I had tonnes of feeling

I spent my time from 1pm-7.30pm to play badminton and volleyball.
I had pushed myself too much and cause fatigue.

I am a normal person but want to be bit special at least to some1, that is myself.
I am a stupid person that ll over push myself.
I am a stubborn person who want to win and good in everything..

i feel tire,
Thanks God i m not mentally tire yet, perhaps soon.
I really want to join the worship!
I merely survive by my own weak will.

I admit that i had lack of confidence.
Thats why i always set myself a high expectation.
I want to improve more n more n faster n faster.

I had something bothering me actually.
But, i found that i don't have much wisdom while dealing with it..
Haiz..

God....
God.......

God, plz let me hold Your hands

I wish to lie in Your arms.
I wish i could get closer to You.
I know there is no1,
understand n love me more than You do..

Thanks for giving me the ability to worry.
I am worry if i had loosen Your hands,
I know that i am not strong and tough.
I know that You had keep giving what i need.

Please open up my eyes,
so that i can see clearly where am i.
So that i can walk to Your side...

I need strengths to contribute more as well as keep myself in suitable situation..

God,
I need you..

Latest report

I am fine in IPGKSM.
Whenever i define myself as fine i really do trying to let most of the things to be fine..

I believe i had grown up more here..
I learn alot from others..
I am now facng different challenges now.

The most troublesome matter is i could not make out any solution to go for church.
God, plz lead me to the wisdom,
lead me to You...

难过的一天

我来到了漂亮的沙滩,
回头一看,
脚印都被海浪洗涤,
我不禁回想过去,
发生过的忧伤却是个抹不去的事实,
我就这样度过一个挣扎的下午...

寻找出口..

人可以朝夕相处却无言以对,
心可以朝思暮想却无能为力,

但无论情绪如何,
分享与分担是无可厚非的.

但是,
尽管感情不错,
总会有说不出口的事与时候..

What had i missing?

Sad to admit that,
I feel like i had a bad quality of life recently.

Despite the physical health,
i am more concern about my mental health and status of my soul.
However, i really feel very bad.
I discover that i had less time and efforts to enrich my soul.
I damn dislike it.

I just had some leisure time to read the counselling book i brought to here today.
I can merely had myself comforted.

Counselling is not an easy task,
It is definitely not easy to become a Counsellor too.
The target of counsellor is so so far away from me now.
Not because of the counselling skills n knowledge i lack of,
but the good qualities of a counsellor.
Disappoint

Bad Temper

I am feeling guilty and quite complicate now.
I chat to my little bro in message just now when i was sick,
and i used the improper tone ONCE AGAIN when my family members are trying to care bout me by questions.

I hate this action of mine,
and i don't understand why.
Is it i don't know they care me?
Or i don't like them to care me?
I feel sorry.

MY feeling toward Life in IPG here is hard to describe by words.
I just had to move forward.
I don't know wat can i hold in my hands,
but i know what can i contribute if i continue to move forward..

My God,
please give me the passion i need,
I am afraid if my view is fully belong to this world.
Let me had a closer relationship with You..

却步的钢铁

有时软弱,有时刚强,
是人的天性.

在这被灌上"伟大教育者的出产工厂"里,
我,
似乎不愿有软弱的想法.
我,
就是为了培养毅力而来的,

能否对教育付出热忱,
我不知道.
是否挨得过?
这不是个问题,而是需要被操纵的过程.

教育的盲点多不剩数,
人,毕竟是会犯罪的人.
我只希望,
对辅导的热忱在往后能积极发展,
在神喜悦的情形下,
在现实社会的许可下,
一滴一滴挥洒汗水.