God, please let me meet your love

I want to experience Your love more...
More than everything...

=X

Whenever i am down,
whenever i am afraid to disturb others or don't know who to share with,
I appreciate this blog so much.

Changing ownself is easier than changing others =D,
hopefully my changes are good 1.
It may not accepted by others,
as long as it accepted by God,
it would be more than enough.

Today pray list - Pray for those who have been forgotten or ignored.. =D
God love you no matter how others look at you

Thanks God For the Arrangement You made

Life in IPGKSM here isnt easy and there are lot of things for me to learn..
I was not in good mood and in stress which had influence my daily life lately..

But Thanks God!
i just have a sharing session with a Christian here.
He is non chinese, but i reli appreciate God for the arrangement of tonight.

God, plz continue to be my lord in my life.
Please give me wisdom and let the holy spirit always with me..
May what i do i can put You in the 1st priority.
May i come to You more often, even in every minutes i can remember of Your present in my life..

God, thank You for the "church" u had arrange for me tonight..
I love You

FAKING?!

I don't know how am i recently.
I can tell you i'm fine,
I can tell you i am stil adapting,
But i cant tell you whether i am honest in my answer or not.

Sometime i used to confuse about my own feeling.
maybe i had been get use to think in a complicate way,
maybe i had been get use to psycho myself too much.

I can be know nothing while i am sad in my deep heart.
Well, i believe my feeling is hidden.
Mrs Christina from Miri church called me jz nw and we have a short chat,
i merely had my homesick lost control.

Haha..

I can't be a weak person,
I don't want to be a weak person.
sometimes I just have to psycho myself to become a "strong" person.
Well, i duno whether it work o not,
mayb it is,
for temporally.

I would stil living in this way,
until i found a better way..

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An awesome TESL Night

TESL = Teaching English as Second Language

It was a dinner until 12 am =.=..
I had become the amcee of whole the ceremony..
Well, it is a good experience, but more to tiring XD..

I am glad to have bunch of frens here.
Our relationship may not too good yet
but i ll learn to put in effort in it...

Kinda miss Miri sometime lo,
but what to do,
I can't controlled by my emotion..
jia you Jai!!

I had tonnes of feeling

I spent my time from 1pm-7.30pm to play badminton and volleyball.
I had pushed myself too much and cause fatigue.

I am a normal person but want to be bit special at least to some1, that is myself.
I am a stupid person that ll over push myself.
I am a stubborn person who want to win and good in everything..

i feel tire,
Thanks God i m not mentally tire yet, perhaps soon.
I really want to join the worship!
I merely survive by my own weak will.

I admit that i had lack of confidence.
Thats why i always set myself a high expectation.
I want to improve more n more n faster n faster.

I had something bothering me actually.
But, i found that i don't have much wisdom while dealing with it..
Haiz..

God....
God.......

God, plz let me hold Your hands

I wish to lie in Your arms.
I wish i could get closer to You.
I know there is no1,
understand n love me more than You do..

Thanks for giving me the ability to worry.
I am worry if i had loosen Your hands,
I know that i am not strong and tough.
I know that You had keep giving what i need.

Please open up my eyes,
so that i can see clearly where am i.
So that i can walk to Your side...

I need strengths to contribute more as well as keep myself in suitable situation..

God,
I need you..