彷徨。。

有样东西，
奇特但也可以很软弱，
总在白天黑昼的交替中，
吞噬最原始的单纯，
总一次次的戳破童话故事的安宁。。

如果可以，
我愿放下这无邪的天真。。
如果可以，
我愿绕远路。。
也不愿戳破别人的安宁。。。。
愿主常与你我同在，
带领，
赐平安
予 迷路的人。。。。

Nightmare..

I hav dream about ghost ah..
zzz so scary.
wan shout but dun hav sound out de..
sigh...
hate it...

Jia you!

All the best for Ch camp's preparation and committees..
may God bless you all...

Sienz

I miss my close frens ever... things have changed while time flies... To be or not to be..yesterday is no longer today...and i can never change the fact in past...
we may walk further apart...but i ll never forget..until we may meet in the next corner..
Lead me ahead please, my Lord..
nutritious my soul and my need...
give me the confidence and power..
to go on for longer path in life...

and now,
i need your bless, my Lord
i need your help to comfort my soul..
i feel weak..
i ll continue my effort to bia add math again..
HA!

sinpaido, daijogu sama....

i can make it better de!!

Trial 2 result:

Add math: 28
Biology: 21
Physic: 55
Chemistry: 34

oh my God..
my results in science subject r so lousy
i hav make these be better in tis 2 weeks..
arrr...
sohai jaiseng....

=.=!!!

again??
ZzzzZ....
haiz let it be then..
freeze u freeze u wahahaha...

childish...(>.<)

=.=... cheh.. dream again

Zzzz... should never put expectation on others ba
i dun wanna such dream...
aiyo..
ling jai seng..
study la u..

>.<

Thx to God i hav go through part of the harsh moment..
smile ya smile ya~

wahahahahhahahahahaha
hahahahahahahaha...

not feeling much stress recently
duno it is hidden by me o not...
hmm... jia you!

=)

Do feel the love of God
throughout every moment of ur life^^
jy ya form 5 students..
do take care

=.=..

It is not a matter that have solution..
what i can do is to choose among the choice i have..


I am working hard too, Sharon..
i'll not give up..
i kno wat shud i do too..
i ll find my own key out..
to open "that"
to open the door which have no key to unlock...
how nice it ll b, if there is some1 who can help me to unlock it at the other side..
=X

折磨。。。

直到何时，
我才会爱我自己呢？
一再的排斥自己，不让它去接近人。。
真的好挣扎。。
每当寂静侵袭，
失去麻醉品时，
陪伴着我的只有自己，
真的很想往它脸上揍过去！
恨。。。

i m not myself when i m not loving him..
now, i m not the 1 who i m..
i only can persuade myself with words from God..
May God's love guide me to love myself too..
amen..

Messy mind.. i run away again..

Hm.. i have take a long nap b4 upload tis post..
i hav exhaust my stamina today
since i hav let myself in dilema..
keep run away of myself ah..
sien..
haha..
not dare to hold anything today too..
so sien...
jai ah,
when u wan to open ur heart huh?
haiz....

毕业礼～

哎呀。。
tml is the prize giving ceremony eh..
but mum n dad cant attend..
so much i hope tat they can go n witness the golden moment..
so much i hope tat i can hav them accompany me to go on the stage n let the others c them.
let them feel proud..
feel good..
i hope to get the reassurance from tat as well as make them proud..
but haiz..
quite sad..
make me feel lonely again..
i wan to share my stuff with those i care..
but...
God, plz accompany me all the way in my life..
you are the one i could rely on when there is nobody around me..
wish tat my achievement could let you feel proud..
i will try my best to contribute better to others

无可奈何。。

唉，好辛苦啊。。。
太无知或太清醒都麻醉不了XX。。
天真的国度，
早该堕入地狱。。

愿我的灵不被世俗所侵蚀。。
愿我的意识不被创伤所模糊。。。
唯有回到神的范围，才看见孤寂的软弱。。
神啊，请赐给我坚持的立量。。
走过毒花园，
度过悲怨阴霾，
我需要您的陪伴。。。
永恒的
不便的。。。

i hav live for 18 years..
and i hardly let the people around me feel happy and peace..
may God give me the strength and confidence to do so..
spread your love..
amen......

=)

It is another starting of the day..
though i still haven make use of the time to study wisely
but i feel better le..
i do spend some time talk cock wid kevin bout the camp
haha feel good bout it lo..
owes dou not feel lonely when i share bout those things wid him..

jy~

There was a rainy day in his heart

haiz..
keep 失眠 these few days..
tonight.. a peaceful night where i can hear the sound of my heart.. i run from my bed。。
i heard the sound。。
it was blur.. but i kno it doesn't feel good..
thx kor for pei me chatting la..
i have to say it..
it reli feel good when i kno i stil grabbed by some1..

沙塔之所以屹立，
乃因它拥有结构，
但，又有谁知晓，
它心里的杂陈。。。
如果回忆能被选择，我愿从沙堆里找出最维美的。。
梦×梦×梦。。。

God is everything..

Do have a faith on him..
God ll lead you...

#$%&*

T.T...
what have happened to me?
not understand the situation now..
Talk to me >.<
God,
i hope i will not defeated by loneliness..

"^^"""

No mood today..
tiring today..
feeling weird today..
will b ok after today..
i guess..
it is not my day.......

I m improving.. i guess so..

Hmm.. i had played badminton wid kevin them again on ytd afternoon..
exercise keep my mind fresh n let me cool down n think more..
i kno i m improving. it may not reach the target or the standard yet..
but i hav being different in other way.. somewhere i kno only..

i was haunted by different nightmare tis few night..
and yet jz shout at my mum twice today.. >.<..
she not v agree wid me to go exercise again b4 spm ba..
plus, i hurt my foot haha..
then jiu $%^&**(..
shout xia..
haha i think there is still have some unknown stress in my heart gua..
release in wrong way le haha.

i heard some of the frens discussed bout their future..
i heard bout the uni they so wanted to go..
i duno whether some of them do really kno what thy wan la..
and duno they reli hav prepare themselves well o not
but l ll be here to help what i can do>.<.. though i not so wei3 da4 yet la.

i ll aim for government scu..
takes it as a challenge lo..
not bad too la..
i wun study til too guilty cz cost parent tat much to provide me further study..
at the same time..
i ll try learn as much as i can..
aim to study piano after spm de..
>.<..
asked cheng yi to teach me basic oled..
hehe jz wanna express my feeling n wanna help to play piano in the church..
well..
jy ba..
sohai guy..

Happy birthday kor..

Happy birthday to you~
aiya cant sing birthday song for u..
haha nvm.. i ll paiseh too lol..
seldom do it..
but lets have a outgoing after you back ya..
haha saw my bro de post on ur wall in facebook..

u said u din help much,
but i help myself..
i can be agree wid it..
but i have to let kor now..
u r my close kor who lead me to a correct way..
u r the 1 who ken3 ding4 my effort n present at 1st..
i learn alot from you..
receive the love in action from you..
i wun forget how u support me n comfort me start from the end of Form 3..
thx kor..
may ur life fill wid colour and wid smile..
may our relationship can overcome all the challenge in the world..
hoorayy..
XD

Tire ah...

T.T.. i still feel so tire eh
though i sleep so early tis few day edi..
hmm...
spm is coming..
i kno i hav my target oled n i kno i m putting the effort i can afford..
May god bless me..
and my form 5 frens..

COOL DOWN..

Hoo... hoo...
jai, u shud put aside ur "wei da" de plan aside 1st ba..
if spm oso not prepare well, u gonna blame urself until u die eh..
stil 18 tis years..
i dun wan regrets for tat long time ler..
20years+ eh
study ba..
u r a clever guy..
u kno wat shud u do..
jz have urself cool down..
put down everything...
power is driving u crazy..
hmm... lai lai lai study..
jy ya!!