20.03.2010

It is the day of war.
It is the day of believe.
It is the day of spreading the love.
It is the melody.

It is not rare to find a touching melody.
But is rare to find a living melody.

I prayed before the gospel ceremony start.
I would like to call it like that instead of a concert.
I prayed for His strength,
So that He can fulfill our life,
use our voice for gospel spreading.

I don't know how is the respond at last.
I don't know about the Will of Him too.
But i am more sure,
this event have become 1 of the witness in my life.
The witnesses of life in praising.

My voice is lying in ICU currently.
May God bless me,
Thanks for this gift as a reminder.
Remind me of everything i learn in the camp,
no matter in the way of music of gospel.
Thanks God.

May Praising Non-stop, Amen..

How could i understand your prints?

My Lord,
i feel good when i can praise you sincerely,
i feel good when i can experience your love,
through guidance, brothers and sisters in church.

I am exhausting throughout the 3rd Eastern Malaysia Church's Choir Practice,
but i am full,
but i am positive,
now.

"Happiness is a choice, not a chance. You decided on it, need not wait for it to happen by chance."

I saw the phrase above from my kor- Henry's personal message in msn.

I may cant fully agree with it,
cause i cant make it out for now.

However, i believe the faith and morale of ones can influence his happiness.
Happiness only seem far away when he has misunderstand or mistaken in these.

But, i would more prefer to pleasure in life if compare to happiness.
I would like to concern more about the pleasure in life through the love.
Jesus is the love,
One can be enriching when his soul is equip with love.

Happiness do not last long,
is not fully beneficial,
sometime.
Playing game bring happiness too, but it is not v pleasant in love.

Lastly,
I choose to let myself to be happy,
surely the pleasure of life too.

But, i am the one who like to zhuan1 niu2 jiao3 jian1.
I didn't noticed about it most of the time too.
I don't even can come out from the cage by myself.

Maybe,
it is the pros of lacking of healthy self image.

Lost

I am getting lost while writing this post.
I just wish to pass a message to myself,
"I am lost!"

It is even miserable since i can hardly notice it.

My lord,
plz guide me still,
I'm getting lost from your path,
You know me the most,
You know me better than i'm,
You are the knowledge.

My lord,
i need you,
i am afraid actually,
i guess i haven't prepare for something,
seem like i am running away from certain devotion or responsibility.

My lord,
how could i hide from you?
You are everywhere,
plz
plz
plz help me...

14/03/2010

Happy birthday, Kwong Xing..
Thanks God i can meet you up in your birthday celebration.
We were losing contact of each other.
It have been a long period after SPM.
But i feel appreciate that we still can have chance for a date.

Thanks God that i can celebrate your birthday with you.
Thanks God that you are a christian.
I just knew it.
Thanks, i ll pray for your growth in your soul as well as life.
Feel free to find me for anything ya.
=)

Cry, instead of acting calm

I am not a tough guy,
but i don't wanna to be a loser too.
We are all learning in the different phase of life.
I am always wanna be stronger,
i believe some of you do too.

I am learning to listen.
Thanks God i am able to listen with concentration at certain time,
i listened to few voices,
i listened to my voices as well,
But, i can't listen to those tears in heart, mine as well.
Sometime, cry is necessary.
Sometime, we just can't cry out our feeling.
Sometime, our body are away from our soul.

The world we are staying now are too fake.
we might being fake at anytime.
Things turn worse when you being fake to your heart.

Listen,
Listen to the right voice.
Is the voice live in your heart?
Or have you been away from your heart by entertainment or "pride" in this world?

We are feeling good after express our love to each other,
We are feeling depress when we don't know how to express our love as well as let others understand..
It is the same too when we cry and we don't..

Be grateful when there is friend who concern on your soul all along your life,
Be thankful when there is friend who concern on your benefit all along your life,
Be careful if there is only entertainment in your friendship.

Pray,
Pray for the strength from God,
Without thy, without me..

Thanks God!!

I am so grateful today for the guidance from god!
Thanks to Mr Lucas for dated me too.
Thanks again for the reassure.
Well, it is another process in my life,
i have walked through some little parts,
congratulates to u, jai..
keep it up!

My mum is having sourness n pain in arm today,
i felt bit sad,
i manage to 'urut' for her,
glad tat it help a bit.
=)

Ling Jai Seng,
is now on his journey,
to figure out himself again,
God, is the most important role for him..

=(

Something,
eating my heart up...

No1 can figure out what it is,
God, save me...