Bad Temper

I am feeling guilty and quite complicate now.
I chat to my little bro in message just now when i was sick,
and i used the improper tone ONCE AGAIN when my family members are trying to care bout me by questions.

I hate this action of mine,
and i don't understand why.
Is it i don't know they care me?
Or i don't like them to care me?
I feel sorry.

MY feeling toward Life in IPG here is hard to describe by words.
I just had to move forward.
I don't know wat can i hold in my hands,
but i know what can i contribute if i continue to move forward..

My God,
please give me the passion i need,
I am afraid if my view is fully belong to this world.
Let me had a closer relationship with You..