什么都不想要

啊，
不再认识自己，
不再有追求，
不再坚持，
不再爱，
不再，
不。。。

神啊，可不可以让我明白和经历祢的爱？
现在，我只有空虚。

日子久了，
我怕，我什么都不想要了。

520

凌晨4点睡，早上11点醒来，
就这样我的520只有13个小时。

下午难得有机会去到Leisure Mall 和 Eko Cheras。
原来这2间商场有桥连接起来。

起初只是为了吃顿午餐，
怎知吃了后便决定走走看啊看。

好久没出来逛了。
都忘了原来自己喜欢这样度时间。
走着看着，总可以想很多事情。
在今天这个日子也难免想我爱的人。

和Aaron一起进入Kaison看装饰品时，
不禁留意，甚至寻找看看可以买下哪些东西作为礼物。
我看中了2个玻璃罐。
一个是想装下小心思送给人，
一个是想装我的心情，神的恩典，我的体会等等。。。
但想了一下，
觉得自己现在居住的环境并不容许我有这样的空间摆放，
也怕自己三分钟热度就放弃了。
最后，打消念头了。

后来，
进入H&M，
看到好些衣服有折扣（这里省略了许多犹豫）。
最后看中一个毛衣才RM30，
便买下来。

MCO期间不能试穿还真是扫兴。
我也因此不能尽兴试穿。

后来穿上了发现真的蛮好看，觉得好开心。
很喜欢找到合身的服装的那感觉。

到了深夜，
难得我不玩游戏（最近都在沉沦）。
刷了刷脸书，看到那么多秀恩爱的照片，
才再一次发现今天是520.

看到某个发文，
询问读者
“今天，你好好爱自己了吗？”
才惊醒，
我真是忘记了。。。

一直想着要爱人，要别人爱我，
可我自己却忘了爱自己。

我是神创造的，
是神爱的，
我值得被自己爱。。。

虽然已经快接近30岁，
但我要珍惜单身的日子，
虽然会孤单，
会被忽略遗忘，
但我永远都与我同在，
永远也都是神的爱子，
在祂荫蔽下。

“Every day may not be good...
but there's something good in every day”

Today, i felt the love.
Not from others, not from me myself,
but from Him.
He allow me to go through stormy sea.
Then he lead me to see this quote on a decoration bottle.

提醒我感恩，
带领我领受祂的爱，
看见自己是被爱的，
也值得我自己去爱。

520，济胜。

*
在此po上今天看中的温暖毛衣，还有我爱的暖心济胜。

Beloved, Jai Seng

沉沦

可不可以放弃？
可不可以结束？
可不可以离去？

MCO 2个月了，
我还是无法重整自己。
真的只是因为课业和工作压力吗？
还是无奈，孤单，否定，不被理解？

看看现在这个29岁的自己，
原来还会像中学时期那样沮丧和无助。
想到这，嘴角难免冷笑一下。
这是多么熟悉的自己。

我的巴拿巴在吗？
神啊，
祢明明是那么的良善，满有怜悯，充满大能，
可为什么我就是不想依靠祢？

祢明明是真神。。。

又要被人说想太多了吧！

这块金，累了。

主啊，

我不能！

我已经不想追求了。

我厌倦了失望，
也厌倦了满足不了自己的期待。。。

主啊，
可我其实知道这些声音都不是真理。

求祢帮助我抓紧祢。

更求祢抓紧我。。。

How are you?

Another quarter left until the end of 2018.

Time past as we still stumble at the same place.

I miss writing. But more importantly, i think i am missing of reader. Someone to read my mind.

Ordering Your Private World by Gordon MacDonald (preface)

It is 2018.
This is my first post, after i stopped blogging ever since i work.

When i look at my past, I can't be grateful enough for what God had done in my life and how He had lead me for all these years. He is faithful and never forsake me.

I made a few resolutions for tis year. One of it is to digest a book. I have long received a book from a friend who had always be my tutor and model. Therefore, i choose to digest this book with the title of "Ordering Your Private World".

I ll use this platform to do my reflection on the book, hopefully it benifits you too. Meanwhile i pray that God bless you, who is reading this post right now.

Preface:
"How can our outer world be orderly if our inner world is not? Inner world must govern the outer world."

Im quite unsatisfy with my time management. I m lacking of discipline to spend my time wisely. Therefore, i think it is because of the disorganized state of my private world. A still private world remain steady and calm even when the outer is stormy and in rage.

平凡的码头

那，
是个不起眼的码头，
远看似乎很壮观，
近看却平凡的可以。

因为地理位置不理想，
天气常年变幻莫测，
码头上也没娱乐可享，
许多渔人及船只都不愿在这停留。

多年来，
曾有船只路过参观，
也有船只逗留片刻，
但最终没有一个永久逗留着。
也没有`一个，开心地离去。

这码头，
除了平凡，有时也很令人伤感。。。
就连路过的人，呼吸了那里的空气都会避而远之。。。

如果我是那码头，
我会害怕开放自己，
因为没人会把船停留在这里；

如果我是那码头，
我会在心里对着广阔的海沉寂的呐喊，
因为没人听得到；

如果我是那码头，
我会希望有船只逗留，欣赏及把我放在 Wanted List，
因为孤单了很久`。。。

可日子久了才知道，
码头，
要学会自己坚强，
封闭了，
别期待别人来开，
拿住那把钥匙的，
始终是自己。
没有渔人的陪伴，
日子终要过。

只是感伤，
码头仍然是当年的码头，
尽管人与事有些不同，
但5年前的矛盾，
现在也有。

船只，
有权利不逗留，
码头，
不该绑死船只，
命运，
总和我们开玩笑。

Picture of Tanjung Lobang, Miri

房里的秘密

砰砰砰！
砰砰砰砰！
“双，你又怎么了？”

“没事，我要睡觉了”
“你开门啊。”

过了好一阵子，门里仍然没有回应。
 妈妈也无奈的放弃了。

这已不是第一次了，双总会时不时就将自己反锁在房间里。
即使是在饭局中，谈话中，双总不会因场地时间而有所限制这样的举止。
开始时，只是晚上时间，到后来，早上，中午，下午，都会有这样的举动。
他的举动很随机，突然。
没有人知道时机，原因，
也没人知道，
双躲在房间里做什么。
除了担心，大家也无可奈何。

这一天，双又将自己反锁了。
一个人躲在暗黑的房间，
一个人发着呆，
也没做什么特别的事。
是挺无聊，
可是就好像上瘾般，
双也无法控制，
总会犯上这个习惯。
就是这样耗时间，直到向疲惫的身体屈服，他才甘心睡了。。。

究竟，
一个人为何会向往那暗黑的空间呢？
也许，
是期待在那个地方，盼到某个到来吧。
就好比，
夜空中陪伴的繁星，
冬天的一个火柴，
雨天的一个伞，
人群中的一只手。。。

可为何，
要将自己抽离人群呢/？
还真不知道。
或许在那小小的房间，
他可以拥抱安全感吧。。。

就这样，
日复一日，
原本陌生又孤单的空间，
如今，
已成了熟悉的陪伴。。。


*本故事纯属虚构，如有雷同，实属巧合。。。

Internship at Mother School

It is great to go school.
Other than learning, we make friends and memories.

It is even greater to back to mother school,
Other than home, we spent most of our childhood here.

However, this is my first time back to SJKC Chung Hua Miri ever since I graduated in 2003. What a shame. If it wasn't of the internship, I think I won't step into this familiar compound.

My internship have been started for 2 weeks until now.
I would like to use "waterfall" to describe my first 2 weeks of internship. Let me tell you why.

1. My schedule was so pack of things to do.
Funny, The fact is I only teach 2 hours per week. Nah, teachers don't teach only. In fact, if teachers only have to teach, it would be a relief for us. I got to do 3 projects within first 4 weeks of internship. Besides, Mei Gong (SJKC CHUNG HUA MIRI) is celebrating 70th anniversary on 17/10/2015. I also got involved in both performance and leading a student performance.


2. I learned so much things
During a conversation with one of the teacher who i have interaction with more often, she mentioned this.
"If you want to live a simple, easy, stress less life, it is ok to go to smaller school, but u might feel empty, in fact, if you work in a school of larger population like mei gong (1300+ students), you feel exhausted almost everyday, but you learn alot of things, you achieved the satisfaction which a easy life cant offer you."

I did learned alot of things within these 2 weeks. Not to mention things like time management, stress management, I learned to face the emergency or sudden situation. A teacher is suppose to solves problems, not telling or explaining them. Well, I did mistakes in doing the later one. But glad that i learned the outcomes afterwards.

I also learned to be more aware of the students's need. Kids now are so rebellious and bad in expressing their needs and thoughts. Once we have prejudice, live in comfort zone or getting busy, we ought to careless in taking care of students' need. Example, one of my students complain about his pain on his leg for few days already, yet i just expressing my "care" through words until a dance teacher checked his leg and reported to me. It is also her suggest me to call his father immediately and not just saying that  i will bring this issue to his father when i see him.

I also learned alot from a dance teacher who is helping me to teach my students who take part in the school anniversary. I like to learn from people around me. I like to observe people and see how they react to things happen around them. That dance teacher got charisma and handle situation wisely and accurately. Her persistence and commitment also inspiring me because she always gives her best and never complain despite tire and packed schedule.

So, I did gained alot within this 2 weeks, but it is also exhausting. One of the reason is I'm giving my best. Different than practical before, which I worked for marks only and which I dont care much. Internship at mother school, it is different thing, I feel like want to give my best. Some of the teachers in school also inspired me. Somemore I hope that I can perform well in school to let my ex teachers feel proud of me.

My schedule would getting more pack, and i actually failed on some of my targets, like exercise regularly, limteh more with friends to keep closer, do house chores to lessen my mother' burden and accompany her more. It is challenging for me, yet i feel like so "responsible" and "independent" whenever i put effort to make these happen.

OK, this is the end. Nxt time. God bless all.

Waiting...

Waiting.

What exactly is waiting?

A process? 

How long can it be?

An expectation? 

Which shall i expect, the good or bad outcome?

Unknown result? 

Then what's the worth of waiting?

What exactly is "waiting" mean for you?

An active process? Or a passive one?

What do you do while waiting?

Standing?

Resting?

Sleeping?

Recently, 

I realized I have been passive while waiting.

Example.

The second coming of the Lord have been prophesied in the bible.

Yet, 

I am unaware of it most of the time in my daily life.

Worse, I put aside of the alertness and flow with this hectic world.

Waiting, 

is still on going.

As life goes on, 

a lot of "waiting" is awaiting of us.

Inevitably, 

we could need a life long to learn about waiting.

But, lets just be active and alert while waiting.

Prayer, is one of the active role we could play...

For the FIRST time, my eyes don't get dry in flight... t

Is it more people cry at airport today? Or just I never pay attention to them?

One thing for sure, people were crying for me today...

How can a farewell be done well?
It is harder for those who are shy, who just don't do the straight-forward style.
Am i considered one? hmm..

Time slipped, it is finally the time to enter the departure hall, which may become the last...
No one have prepared for it.
Being helpless, some short of words, some burst in tears, some even lost their soul...

Einstein said, To be or not to be, that's the question.
I say, To say see you again or not, that's the question.
Will we meet again?
Let's be positive, yes.
Prayer is free, I will just pray for it first.

Both of my flight delayed.
KB-KL and KL-Miri.
My flight to Miri is about 7pm.
Ok, flight in night time can be romantic, nah I don't need one now.
hm, flight in night time can be peaceful, hmm yea quite true.

The fact is, it is so not true...
My emotion was waving.
The nearer is me to Miri, the thought of missing something grow stronger.
The memories boiled inside me.
The feelings squeeze me.
I felt the tears, it flow out from a tank which is fully filled.
For the FIRST time, my eyes don't get dry in flight...

For half a decade studying "oversea", I was having a few conflict in my life.
One of it is,
What to do when I have more than one circle of friends which matter a lot to me?
One is my chinese friends, One is my church friends.

Weekend is precious for everyone.
Holiday is precious for everyone too.
Free time is even more precious.
Students like to do activities or have gathering in these time.
Yet, when these time come, I would having a hard time to choose who to spend my time with.
It is not like one is matter than the another.
But when I choose over one of it, the another one missed me...
I am kinda noob in multi-tasking over friends.
eg, When I mixed into A, I hardly can care B, so do the C, D and E.

Nevertheless, I just realized something today.
To FSOG church members and Care Group Besut members, I want to say that, you all are my family.
Despite the bad, bitter or sour past, i realized that
you all are my beloved family.
You all are my home.
We had spent time together for almost 5 years and there were so many things happened in between, things that scattered us and bonded us.
We have witnessed each other grew in His plan, we have made effort for each other and we have been there for each other.
Thanks for accepting this one Chinese guy here with God's love and care him as he always hope for it.

To my CG members,
I love you all, although I am noob in loving people.
I thought that we could be closer friend, but the truth is we actually are a family already.
Yet, sorry for being cool most of the time.
I "hold back" a alot of my true self.

To my other circle of friends during my uni life,
thanks for accepting me and befriend me despite my hard-to-understand characteristic.
I am shy, I am sensitive, I am noob.
Honestly, there were lot of time I' were hurt and disappointed when we were together. I thought that these friends were so not thoughtful, not considerate and not into me. Still, you guys are matter to me.
I regret a lot for holding back myself, regret that i didn't being friend enough.
But I was so afraid to open up myself...
Although we could not spent enough time for each other and understand each other well, you guys still having a seat in my heart.

I can't write further.
I am sleepy and my mind is kinda messy, since things keep popping out, especially memory and emotion.
I would stop here.
Be strong jai seng.
Be strong my peeps.
Good night...

再见了，我的大学生涯（5年又3个月）

滴答滴答，
时间不留人，
身在考场，
分秒必争，
手里握着的笔肆意在试卷上绘画，
停不下来，
眼角却时不时游向窗外，
凝望，发呆，
瞧那走廊，瞧那课室。。


滴答滴答，
时间不骗人，
考完了最后一张试卷，
今天也将为我的大学生涯画下句点，
今天，
就是今天。
离别的日子，
难以接受，
却真实的可以。。

滴答滴答，
时间催人，
列车即将出发，
可否，让我陪你到下一个站口，
就多一分钟，
让我好好珍重？
催了岁月，
催了眼泪，
但愿也催了我们的重逢。。。

回首已是五年身

倒数半年，就即将毕业了。转眼就是五年，眼屎还没来得及清掉，就已在这时间点。

看一看四周，当初的热血，抱负，都零散在地上。有些都不见踪影了。是醉酒后打翻的吗？是什么时候开始学会买醉呢？

我，醉了多少夜晚？


还记得刚踏入师范学院，尽管前路未卜，总会对未来有所期待，总在想办法做些什么来打造美好的未来。
尽管别人指指点点，说三道四，依然坚持己见，凡事以升华且装备自己为首。有空闲时间就埋头看书，少掺人空谈。

那时只顾着自己的人生方向，自身的价值观又过高，却不会拿捏，多少显得有些孤僻。
表达方式很婉转，难以了解，也不是很会和人打成一片，天真的以为周边的人都像中学时期的朋友那样能接受我，给与谅解和包容。
可问题是，我忽略了，也不擅于经营和身边的人的关系。

就这样，一个人天真地，盲目地，向前冲。。。。。。
久而久之，
得不到肯定，身心也疲惫，
水满则倾。。。。。。

渐渐的，
放纵自己，不再坚持对的东西。

懒散，堕落。
对于过往的坚持气馁及失望，
学习不良的习惯。
促成今天的果实。

不知何月何日，
能远离这样的日子。
只希望一次又一次的反省，不像酒后的尿，一炮而去。

First Post in 2015

Here goes him, walking down the basement, to visit his store. It took him more than 2 hours to get in there this time. After leaving it for so long, the lock had gotten rusty and dusty. But he is a stubborn man, who don’t just give up yet. After some struggle, he manage to open the door. There it is, a smell of abandoned basement.

He sit in front of the cracked tv as usual. Looking at it as if something is playing. He could spend a night just sitting there and starring like that. After a while, he reach to the diary on the desk. He used to write diary. What an old fashioned man.

With the help of the dim light, he start writing :

_________________________________________________________________________________

17 Mac 2015, MondaY

-Feeling contented. -

I am refreshed by God through a sermon of Joseph Prince entitled “Grace Leads to True Repentance”. There was too much of message I received but I can’t share each of them here. Wish I was given the ability to do so.

By today, I’ve realized that my self-righteous which had hinder me from a true repentance all this while. I’ve realized the true meaning of repentance, which I have been misunderstand and kept condemning myself. I’ve realized, there’s nothing I can do to cleanse myself or live in holiness, except let God’s grace to fall on me. . .

So today, I want to receive this TRUE repentance. I want to have my breath, while aware that His grace is so awesome and overflowing. I prayed that my soul be renewed.

 I hereby also want to invite more person to receive this gift.

“You don’t have to worry when you found yourself filthy and unworthy, for God has knew it and He still love you, accept you and forgive you”

Reff : Grace Leads to True Repentance
__________________________________________________________________________________

He don't seem to write much this time. Maybe because it is late night already, he looks tire after finish the writing. Putting back the diary on the desk, he then move to the sofa and sleep over there. He don't snore, but he sleep soundly..

"You can’t stop the birds from flying over your head, but you can keep them from building a nest in your hair."

Well, I'm clearer that I'm still too vulnerable to people' though and respond..

Gosh, got to improve on that..
Perhaps order an anti-nest spray first..





God, I believe there is grudge and fear inside of me, keep holding me back, but I just can't recognize and deal with it..

I long for Your healing..

模糊的相片

“甜蜜蜜，你笑得甜蜜蜜，好像花儿开在春风里。。。。。。
兹。。。。。。兹。。。。。。”
当凯仁回过神时，
眼前的世界，尽是黑白的。
他观看，晓得他正处于一个七，八十年代的房子。那朴素的装潢，陈列的陶制瓷瓶，经典的收音机，没有一样是属于这个年代的。
房里的收音机时不时地在跳针，更衬托出那老旧的程度。


小心地，凯仁走向橱柜，眼目被琳琅满目的相片所吸引。他扫过每一张相片，脸上摆出疑惑的表情。他发现，每一张相片，都有个脸孔是特别的模糊。凯仁越是想，越是害怕，恐怕自己正上演恐怖片的男主角，转身想要离开。可这时，灯光灭了，凯仁不小心，失足了！随之，一个莫名的声音向凯仁靠近着，他想再次逃离，可他的脚不听使唤，他吓得脸发青，便 “啊。。。。。。”


事后，凯仁只觉得有些昏眩，当他张开眼睛时，才知道自己在飞机场的待机室睡着了。此时控制台正播放着温馨的最后提醒，让此时班机的乘客速速登机。噢，正是凯仁的班机！他赶紧收拾，提着行李排队去。当他检查自己的班机证件等等时他笑了。婆婆的照片都沾上了口水，必定是睡觉时流下的。哈哈，怪不得婆婆的脸，模糊了。。。。。。

凯仁愉快地，踏上班机，赶回家里吃团圆饭。



*祝读者新年快乐，平平安安！ 和家人共处美好的时间！ 神赐福你。。。。。。

The everlasting identity

Who am I, in other people' eyes?

I have kept myself drowning, fell into this trap again of questioning own value..

There were times that i thought that,

my presence is not appreciated;

my presence is not welcomed;

Some just take benefit and fun out of me...

Well, I must have forgotten my identity given by Him, which last till forever.

I am a prince of the kingdom.

I am a friend to Him,

I am His most precious son!

All of these is written in bible..

Thanks God for Your love,

Thanks God for Your wonderful reminder and perfect timing..

You are God of Wonder..

You are God who lead me to the meaning of this life..

猫的故事。。。。。。

偶然，在面子书上发现了以下这张可爱的照片。放为 "Profile Picture" 应该可以吸引不少个 "LIKE" 吧。。。

可殊不知，这张照片，竟有隐情，就是那么回事。。。。。。那只埋低头的小青。

在猫的村子里，可有这么一个传说。即拥有雪白之毛的猫，若当上村长，能带给猫们希望和平安！因此，村子里的猫都很崇拜雪丽这村长， 因它的毛泽白皙，犹如雪地，柔顺，犹如流水。。。并且，她非常疼爱村里的猫们。

但是，她的四的儿子，只遗传了她柔顺的毛，并没像她一样，拥有一身高贵的白雪毛色。反而每只都披着不同颜色的毛，也拥有不同的品性。

小蓝，善于管理，但目无尊长；

小橙，有小聪明，但自傲；

小青，谦卑，但笨拙；

小紫，有领导力，但妒忌心强。

到了这四个小猫成年的时候，也到了雪丽要交棒的时期了。

众长老都心有所属，纷纷推荐心目中的人选，然而决定权仍在雪丽掌中。

就在交棒大礼当天，雪丽毫无犹豫的让小青当上了村长。

当众人问起缘由时，雪丽说了一句：

“凡高抬自己的，必被降卑；凡自己谦卑的，必被升高.”

虽然雪丽的决定起初并无法得到所有猫的认同， 但当时间过去了，猫们也不得不承认，雪丽的选择，的确给猫们带来了希望和平安。。。。。。

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编完这小品后再仔细一读，还真觉得品质好差。故事走向太显明，死板, 并且语言不流畅。。。 =.=

东海岸的月光

转眼又是中秋节，今年也亦是身在异乡，处在制服团体的营会，只身赏月。
可也称不上赏月，不就只是望着几眼，即感慨罢了。
现在回想，也好久没和家人聚在一起吃着小点，提着灯笼，闹着玩了。

原来，长大了就难免遭到这样的考验。。。

How will you measure your life?

Well, I watched a inspiring video today and I think that it is worth watching because you may find it links closely to you, your life and your after-life...

Therefore present to you "How will you measure your life" from Clayton Christensen

Human, as a creature of limited mind, often binds to the sense of hieraki, unconsciously.
We though that the more a person earns, the more succeed he or she is;
We though that the more a person involve in charity, the more holy he or she is or going to become;

HOWEVER, is that truly the truth?
How will you really measure your life? Is that really the way life is measured?
Does God measure you by the money you earn?
Does God measure you by the certificate you ever received?
Does God measure you by choosing the way you measuring yourself?


*If you don't think or not sure whether you are trapped by this sense of hieraki. Just have a flashback about how you treat the people happen to appear in your life. Well, that explains a lot of things in my life, especially when i look back how i treat people differently according to a hieraki in my mind.


Now, not to mention that everyone has different perspective in way or ways to measure our life. Even our parent, would have different opinion with us. Personally, there is few messages in the video above i'm agree with. First, we shouldn't focus on own achievement. In fact, God have put everyone of us in different situation, what we should do is make use of our character and ability to help the people around us.

Second, God don't measure us by the charity we have done. Nah, don't get into confuse or conflict. It is true we should make good use of ourselves to benefit people around so that our presence make difference to others. However, still this is the truth ----God don't measure us by the charity we have done. Often with our limited mind of hieraki, we taught the the more charity we done, the more the God is willing to open His heaven for us. But charity can't wash the record of sin. It is a topic about Sin vs Charity now.

Lets go on with some analogies. A criminal who killed is not allowed to wash his record by doing charity. A person who did a lot of charity is also inevitable to be judged too if he commit a sin.
THEREFORE, charity is obviosly not an aspect God measure us.

To be honest, i also used to measure myself with the knowledge i have, charity i have involved and joy i can bring to the people around. It is this limited mind keeps me away from understanding His grace.

8 For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— 
9 not by works, so that no one can boast.

Ephesians 2:8-9

 

Last but not least, it is inevitable we measure ourselves, but we have to understand the fact that God who is almighty don't use the same eyes of us to measure us. He don't even measures us, He loves us disregard how "valued" or "cheap" we are in human eyes. God bless..

同班同学的聚会

"哈哈哈！是吗？他还是一直被欺负哦？"
"他怎么一直在换学科呢？”
“他打从中学以前就很会弹钢琴，好欣赏他噢。”
噼里啪啦。。。。。。

同学聚会对我而言，就仅次于三八妇女会。
每个人都七嘴八舌，喋喋不休的，还来不及要回应，又有别的话题“脱口涌出”
时而说起某某人的八卦绯闻，
时而谈起某某人的过往。

如果你也曾留意，
有些人从坐上椅子后，
就不停的说，笑，
直到点的饭菜上桌后，
拿着碗筷，
仍在说笑着，
他的声音，
渲染着同桌朋友。。。。。。


有些人会反却安静地听着。
或许，
提到了不堪回首的过往，
或许，
觉得聊不下去了，
亦或许，
他在反思中。
听着某某人的境况，或现有的成绩，
他难免惭愧，觉得自己的生活并不精彩，成功，和积极。
他羡慕他人繁忙的时间表，
他羡慕他人艰难的工作，
他羡慕他人努力的成果。。。。。。

事实上，
就在这同桌中，
有些人向往轻松自在，
也有人向往认真上进，
两者都用不同的放大镜在看世界。
人，可以活得很轻松且潇洒，也可以拘谨有原则。

神造世人，
若每个人都是一个样的，
岂不无聊吗？
这样的神，
也未免太无创造力了吧。

一种米养百种人，
人各有志，
每个人也都有自己的道路，生活，故事。
可我们也该时时反省且提醒自己，
时间久了，我们
是否仍在追随对的东西，
是否仍在鞭策的道路上。。。。。。


听着听着，
竟已黄昏了。
回头才发现，自己偏离了过往鞭策的轨道。
真的是时间改变了我吗？
我不知道，
磚牛角尖想下去，无法带我回到轨道。
只知道，这场聚会好有意义。

同班的同学，
有时反成为我们的借镜，
让我们更看清自己。。。。。。

*感谢成为我借镜的朋友。