回忆 =)

去年的今天，
是个很特别的日子，
是个无可取代的甜美。。

去年的我，
却思绪迷乱难懂像幅抽象画，
只搞懂年少的苦涩。。

对于幸福以为不远，
它却是昙花一现。。

咖啡的香浓固然有限，
正如人的情感表达也是如此，

当初，
你的确替我的咖啡加了砂糖。。

今年的今天，
我喝了杯 coffee，
甜美的甘苦中我似乎体会到幸福的另一滋味。。

今年的我，
努力过的很好，
你呢？


# =) #