Hidden feeling

I myself doubt my love to my family..

I myself aiming for things but not for family..

I myself know i owe them a lot..

But

I myself didn't practise to love them..

I myself didn't spend much time to think for them here..

I myself didn't care about what happen at home when i am away..

I myself don't bother if i lose contact with family!!!

Sharing need practise..
While it has been a long time i didn't share through blog..
Things really come by groups,
somehow i can't share every single 1 here too...

My God,
thank you for let me still have this little bit of guilty and knowing that i m a bad son..
please lead me to the path i should...
if i really don't appreciate things and people around,
please let me go through lessons,
and if endanger in death could help,
please ready myself for it too..
Amen..