Please spend sometime to pray for me

Hmm, i had just realize i have been walking in the spiritual dessert since last year,,
Same as the Israel, I harden my heart, to ignore His sound, but chase over flesh..

Am i weak?
if spiritual maturity and strength is define by number of sin, i am perhaps a weak one.
But surely He don't define like that..
He observe hearts..

Oh God,
sry that i always have 2 Gods inside my heart..
Although i knowing the root of flesh and sin, i still chase over them..
please help me...
i am helpless by my own..

The process is pain..
I got to face with the mess i did..
I am in credit to God..
Oh Father. Please give me the strength to walk firmly in You,
release me from condemnation...

Teach me how to love my family and You...
so that You can root in me too..

Im longing for healing from You..