The image in front the mirror

It have been another semester.

Once again, I am now at home,
transform it to a place where i fang4 zong4 myself, to play games, enjoy and being selfish =.=...
I used to stand in front that mirror..  Flashback... Flashback.......ssss

 I set up my mind to contact more often with my cherry frens in the start of 2012.
Well, things went more challenging than I though.
The world can offer u so much choices, yet u can actually drown in the choices..
I managed to pick up the most important things..
HOWEVER, not those frens i cherish, not the time i am away for study..
Bcz i have my family there which need me to pour water, fertilize them.. Have missions there..

"Though we less contact and interact, but the bonding is still there and precious right?"
 That is what appeared in my mind everytime I think of my frensss..
Sometimes, when i lost to emotion, I think that i'm selfish, for not contact them..then only appear in front of them whenever i'm available...
Well, the truth is actually not right..

Hmm, follow the Jesus Christ, always put me in the situation of choice making..
Sometime, when the "self-orientation" pop out, i jz want to scold "DAMNNNNNIT #$%^^"
It seem like God is torturing me, but somehow i have to recognize that it is a process of moulding..

Now, when i look at the image, though still gt plenty of aspects that can be improve..
But i believe its inner strength is growing..
God is shaping him..

 Father, i pray so that u give him a heart to love You.. A heart that willing to surrender everything to You...